Was really not about sugar free ice cream it is what it stood for that made u panic. Here u have lost amazing amount of weight sticking to the program and u were in control of your life and at one time u had no control over your life. Lets face it none of us had control of our lives being morbid obese. To you I suspected it felt like u were cheating kinda like cheating on your spouse. Some people who cheat on their spouse feel sick after they decided they were gonna threw with it. Like no turning back now once u indulge into something u decided u were not gonna do tell now. Actually I choose to eat skinnny fudge bar only had 50 calories and I feel great i made a good choice. TRY TO RELAX ...TO YOU U FELT U WERE CHEATING ON YOUR DIET/ SCALE. You have done a amazing job. U will have to learn to live like a former obese person and the only differerence is u r in control and this is a new way of life and thinking before u would not given a care to ice cream you were eating. It will balance out Lisa

Thanks Inky. I do not show an obstruction but things are still not right. Yesterday, I had problems with passing out and weird numbness in my legs. I have never had stuff like this before and quite frankly, it scared the hell out of me. I had more blood work done this morning and will see the surgeon later today. I lost 3 lbs in 24 hrs and that is scary also since I am already below goal.

Okay I know that I'm taking in to many calories with my grazing. I am curious though how many calories do you take in a day? On my worst day I'd say I eat 1200. I know thats horrible but I should make my confessions public. Thanks for the input. Amanda

I'm now 16 months out from surgery.... And in those 16 months I can honestly say, without even thinking twice, that I have had sugar on two occasions. Neither one of them being intentional. One was my fault, and one wasn't. Anyhow.. So I haven't had sugar in over a year... I haven't eaten a regular potato chip in over a year.. I haven't snacked on cookies, or binged on chocolate... I haven't stuffed myself silly on any kind of food... I haven't touched a french fry, or a cheese steak, or candy... I have not eaten ANYTHING bad in over a year. I know my triggers... I know what I can allow myself to have, and not to have... I've sat around and watched others snacking on chocolate, or eating mcdonalds, drinking milkshakes, ect.... Sat by and watched. And I've stuck by that for over a year. I treated myself down the shore to two pieces of sugar free chocolate that made me feel absolutely awful. The sugar alcohol was enough to make me feel horrible. I've worked hard, I've exercised.. I've pushed myself harder and harder... Most of you know I'm really tough on myself. I've had a few episodes where the scale was ruling my life.. I've been obsessive about losing weight, and my food, and my caloric intake, my protein intake, making sure all my vitamin levels are correct... It has NOT been an easy ride, and I never expected it to be. A lot of the issues lie within myself, and myself only. I don't want, or feel the need to see a psychologist about anything, because truthfully, I've been able to work through my issues mostly by myself, and with Norm's, and all of your help. Anyway, back to being tough on myself... this is how horrible I am. Sunday is our grocery shopping day usually... and I decided a few days ahead of time that I DESERVED to treat myself to a ½ c of sugar free ice cream. It was going to be a reward to myself... I was going to allow myself to indulge for once. Norm went into another aisle while I was browsing the sugar free ice creams. I picked up a few gallons, read the nutritional info, and quickly put them down.. I proceeded to do this about, and I kid you not... about 6 times with maybe 7-8 different cartons. Then, I was feeling panicky... almost like I was about to have some kind of a panic attack... I felt my eyes well up... Norm came back and I stormed out of the aisle... I felt like, and this is crazy, not only that I wouldn't be able to control myself if I bought the ice cream, but I felt like I didn't deserve it. I felt that if I bought that ice cream, everything that I had worked for, and everyone who looked up to me, would be let down. I know this is an insane way to think... but it's what I felt. I was so upset/angry/frustrated/confused, that when we got home, I cried. I cried about ice cream... not that I had eaten a ton of it, and regretted it, but I cried because I wasn't sure if I necessarily deserved to eat it. I know Norm told me he's experienced this before... but has anyone else? Because I can not believe the way I allowed myself to feel in a grocery store... about ICE CREAM! Norm said we're going to go to Wegman's so we can look at their s/f ice cream... Apparently they have different brands and whatever that other stores don't carry... I'm hoping I can pick up a gallon of ice cream without giving myself a panic attack. Lol...

Hello Ladies Sorry I am a day late. For yet another week I have stayed the same. DOS: 345 lbs Yesterday: 166 lbs. 179 lbs gone forever. In my mind not losing is driving me nuts. I want to lose at least another 10 lbs. However, my doctor has told me he does not want me to lose another ounce. He said for my height (6'0") my BMI and weight are perfect and it may be dangerous for me to lose any more. I am not happy about that, and he said that it is body dysmorphic disorder that is driving me to want to keep losing. Anyone else hear anything like this from their doctors???