break down

so i  have a confession, i had my first official break down yesterday. i got really crazy upset because i miss pasta and cheese burgers. i know those items are part of the reason i got this big but i just got really upset and i was crying like an idiot over food sometimes i miss eating. like just sitting down and eating what ever i want i fell like eating is such a pain in the ass sometimes. i have to measure or weigh my food and the slowly very slowly nibble and chew or get sick. i am still very happy that i got the surgery but i really doubted that i would grieve the food loss like i had heard people talking about so i guess i was unprepared for the emotion that came out yesterday i felt like i needed to share that with all of you. has anyone else had a experience like that or am i just a nut?

you are not even close to being a nut!!  ive had the same problem, but it gets better.  i use to crave a double cheeseburger at mcdonalds even though i can barely eat anything due to all my issues with eating after surgery.  there are times where i really wish i didnt have the surgery just so i could eat what ever, when ever.  that too is getting better but i still have my moments where i think, man i just wish i could go back so i can eat what ever.  its funny that i miss eating but i can't eat anything.  i am even having troubles getting liquids in :(  hang in there!  we are all in this together!  addictions are so hard to overcome!

thank you that made me feel a lot better

Aww, Mandee - that sucks!!  I know my first 3 weeks I was feeling pretty frustrated about not being able to JUST EAT WHAT I want - how fast I want and when I want.  LOL.

Now I am happy to say that it doesn't bug me anymore.  I even went to a chinese buffet and the sight of all the noodles and rice and all that fried breaded suff didnt' make me drool.  I was really eyeing all the healthy stuff and I stuck with some shrimp and green beans and a tomato slice and cucumber slice.   Eye on the prize....and remember that a year or so down the road we can eat somewhat normally again....just somewhat :) :)

I hear ya. I haven't had a break down YET. I know it may happen so I just wait.

I hope you are feeling better now and I truly believe that when we are all skinny and healthy, we'll laugh about these times!! lol.

I said to my husband about a week ago, as I watched him stuff his face at Chevy's with fajitas, how I was missing just eating ALOT, feeling the food go down and all that. I was slowly eating a bowl of chicken soup and I wasn't sure it was going to agree with me! But it was just that day and I'm over it. Hang in there and it will be history for you too. Thanks for sharing!
Heiti

You are definitely not a nut! I have actually looked into attending overeaters anonymous meetings just to have support. They are the only type of weight type support groups where I live. I haven't had a meltdown but I probably will. I ate to cope with life, not a good thing.

Chrissy

OMG you are sooo not a nut... I am going through the exact same thing right now. I cant even have a bite of a Blizzard from DQ when my family all gets to eat that, plus cheeseburgers and fries and all the other yummy stuff... I hate this stupid surgery... I miss my food. Thursday will be 5 weeks post op and I sooo hate that I did this. But I don't want to go back to prior to the surgery either - well not completely. I just wanna be able to eat what I want to eat and not have to exercise and I really really want to chug down a 20ml bottle of Deer Park water (Yes, I miss my water - cuz I just can't seem to get it all in). I am scared to try all the new protein shakes that are out there because I am super sensitive to the smell and taste of it and can't find anything without artificial flavoring that tastes good (as far as drinks go) and just feel so damn lost.
I MISS MY FOOD AND DRINKS.
And to top it all off, week 3 to 4 post op, I didn't lose not ONE pound so that just makes me even more mad - and I was walking my booty off then too... 30mins at 4.6mph. I mean some serious walking... and i maintained weight. How is that even possible?!

So, to answer your question, no- you are not a nut - cuz if you are... Then I am the queen nut! 
-Amy

This post really moved me.  Not only are you not a nut, it's obvious that a lot of us feel the same way.  My family had Papa John's today (which was my favorite pizza and wings) and I looked at it so sadly.  I miss eating too.  I ate when I was happy and when I was sad.  I ate to bring myself comfort and make me feel better.  Now, I have to find other things that make me happy.  It's really not easy.  I regreted this surgery since I've had it done but I know I wouldn't go back now.  I've been in a stall for three weeks and that makes you really crazy.  At least if I can't eat I want the weight to be falling off of me.  Not so.  I guess a lot of us all have this same problem.  I won't even go into the story about me crying about the Memorial Day BBQ.  LOL  What you need to do is the same thing I'm doing.  Find something else you love and stick to that.  I'm still looking but right now, all I know is that music makes me feel good!

Hang in there!

None of you are nuts...it's just part of the process.  I think that we have all lost a part of our identity by not being able to eat what and when we want.  But it's the "what and when" thing that got us all into the position that made us decide to take such a drastic step as weight loss surgery. 

I too have longed for the grilled deli sandwiches at Jack in the Box (or just the grilled sourdough for that matter.)  But I'm NOT sorry I did the surgery.  I am slowly learning that food should not be the focus of my day, but simply a required part of it.  I mourn the loss of enjoying my food (totally NOT enjoyable right now) but I know I am treating my body more like it deserves. 

As for those of you experiencing stalls...I had a stall around week 2, and just ended a 3.5 week (yes 24 days!!!!!!) stall.  But overall I have lost 56 pounds (including pre-op loss) and my body is already rewarding me for all my hard work.  I can once again walk around my block, I have more energy, my butt doesn't hurt nearly as much after riding my bike, and...I CAN CROSS MY LEGS AGAIN!

Please don't talk negatively to yourselves...just keep reminding yourself that you are trading happiness that came from food for happiness that comes from feeling better, moving better, and looking better.  The latter form of happiness is healthier and will last longer!!!

HANG IN THERE!!