So everyone else is on a diet
I had just spent the weekend down visiting my folks and they had not seen me since I had my TT and they were really shocked to see the new me with new figure, I come from a family that is extremly competive even in our older age, Looks is a big deal with the spanish in our family line. As we get older we fight the lines sagging skin etc.
My mom was making commet how my tiny petite sisters (I was the jolly green giant) were going on a diet. They are both 5 ft and I am 5'7".Ok hardly a news flash BUT being my height is tall but for my family I am the tall BIG one,HA HA
Well anyway we are planning a family reunion on my Dad's side in june and well my sisters do not want to be fat LOL Oh yeah starting at size 8 pants and hope to be size zero before the renion is hardly being fat,
I was so excited as I got to size 10 jeans and mom just pops my bubble and says maria may be able to give u size 8 jeans as she is trying to get in smaller jeans for the reunion. Hell size 8 was goal for me.
I cannot use the excuse I am big bone as I am very tiny and petite bone like my family and according to my doc reason why he says 140 is a possible goal. I come from a line of former models dancers etc . Come from line of multimilionaires abound, I am just the avg joe blow.That blew her olympic trials in swimming butterfly to appendectomy . My name to fame was failure, So what did I do AFTER THE BIGGEST FAILURE is become FAT. Had aslew of special needs kids and end up in psych ward hardly something to be proud of,
I was so proud of my self and doing what I though was pretty good, Now I am home reprocessing the negatively of the weekend. I hate doing this and I cannot say oh don't let that crap bother you, Just be proud of how far u come etc but this is real life and real issues I must digest but now with out food to console and I have to find the renewed strength again,
I know I should not worry about what others think but I do worry what others think and I know I should not but it is not that easy,
People tell me that all the time but u know that is bull crap as we all worry how we look and think of others think of us .Just we have to find balance.I should not find box of cookies is all. This is what got all of us being fat is how we dealt with stress and addiction, Food was my vice and drug of choice to swallow the pain, I hate to see if I used drugs, No doubt I would be a morbid drug user LOL
My dad told me I can and should be a motivactional speaker as I am strong and can pick my self of deepest despair and I told my Dad I am writing a book on How to help people combat morbid obesity. I look deeper into issues of why we get to being over 100 pounds over weight. We were just not fat we were really fat. Trust me if i can get down to size 10 jeans from size 28/30 jeans anyone can,
I will suceed agaisnt the odds and yes I will become victories and strong again .
Just this time I will not be eating my way threw processing the negativity.
I want to hear from everyone how do u deal with the processing of the negativityin you life and what keeps u not going back to being morid obese?
I am a realistic person and know that I can easily being 295 pounds again but it is my mind set that is changing and still changing.
I never thought I would wear a size 10 again.
I did buy a bathing suit and I end up buying mens matching speedo swim trunks to cover my thighs up. I thought I was pretty smart cookie to come up with the idea,
I am fighting my docs about not doing butterfly again and I told them u know I am not gonna listen to you. I am not giving up on a stoke I love to do, I am fighting the advance stages of spinal stenosis and that is gonna be the biggest challange but I am not gonna go down w/o a fight. I refuse to let that grave diagnosis put me down. It has been 11 weeks since I have been in pool and that is like eternity,
I really want to hear how you do it week after week fighting the past and living the new you.
U guys matter to me and inspire me
Lisa
My mom was making commet how my tiny petite sisters (I was the jolly green giant) were going on a diet. They are both 5 ft and I am 5'7".Ok hardly a news flash BUT being my height is tall but for my family I am the tall BIG one,HA HA
Well anyway we are planning a family reunion on my Dad's side in june and well my sisters do not want to be fat LOL Oh yeah starting at size 8 pants and hope to be size zero before the renion is hardly being fat,
I was so excited as I got to size 10 jeans and mom just pops my bubble and says maria may be able to give u size 8 jeans as she is trying to get in smaller jeans for the reunion. Hell size 8 was goal for me.
I cannot use the excuse I am big bone as I am very tiny and petite bone like my family and according to my doc reason why he says 140 is a possible goal. I come from a line of former models dancers etc . Come from line of multimilionaires abound, I am just the avg joe blow.That blew her olympic trials in swimming butterfly to appendectomy . My name to fame was failure, So what did I do AFTER THE BIGGEST FAILURE is become FAT. Had aslew of special needs kids and end up in psych ward hardly something to be proud of,
I was so proud of my self and doing what I though was pretty good, Now I am home reprocessing the negatively of the weekend. I hate doing this and I cannot say oh don't let that crap bother you, Just be proud of how far u come etc but this is real life and real issues I must digest but now with out food to console and I have to find the renewed strength again,
I know I should not worry about what others think but I do worry what others think and I know I should not but it is not that easy,
People tell me that all the time but u know that is bull crap as we all worry how we look and think of others think of us .Just we have to find balance.I should not find box of cookies is all. This is what got all of us being fat is how we dealt with stress and addiction, Food was my vice and drug of choice to swallow the pain, I hate to see if I used drugs, No doubt I would be a morbid drug user LOL
My dad told me I can and should be a motivactional speaker as I am strong and can pick my self of deepest despair and I told my Dad I am writing a book on How to help people combat morbid obesity. I look deeper into issues of why we get to being over 100 pounds over weight. We were just not fat we were really fat. Trust me if i can get down to size 10 jeans from size 28/30 jeans anyone can,
I will suceed agaisnt the odds and yes I will become victories and strong again .
