Who am I Now?

I was reading a post from Marcia about losing the old self and excepting the new us.I was talking to a 8 year old RNY PT and her struggles with her weight gain this year. HAD ME THINKING!!!
I never want to be obese again and it boiled down to what Marcia said I was hiding in my fat from love affection. and I have to except the body changes and men looking at me and not think them as a rapist  or molester. My demonds of the past My gf convinced me to take a sexy pic and I posted it, I am now 30 pounds DOWN  from that pic BUT it showed me I can be sexy and be ok. I never saw my self KINDA sexy minus the double sets of boobs lol I mean  I am the granny pants type of woman. Shows no skin kinda girl.
But doing that pic was a major breck threw for my psychie
Monday  Dec 8 is tummy tuck surgery day I cut away the past and I will come out a swan. 

I am so nervious and I cannot believe I am gonna have this done. I have to thank Dee  making this dream come true I never thought I   was ready and my doc said I am more than ready,
only fat I have left is on top of  my thighs and that maybe 10 pounds.
I can't wait to see the new me I will be  taking before and after pics and post them I promice Dee we have new pics yet?I bet u r looking amazing now

All my love to our A team
Lisa

Lisa, I'll be sending good vibes your way on Monday.  I've been evaluated for plastics as well, and when I can get the financing (insurance will not pay for it - I don't have any rashes or anything that will justify it to Blue Cross) - and have accumulated a few more medical leave hours - I'm going to have the top half of me fixed.  I can't wait to hear about your experience, Lisa, and to find out if you're happy with the results (when the swelling and redness go down).  Right now I'm satisfied with the weight loss (even with the issues that I have), but not satisfied with the way I look naked (ok, so I don't have a significant other right who would care, but I still have to look at myself in the mirror occasionally) or how I look in sweaters (the bras don't hold the extra skin in very well). 

When you are able to get back on line let us know how it went.  Be sure to use the drugs that they allow you (you'll actually heal more quickly) and enjoy being waited on for as long as they keep you in the hospital.   And enjoy the new you!

Love to you, girl.  
Marcia

I am so excited for you lisa!!!!! You are going to finally put that past behind you!! No longer have to see adaily reminder. You are strong and beautiful and now your outside will match your inside! I too have takin a few sexyish pictures and it is hard to do but It really does help.
I have a few pictures up just not of the belly itself I have me in my jeans that were tight before surgery with my kids in there with me lol. check out my profile and there in there .
Lisa I am so proud of you and you are going to do so great!!!
Dee