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Scared
Original Post by Christina Ulrich at 6:39 PM PST on 05/15/2004
Independence, KY - RNY (05/25/2004)
My surgery is scheduled for May 25. I have to be there at 5:30 a.m. and surgery starts at 7:30.
I am excited and scared at the same time. One minute I am so excited that I am ready to start living my life again. Then the next minute, I am thinking "what in the world am I doing"? I don't want to die but I am afraid that if I don't have the surgery I will. I work for a very large company. Two people that I know of, has passed away from this surgery. One was just this past week. I do know of others that have done very well.
I really need some reassurance right now.
Please pray for me.
Thank you for your kind words. I am praying for you also. When you're up to it, email me and let me know how things go.
Deep down, I have a feeling that I will be ok. I am excited to have the surgery. I am looking forward to being able to do so many things that I can't do now.
I think it is normal to have mixed feelings.
Take care and God bless
Dear Christina, I had my surgery on May 4th and I am feeling great. You need nothing negative around you at this point and time. Don't think about those people who died. They may have comorbidities that you don't know anything about. Also they may not have had the same doctor as you. Just remember God said that he knew you before you were even shaped in your mothers womb. So it he knew your destiny then he will bless you in whatever you choose to do. You are a strong woman for just making this decision. Because no matter what anyone on the outside looking in says this was a heart wrenching decision to make. Remember to walk and if you have a spirometer breath with it and it can save your life. Don't worry about the negative things because you will do great! Imagine yourself in that bikini on the beach next summer. Be Blessed Nita
I can understand how you feel - I have just begun the process of getting surgery scheduled and since then my stomach has been in knots...
Your statement of "I don't want to die, but I am afraid if I don't have the surgery I will." is so very correct.
As the nurse told my husband and I yesterday - those that die tend to have had a large number of other health problems. And - remember - you could die crossing the street. Life is about taking risks and calculating the odds.
The odds of living longer/healthy are much greater with this surgery then without it.
My thoughts and prayers are with you too.