Just this time I will not be eating my way threw processing the negativity.
I want to hear from everyone how do u deal with the processing of the negativityin you life and what keeps u not going back to being morid obese?
I am a realistic person and know that I can easily being 295 pounds again but it is my mind set that is changing and still changing.
I never thought I would wear a size 10 again.
I did buy a bathing suit and I end up buying mens matching speedo swim trunks to cover my thighs up. I thought I was pretty smart cookie to come up with the idea,
I am fighting my docs about not doing butterfly again and I told them u know I am not gonna listen to you. I am not giving up on a stoke I love to do, I am fighting the advance stages of spinal stenosis and that is gonna be the biggest challange but I am not gonna go down w/o a fight. I refuse to let that grave diagnosis put me down. It has been 11 weeks since I have been in pool and that is like eternity,
I really want to hear how you do it week after week fighting the past and living the new you.
U guys matter to me and inspire me
Lisa
Hey Lisa,
It's me...the one who never says much about things but I guess I have turned over a new leaf.......First, you are the only one who matters!!! Sometime, the closest people in our lives are the ones who hurt us the most. Weather they realize it or not, it still hurts!! Real bad sometimes! You are a strong and beautiful person. Look at all the pain you have went thru just to better yourself....You are so worth it!! Most of the people in our lives just don't get it...They would NEVER have the dedication and strength (not to mention nerve) it takes to have WLS.
This is My life and MY dream I am living......If my family or friends can't support me....they have learned to keep their mouth shut because I have showed that "IT CAN BE DONE". Anytime anyone has said anything negative (which has not been very often) I just start tootin' my own horn and they shut up quick. It also helps to quickly point out that everyone has struggles and demons, fortunately, I was willing to do something about mine and in turn, I have added healthy years to my life. I don't shove it down their throat but they know how I feel.
It helps me that I was raised in a strict Baptist home where I learned NEVER to compare myself to anyone else. If I don't fight for myself....no one else will.
Do something good for yourself AT LEAST once a day!
Do something nice for someone else AT LEAST once a day. This is how I survive.
OK... I will quit ranting! I think my pain pill just kicked in. LOL
Hugs Sista!
It's me...the one who never says much about things but I guess I have turned over a new leaf.......First, you are the only one who matters!!! Sometime, the closest people in our lives are the ones who hurt us the most. Weather they realize it or not, it still hurts!! Real bad sometimes! You are a strong and beautiful person. Look at all the pain you have went thru just to better yourself....You are so worth it!! Most of the people in our lives just don't get it...They would NEVER have the dedication and strength (not to mention nerve) it takes to have WLS.
This is My life and MY dream I am living......If my family or friends can't support me....they have learned to keep their mouth shut because I have showed that "IT CAN BE DONE". Anytime anyone has said anything negative (which has not been very often) I just start tootin' my own horn and they shut up quick. It also helps to quickly point out that everyone has struggles and demons, fortunately, I was willing to do something about mine and in turn, I have added healthy years to my life. I don't shove it down their throat but they know how I feel.
It helps me that I was raised in a strict Baptist home where I learned NEVER to compare myself to anyone else. If I don't fight for myself....no one else will.
Do something good for yourself AT LEAST once a day!
Do something nice for someone else AT LEAST once a day. This is how I survive.
OK... I will quit ranting! I think my pain pill just kicked in. LOL
Hugs Sista!
On February 23, 2009 at 5:52 PM Pacific Time, RhondaT wrote:
Hey Lisa,It's me...the one who never says much about things but I guess I have turned over a new leaf.......First, you are the only one who matters!!! Sometime, the closest people in our lives are the ones who hurt us the most. Weather they realize it or not, it still hurts!! Real bad sometimes! You are a strong and beautiful person. Look at all the pain you have went thru just to better yourself....You are so worth it!! Most of the people in our lives just don't get it...They would NEVER have the dedication and strength (not to mention nerve) it takes to have WLS.
This is My life and MY dream I am living......If my family or friends can't support me....they have learned to keep their mouth shut because I have showed that "IT CAN BE DONE". Anytime anyone has said anything negative (which has not been very often) I just start tootin' my own horn and they shut up quick. It also helps to quickly point out that everyone has struggles and demons, fortunately, I was willing to do something about mine and in turn, I have added healthy years to my life. I don't shove it down their throat but they know how I feel.
It helps me that I was raised in a strict Baptist home where I learned NEVER to compare myself to anyone else. If I don't fight for myself....no one else will.
