Thanks for those encouraging words! I also lost my mom 6 years ago this month. It is something that you never get over. As far as my brother, he has the same kind of cancer your mom had. They have not given him a time span. They did surgery and will start chemo in a couple of weeks. I just got back from Dallas tonight. I spent 5 days with him in rehab. I saw GREAT improvement! My sister said it was because I was there but who knows???? His main Dr. is at MD Anderson and that is where he has been going for 17 years. He has had brain cancer 2 other times in other parts of the brain and several strokes. With Gods grace, he can still function pretty much by himself. Thank you again and I am just so thankful for having my A team here! We will make it!

Hello everyone!  After reading everyones post, I feel ablout the same as the rest of you! My brother had brain surgery and has been diagnosed with stage 4  cancer, my work is slow, i stay tired all the time,  and the winter weather is making my fibro almost unbearable at times!  I am tryong to focus on the positive in my life, but the negetive just keeps on coming! I am so thankful that I can spend my days with my Grandbaby! He is such a joy to me! I have noticed lately I can eat more than I use to. I usally have a 1/2 sandwich for lunch and can only eat part of it minus the crust. Now I can eat all of it minus the crust and a maybe a strawberry or two. I can also eat almost a cup of chili and I have never been able to eat but about 3.4 cup. My friend that had rny 7 years ago told me that she can eat normal size meals and has been able to since year 2. Hummm. I was just wondering, how much can you guys eat? From time to time, i order a pintos n cheese from taco bell and I can eat the whole thing now.  OK now about my weight, well, I am about the same...up or down a pound or two, depending on what day I weigh. i am still so wanting to get into the 150's!  I know i need to up my exxercise! That will do it, the question is....AM I WILL ING TO DO WHAT I NEED TO DO TO GET WHAT I WANT!!!! I am thinking about you guys.......

I am back  from my father in laws funeral  and trying to figure out my life and the derailment going on in my head, I am 173 down 2 lbs ..   I am just surviving life Ok . off to meet my day and hopefully get some renewed intrest in cleaning. I had a bad dream last night  and  woke up screaming. It was so real. I have no energy or intrest in cleaning my house just so overwhelmed and in a funk. i am making no sense LOL
Lisa

Hey Everyone!!! Well my life has been on a rollar coaster as u all know up down up down and I am not just talking the scale but more like lifes  being  on a rollar coaster and it feels like I must have ticked off their rollar coaster operator and he is not letting me off.
My father in law died on tuesday  after many years of suffering and we were by his bedside. Very hard to watch two people I have cared for  (Hubbies parents) pass away.I am sometimes have no idea if I am comming or going. My sister in law died last week and her services will be  feb 13 and my father will be on sunday/mon Feb 7/8.My hubbies family is just over whelmed with the death of recent family members.
Thanks Shar for your prayers. I am still scheduled for my surgery Feb 22 abd I am not even emotional  have accepted it is for real just have not had a moment to even digest what is about to happen  and the  event that is about to take place I have thought about post poing it  and I am on the verge of just  forgoing it but yesterday I taked to my sister and her battle of post chemo problems and it was then I realized I need to do this. I am stressed out to the max is a understatement. I am just trying to catch up on family life and and my poor kids I feel are just been negleted threw all this. I broke down to my daughter yesterday on the phone with her in a dept store dressing room. She is planning a temple sealing right after my surgery and I was thinking well I hope I can make it post surgery, This is a big day  for her. We were looking for a white dress to fit her swollen 5 month tummy and she was kinda embaressed looking at wedding dresses and she felt she had to explain I been married 6 years just doing a religious sealing in the temple,I told her my daughter most people dont even Bat a eye u r pregnant but I must admit none were gowns were gonna fit  her. We are doing online shopping now LOL

Dee being a mother of two autistic kids I know how it feels to reach a mile stone which alot take for granted a Kiss or perhaps a hug, My son is autistic that is 23 and he is doing amazing well. He does have a hard time with processing stress and the death of his grandparents and aunt has take a toll on him and sadly most teachers at the univ he attends do not give a rats A$$ I told him u need to realized  your feelings are normal, He just has a hard time processing emotions he does feel. I think his autism  has soften over th last few years and he is dating on ocassion
I can see u beaming over from  her Dee
Hugs to everyone
I will post when  get back from the funeral, My weight is up and actually very shocked at I am up to 175 lbs  and I am thinking I have hardly eaten over days but What i been eating has been dense calories, I am not gonna stress over it and  figure I can take this off but it was import to post my weight gain  in the hall of shame for me LOL But this is  my 175 get off my butt  number and do something about knocking off the weight. I will try to be better,I need to be in 160 something I feel better in that range.I figured I am never gonna be 140 or even 150 something but I am very very healthy with my labs and that is what the doc told me I am extremly.Oh so for a 51 year old she told me most people are not as healthy as u bottom line and she said u have great numbers nothing is abnormal range I got a A+ on my labs. I got to be doing something right.
 

I always have such negative things to say soo before I start my usual I just have to say that yesterday was by far one of the best momemts in my life. As you all knkow my son nick has autism he is high functioning thank god, but still has many obstacles. well yesterday for the first time ever he kissed me. He is 9 and never has givin me a kiss. When ever I say hey nick give me a kiss goodnight he always just leans over and gives me his cheek. Last night before he went to bed he leaned over and kissed my cheek and said goodnight. I was in tears like I am right now. Autism has robbed so many little things that most take for granted. Last night it gave me one back!

You know I am so happy right now for once I wont even bring up the negative for one post I just want to be blissfully happy!!

I miss you guys have a super week ! Shar I am going to go to my 3 year check up have not set the date I need to get my bloodwork done first probally will be in april. I will let you know so we can meet up.