i just figure its pointless now, that i've undone the surgery or the tool that everyone calls it, so what's the point?? I wasted thousands of dollars and my surgeons time and everyone else's. im just gonna be fat forever and I have to find a way to accept that.

Oh Cindy you have to be so scared and nervious about what is going on I can only imagine.I have u in my prayers and will include u in our family prayer tonight.Try to think of losing weight gives u the best outcome for avoiding cancer or reducing the effects of cancer. Obesity can acclerate cancer and u losing weight should be a plus to fight the war of cancer odds of keeping it in remission .. and yes this just bites and sucks.. LOVE YA CINDY Please let us know asap .. I am gonna be nervious for u all day today. Lisa

hi guys I know I haven't been on for a long time but I've really had a hard fall & winter. I pretty much gave up on my postsurgery diet and stuff. I don't know what's wrong with me but am going to a counselor so hopefully that will help. I pretty much have my pouch stretched so I can figure cuz I can eat pretty much what I want in like normal amounts. winter is always bad for me, my depression was crazy its gotten better but still there. I haven't even gone back to see my surgeon cuz im so embarrassed and ashamed. I've been the same weight for months, just gaining and losing the same 10-15 lbs, I'm trying to get exercising more but its not really working. I just dont know whether to just give up, if its even worth it now or not. I hope everyone else is doing really great.

Well, as most of you know, in Dec 2003 I was diagnosed with kidney cancer and had my right kidney removed. Now I have to have ct scans done once a year for the rest of my life. Well, Monday was my day for this year and I got my results back today. I guess there is something suspicious in my colon along with enlarged lymph nodes in my groin and axillas. I also have multiple nodules growing in my right lung. My primary dr faxed the reports to the oncologist today and I am suppose to hear from them sometime tomorrow. Doesnt this just bite??? I didnt lose weight and start feeling better about myself for this!!!!! So please just say a BIG prayer for me. Thanks, I love you all, Cindy

My honey moon is over at 24 months LOL lap banders take 2 years to reach goal. but that is ok as long as I continue to no longer be a diabetic the surgery is a sucess already .. I just wish I could get below 200 I am stuck at 205 grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr getting old week after week after week think I am on 20 week platue AGAIN but I do go in for fill may 20. I had a dream I was 198 got up this am and I was 205 ugh.. DARN IT LOL Doesn't it feel good to be off meds Inky? Lisa