Do something good for yourself AT LEAST once a day!
Do something nice for someone else AT LEAST once a day. This is how I survive.
OK... I will quit ranting! I think my pain pill just kicked in. LOL
Hugs Sista!
I have the clamity jane label in my family, I mean I if anything can and will go wrong it is me,
I mean I have special needs kids not just one I have a couple and now daughter with a stroke, I have daughter with cystic fibrosis and other one lost her baby at 12 mos tho sudden unexplain death in childhood not called sids because she was over 12 months,
I won the lottery for adversity and my sister won the mega lottery of 324 million how did that happen? (Did I **** off someone above? The saying if it was not for bad luck I would have no luck at all. I FIGHT THE MIND SET BORN LOSER..
Yesterday I placed my new skinny jeans on the bed and I had to take a double look and say oh yeah that is the new me, Hard to beleive I am gonna fit my body in them but it is real and I did,
I am winning the battle of obesity and it is because my A team has been here for me
I was told I am very narsistic and I replied yup about time I was as I can hardly be that being 295 lbs AND CARED ABOUT MY SELF !!!LOL
We all r alittle brassy now becasue when we were fat we had no voice and now we do, I find it amazing people take us serious now and treat us differently. I know we think more postive about or self but obesity is a acceptiable prejudice.
I still cringe when I STILL see kids I had so many kids say to me store wow u r so fat, Now they say nothing how I like it SEEN BUT NOT HEARD CHILD lol
Lisa
Jodi
U r so 100% right. I use to hide behind my fat and feel so stupid, I am a very intelligent woman I even skipped 3 grades in school and was in college by 15. I was very bright student but felt stupid. I just suck at typing (putting on reading classes may help LOL). I must admit that people come up to me now and say wow u just look so amazing and it is the tummy tuck, I look like I lost 70 lbs when the pannis was removed. I am still swollen but heck I will take what I look like now then what I looked like Dec, 7th. I use to be afraid of the skinny *****es and now I can speck my mind. I hate the social circles at the school church etc I just never fit in as most people viewed me as the poor pathectic woman with special needs kids, Now I am one hot momma with special needs kids. I cannot wait tell I get my breast implants Va Va Voom LOL.
I am awaking from a deep sleep I feel. I will never forget my roots where I came from as it will ground me and humble me, I just want other morbid obese to awaken to a new healthy you,
I only regret I did not do this sooner, This is living and 50 is just begining of living girls.
U r so 100% right. I use to hide behind my fat and feel so stupid, I am a very intelligent woman I even skipped 3 grades in school and was in college by 15. I was very bright student but felt stupid. I just suck at typing (putting on reading classes may help LOL). I must admit that people come up to me now and say wow u just look so amazing and it is the tummy tuck, I look like I lost 70 lbs when the pannis was removed. I am still swollen but heck I will take what I look like now then what I looked like Dec, 7th. I use to be afraid of the skinny *****es and now I can speck my mind. I hate the social circles at the school church etc I just never fit in as most people viewed me as the poor pathectic woman with special needs kids, Now I am one hot momma with special needs kids. I cannot wait tell I get my breast implants Va Va Voom LOL.
I am awaking from a deep sleep I feel. I will never forget my roots where I came from as it will ground me and humble me, I just want other morbid obese to awaken to a new healthy you,
I only regret I did not do this sooner, This is living and 50 is just begining of living girls.
I really haven't had the negativity too much except from myself! I am my own worst enemy. I still don't make eye contact with people and I never look around to see if anyone is looking at me. I feel great and I don't feel like anyone is watching me I just still feel very inverted and invisible. I think some people might think of it as being snobby. I am confident but not a social butterfly. still sometimes feel like that fat person who none would talk to. I became a hermit because of my weight and I am still having trouble with that.
As for my family they don't even bring it up. My brother thinks I took the easy way out and my sister inside is happy but never say anything to me Think she is afraid I will become thinner than her. I have always been the smart one and then the good mother she was always the thin beautiful one and now she is a good mother as well. My mom is proud and tells everyone but me. My family never show emotion. I tell people I had surgery only if they ask how I lost weight but I have been invisible for so many years not many people even knew me fat or thin I never went out of the house.
I think Lisa you have done an amazing job I hope and pray I can get in to a 14 even I would faint if I made it to a 10, but being 5'9 and big boned I just don't think that will happen.
As for my family they don't even bring it up. My brother thinks I took the easy way out and my sister inside is happy but never say anything to me Think she is afraid I will become thinner than her. I have always been the smart one and then the good mother she was always the thin beautiful one and now she is a good mother as well. My mom is proud and tells everyone but me. My family never show emotion. I tell people I had surgery only if they ask how I lost weight but I have been invisible for so many years not many people even knew me fat or thin I never went out of the house.
I think Lisa you have done an amazing job I hope and pray I can get in to a 14 even I would faint if I made it to a 10, but being 5'9 and big boned I just don't think that will happen.
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