Feeling Emotional?

Hi all; I was just wondering if anyone else is having the swing of emotions that I am experiencing. I have had my surgery date for one month now... and I am 30 days and counting. I find that one moment I am excited and thinking about how thin I will be next year this time... and then wondering, if I don't make it, what will be going on with my loved ones... I can talk rationally about the surgery one moment and then tear up the next... One night I dream about life being thinner, and the next night I have a dream about something morbid... literally! Other than my teenage years, I don't recall having this swing in emotions and it is catching me off guard. Is anyone else experiencing this?

Hi Debra, You bring up some feeling that we all are having, but just not talking about on the list. And we should. You just never know how your body will react to this Surgery. EVERYONE should have a Living Will or a Durable Power of Attorney written up before their Surgery. I've done mine and made 5 copies, one to my Husband, one for my PCP, one for my Surgeon, one for the Hospital and one for my daughter in case something were to happen to my Husband she has the right to make my medical decisions for me as I have written them out. The form I filled out came from the "Five Wishes." You can order them from this web site, www.agingwithdignity.org They are Legal in 35 States. Everyone should have a living will, for you just never know what will happen. Also it's a great time to write personal letters to your loved One. For you just don't know what will happen. And incase it don't go right and you happen to die, you can have some last min. words to pass on to your loved ones. It's hard to do. But makes a world of difference to them. Jean

My surgery date is also May 4th. I'm not emotional more anxious. I do find myself wondering if my family really realizes what could happen. I'm not sure they are prepared for the worse and that worries me. Maybe becasue I've been so positive about the surgery, they think I'll be home in 3 days, recoup in 3 weeks and things will be semi-normal. I keep thinking I should be preparing my husband and my daughter for what could happen. It seems all I think about is the surgery, I also had some really weird dreams about the surgery right after I got my date. I haven't told all of my siblings, I have seven of them. I've told 2 of my sisters, I'm pretty close to them but I'm not close the the other 5. I also haven't told my dad. I'm not too fond of his wife and I just don't want to talk to them about this. So, I'm also dealing with, do I tell them in case something should happens or do I have the surgery and hope it all goes well and I can tell them later. I think my anxiety level will go down if I tell them. Maybe I've answered my own question. I was going to help you and just sending them message is helping me. I will pray for you as I pray for my own recovery. I wasn't sure if there was anyone else with the May 4th date. We will have to keep in touch and see how we do after surgery. Karen

Hi Karen, You are not alone on May 4th. for your Surgery . There are 7 people on the list for May 4th. And there is time for more to come in. Maybe it would help you to write letters to those who you feel you can't talk to? Place them is a safe place and tell your Husband if the worst should happen to hand out your letters. And after you are back home toss them . Jean

Jean and Karen: Thanks for your responses. The information on the Living Wills and DPA is good stuff. As it turns out, I did tell all of my siblings... and gave them my web page site so they can see updates. That way, they can get as much info as they need/want.

I know exactly what you are feeling!! I have twin 17 month old boys and sometimes I wonder if I am doing the right thing even though I feel so positive about what I am doing. I want to be sure I am here for them and wonder how I will be after my surgery. Some people ask me why I am doing it and then some people think it will be the best thing for me. I have never been thin and I feel like this is what I need to do to have a better life!! I feel like I am on an emotional see-saw!! All we can do is leave it in God's hands and pray that we get the best outcome!!!