Hi everyone, I do not even know how I find strength to even get up in morning . Just  thinking my life could not get more complicated it did. We got  a call thursday that my hubbies mom is on life support. Hubby was still in alaska and had to catch a few flights to try make it in time. He arrived just in time,He arrived friday at 6 pm and she died @ 6am  We were at her side when she died. Was very hard to watch  her take her last breath and see her heart stop. I been dealing with his family making arrangements and they are making me crazy is a understatement. I just bite my tongue but not sure how much I can keep take this . I am about to just collapse from stress. Feel free to call me Shar when u catch your breath I am just home for 24 hours then heading up north for services on friday. I am going back to see the surgeon to finalyize and set a date to have my masectomy. I Hope everyone has a wonderful thanksgiving for me i just want a quiet one
Lisa

Well Im doing pretty good. Little to no pain. Eating better. Still not gaining weight though. Im bouncing between 114 and 118.  My Dr would like me around 125.
My life is starting to take a turn for the better finally! This past year has really sucked! Im finally feeling like myself again, I have a great guy who supports me, my finances are a little better. I did have to file bankruptcy and I lost my house, but Ive started over and things are so much better now. Shar Im glad you are doing better. I hope the cardiac thing isnt anything serious.
Lisa, Im praying for you. You have had a lot on your plate this year too! Remember we are all pulling for each other! I dont think I would have made it through this year without the support from all of you.
I hope you all have a great Thanksgiving!
And we do have so much to be thankful for.
I love you all,
Cindy 

So good to see you Dee!!!!! I had no clue this was comming my way I heard of brca gene but never saw that even a remote possibly and saw possiby when my aunt died 20 years ago it was a cancer  that maybe was sporadiac or just familial trait, I heard this gene was prevelant amoung jewish but now I find it hits hispanics dutch scandivian list goes on and it just snuck up on us. Only one sister tested positive for the gene but the other sister will be  retested to make sure it was not missed as she has breast cancer My oldest sister has the same gene as I
 Trust me I am not a hero or strong, I am scared and thinking damn I cannot beleive this is happening.I am working on courage and maybe going threw the emotions but i am making the right choices to beat my odds agaisnt having cancer.
I love ya dee!!!
Lisa

I just love You Jodi!!!!!!  Can u believe us jodi  dealing with this medical crap after WLS ? I have to say  even tho this sucks and I am gonna have to do prophylactic masectomy and prophylactic removal of uterus fallopian ovaries cervix I am gonna shore up my odds not to get cancer. I was thinking could you imagine if i was 300 lbs and having to make this decison and I am thinking what doc in his right mind would do such a invasive surgerys with a woman that size? I would be flat out of luck being so heavy You are so right we are in far better heath  than we were two plus years ago and it may seem we are having alot of breck down now post WLS but to be honest our wagon was broken along time ago and we just ignored fixing the problems associated with obesity. Just losing the weight for anyone lowers our odds of not getting cancer.
I was talking to my sister sat morning via Phone for over two hours and we were talking about damn this really sucks and well lets talk about OUR CHOICES. She said on phone her hubby could not even talk about the breast issues post her chemo for ovarian cancer  and she was so glad to be talking to her little sis about the choices we need to make in very near future, I told her that my two brave sisters will probally save my life and their u guys are even in older life you were looking out for your  baby sis. I said we are gonna beat this and die old and sitting in rockers somewhere with are perky boobs at 90 and being the envy of nursing home for having  perky boobs. We just cracked up. I said We have lots of choices  as cancer has not hit our boobies and we have tons of choices and so what we may look like sally on nightmare before xmas with our stitch lines everywhere. I figure my boob job in april was just training boobs kinda like we had we when we were small wearing training bras. We are not 17 anymore and nor do I want to be. We are fighting woman strong and we have beat the odds of morbid obesity so why not beat the odds of cancer right??? We are strong beautiful and certainly look alot better now than we did 10 years ago. I am looking at my old scars on my knees and u know they really have smooth out since the wls I think having better circulation  now than I do when being so HEAVY makes a difference
I am gonna be a sexy old lady with perky boobs  and not I wanna be a  Old woman they portray on the Kaiser commercial. I am gonna  be a ******y old woman with perky boobs kinda old woman LOL
Love u guys
Lisa