Thank you my A team Angels

I know tend to be a downer and more so when I am off my medicine. So I am going to start a new topic and I am going to post everyday hopefully. It will be my rant and raves lol

I am going to post the good the bad and the ugly. I will probally wait till night so I can recap the day. Today I will start early.

Thank you so much to my A team family who deals with my up and downs better then anyone else I know. Here I feel like I am not judged or under the microscope. Sometimes I feel some people I know are just waiting for me to fail so they can feel good about them selfs again and do the I told you so.

Today I am going at 10 am to the college and work out for an hour. I will do cardio for the most part and then alternate upper one day and lower the next day and I will also work the abs everyday as well. I go to school 3 days a week and on thoes days I will exercise I will also try on other days as well. but 3 days will be the least amount I do a week.

My surgeon wants me back in my binder because the fluid is not going away. I threw my binders away because they were junk. I should be getting my tax return back here soon. I will go to the medical store and find one. I am also going to get a mens since I am taller. I am also buying 4 tubs of my protien then as well.

Ok I will post tonight to let you guys know how my day went. I am making this my accountability.

I love you guys you truly help me and I am here for everyone too!!!

Dee I am in with you , I am still not able to exercise, Grrrrrrrrrrrr I am having no ambition to do much  right now , I don't even care to watch what I EAT, I am dealing with depression and how I feel post surgery, I have this sore throat so I feel like crap and have this post nasal drip which equals mucos which equals havoic  on my lap band, I threw up pure mucus yesterday , All i ever do is vomit when i have mucus here i was vomit free and was eating good and boom I caught a cold and I am sick again grrrrrrrrrrrrrr have to go back on liquid diet and find the real psuedofed to dry me up ,
I am in such a weakend state, and I am getting ticked off. grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr,Here I am suppose to be healthy and I am to damn weak, I went grocery shopping and I could barely move the cart after it was full I remember the days I could just push the cart with ease now the cart is probally heavier than I am, I cannot throw my weight into it like i use to,I want to build muscle up I just look fragile Yuck. I HATE THE BINDER , Dee I started to use a massager on my belly and man I can really see the difference in swelling,
KEEP UP THE GOOD WORK Dee
hugs to our amazing  A team
Lisa

One day at a time Dee. We all need to find healthy outlets for what gets to us. We used to use food, now it can be anything! As you can tell, I have been on my own emotional roller coaster-you are NOT alone. I think this gives me comfort when I am feeling out of sorts or when when I am having rage and disapointment.
Hang in there, do what you can and make the best decisions you can each and every moment...

update:
Yesterday I went to the gym I did 20 min on the cybex machine which is like running. I then did 30 min on the recumbent bike. I also did some arm and abs on the machine. I was there for 70 min so I feel tired and excited. I ate almost all protien yesterday I did have some kashi go lean protien cereal but then like an hour later I feel shaky and sick like i need to eat so I am not going to do cereal anymore.
I watched my sugar and still have not had a drink! I also took one of my leftover cymbalta. I hate that one but it will help untill I can get my zoloft back.
Today is a snow day here so I can't go to my gym right now because the school closed during the day. If they open tonight I will go before class to work out. If not I will work out on my wii fit I love the hula hoop and jogging.
I will post later again on how I did. I do need to go eat something it is 11:45 and all I had was coffee. Yes I did bring back coffee but come on nothing else bu****er. lol
dee

Dee
you are my little angel. Loved the phone call. We have so mu*****ommon. Hey I did find that hair color u talked about. Gonna try and be good to my self and dye my  hair and try not look like a 100 year old hag tommorrow. The house is clean yeah!!!!!!!!!!! Blanca is my life savor. I took time for my self and did nothing but shop for hair color.
L

Lisa
I love you girl! You are so warm and caring! Tomarrow isi your special day so relax and only do for you!!! You deserve it!!!! I am always here for you!
Today I went to the gym at school did 30 min on the cybex machine I love that thing!!! I also did 15 min on the recumbent bike so I am feeling good I feel like I am finally in the right mind set!
well see what tomarrow brings!!
dee
Happy Birthday Lisa!

Update for today!
I did 35 min on the cybex machine I love that machine each day I add 5 more mins.
I then did 25 min on the recumbent bike. Now what I learned today is on the bike I can't get my heart rate over 110 even when I peddle my ass off so each day I am going to up the level on it too.
So yeah me 60 min of cardio... Still not a drink of alcahol and I had a salad for lunch from quiznos with no dressing and I didn't eat the pita.
Oh and if you haven't tried the sammie you got to try the sammie steak one that is 200 calories and sooooo yummy yummy it has this sweet and spicy steak sauce I wish I had for my house so yummy pefect size and only 200 calories. 

ok well post more later tomarrow I have babysitting duty so I will try to get to the gym before so I can work out 4 days this week I am also going to check their saturday schedual too!!! I finally feel like I am on track and ready to say bye bye 6 pounds!!!! 

Dee
I am so proud of you,I was told we need alot of vit C by my doc post plastic surgery  and also said compression compression is key to molding and suck in the body. I look at you and think u know she can do it so can I. U REALLY ARE MY MENTOR. I am hoping another week when the last drain comes out I will be hitting the gym, My doc told me he wanted me to lose more weight and then will talk thighplasty. I just love my doc he was so sweet yesterday he wished me happy bday and gave me a hug and kiss and said you really look great and amazing and really smiling more since the first time I saw you 4 years ago,I took pics of me yesterday in my size 12 jeans and said alright this is 50 and I make 50 look good, One day I hope to beleive that LOL I will post 50 pics later today, I never ever thought I would be this size again heck I cannot even remember wearing a size 12, I may never get to size 8 but I sure Know I will never be a size 28 again. I think when all swelling goes down I will be in size 10 No matter what size damn size 12 are small to me LOL, I marvel at my accomplishment We are doing great Dee
Love ya
L