ELEVEN DAYS OUT...AND SOME THOUGHTS...

I AM SCHEDULED FOR SURGERY ON MAY 11, 2004. I AM GETTING MORE ANTSY AND HARD TO GET ALONG ON AN HOURLY BASIS. I AM TIRED AND RESTLESS AND SHORT TEMPERED. I CAN ONLY PRAY THAT THE DAY COMES AND GOES WITHOUT A HITCH. I ALSO PRAY THAT I AM DOING THE RIGHT THING FOR MYSELF AND THOSE WHOM I LOVE. I GUESS I CAN UNDERSTAND HOW FAMILY MEMBERS ARE FEARFUL OF THOSE OF US WHO ARE UNDERTAKING THIS LIFE CHANGE. THEY MAY FEAR THE DANGER OF SURGERY...THEY MAY FEAR FOR OUR OUTCOME...THEY MAY EVEN FEAR THE PERSON WE MAY BECOME AND HOW THEIR RELATIONSHIP WITH US WILL CHANGE. I HAVE HAD COMMENTS ON HOW I'M GOING TO BECOME "MISS SASSY" OR SOMEONE SIMILAR. I WAS NEVER THAT PERSON AND DON'T SEE ME TURNING INTO ONE AT 50+!!..ALL BECAUSE I LOST A LOT OF WEIGHT. OUR FEARS MANIFEST THEMSELVES IN MANY WAYS AND IT IS UP TO US TO BE STRONG AND STAY STRONG FOR THOSE WHOM WE LOVE. WE NEED TO REASSURE THEM THAT ALL IS WELL AND THAT OUR RELATIONSHIP TO THEM WILL BE ENHANCED WITH THIS SURGERY AND THE NEW LEASE ON LIFE IT WILL GIVE US. LET'S MAKE THEM UNDERSTAND THAT THIS SURGERY CAN BE A BEAUTIFUL GIFT FOR US ALL!! WELL, I GUESS I WILL GET OFF MY SOAP BOX FOR NOW!! YUKYUK! M

Mary: I'm so glad to know that others are going through the same things as me. I am 25 days out and already getting tough to live with. I wonder if I am really doing the right thing. What if something happens and my two kids are left with no mother. Would it be better to have fat mother than none at all? This second guessing is killing me. I want to be healthy so I can be a better mother. But is this being selfi****HINK I am doing the right thing. aaarrrggghhh! I pray A LOT and hope God will put my mind at ease and give me some peace with this. At any rate - you are not alone and your post was great. ~ * Alice Ann * ~

Hi Mary, I feel the same way, Hoping and praying I am doing the right thing, that my life will be better! Guess what? My date is also may 11th! Good luck to you, you will be in my prayer!

I loved your post. I too felt some of the very things you expressed but the more I read on the subject and the more people I talked to and saw their results the better I felt. I have felt so at peace with my decision for the last few weeks. I am just ready to have my surgery and start a new beginning. Best of luck to you. You will be in my prayers as everyone having WLS. Karen

Hey Mary.... Boy, can I relate to this! Not only am I know only a few days away, but I had to quit smoking two weeks ago. I also have to stop caffeine. Talk about a bi-atch! I've been a MAJOR one! No "real" coffee and no smokes! Jeez! Anyway, thank goodness my co-workers love me and are so understanding and supportive. They actually gave me a "Last Supper Party" yesterday with all those foods that will be "forbidden" after WLS. Prayers and best wishes. mpf

Hi Mary, Just thought I would let you know that you are not alone. I too am 11 days out and will be having surgery on 5/11/04. I am a nervous wreck and have the same thoughts as you. I find myself waking up at night and asking myself if I am doing the right thing. The next morning I am faced with a recent picture of myself, and/or a positive sign that I am definitely doing the right thing. It's these signs that I hang onto right now. I have two children, and my 17 year old daughter has been sooooooooo supportive of me, as well as my younger son and husband. I will be happy when the 11th has arrived and I am being brought into the operating room or better yet the recovery room Hope all goes well for you and I look forward to chatting with you post-operatively. Keep in touch. Kim G