losing my edge or mind not sure

Lisa A.
on 9/15/08 10:54 pm
Ok I feel I am losing my edge or drive to continue on WLS I am drinking soda lately true confession and I got to get out of that mode.. seems I am losing my drive,, I think this is where truely weight loss surgery ends and where all i have done is gonna show or not show.. I am slipping into bad habits, I know it is stress to the max and I need to get a hold of this or I am gonna just fall away..

I know dealing with the stress of my daughter's stroke  and family life is  taking a toll on me. I just feel over whelmed and weak and tired all the time,

I have no drive to go to gym or even care now what?????????? How do i get motivation when i don't want to get going?
I see my doc on sept 23 and I am gonna talk tummy tuck  I am hoping i will be inspired to get back on the horse
I am still dealing with my pitiarty tumor issue  not even bring this to light much just i am going to go threw this alone. i see the doc this week and talk about clincial trials which i have been accepted on..  . Somedays i cannot beleive  this is how my life ended up like.I feel like i am giving up the fight and no i am not sucidial  takes to much effort  to do that and i have no effort for that  I am just burnt out to the max,

My boys are going threw blood work called platlet aggeration procedure as we found that we have blood clotting and hemophillia disorder This werid combo is what caused my daughter to have a huge clot in her heart, The hemophillia comes from me and clotting issue comes from my hubby we are truely a medical night mare family.

I don't need a therpist i just need this night mare to stop. I am one step from losing my mind.or is it just hope I am losing.i just pray my house keeper will come tommorrow I NEED HER REAL BAD

i am just exhausted all the time. and overwhelmed. I did talk to therpist and well yeah she agress I am stressed  out and suggested a few things but seems not  helping much we decided to take the whole family to disneyland after the ucla medical tests on friday and hopefully will help not like we can afford this especially when our insurence tells us we owe 70 k in medical bills i don't think so.. insurence  is a nightmare,

How do i get my energy back? People tell me I don't know how u do it and I tell them does it look like i am doing it? I am to tired to do anything. WHERE IS MY HUMOR
Lisa

 
deelight152
on 9/16/08 2:24 am - Down South, IL
I am SO sorry you are going through so much!! I can't even imagine what it is like. I though I had it hard with my son. I am so proud of you!! You are a fighter and you will get back on track !! YOU ARE UNSTOPPABLE!! You can do this
Dee
Lisa A.
on 9/16/08 3:09 pm
ty u dee u r soooooooooooooo amazing  and u really inspire me to keep going tonight i was watching the biggest losers was like a boost  I needed tonight,, I am just esting really bad  ugh..time to fire up the ambition who is with me?
Lisa
 
shar S.
on 9/19/08 1:51 am - Buffalo Grove, IL
Lisa,
take a deep breath and calm down!! I think what you;re going through is certainly normal, especially considering all the rest of the sh*t in your life. We had surgery almost a year and a half ago. We are relaxing our habits. The momentum has calmed down. We no longer drop weight every day. This, my dear, is actually called "reality." Our fantasy life is over. You must cut yourself some slack. There will be days without motivation, without structured eating, etc. But, for the most part, you have positive days. You are coping with a lot of stuff in your life. If possible, try to set some time for yourself, everyday. A nice relaxing bubble bath with candles is what I have done in the past. I used to do it every day, to escape the "teenage daughter is driving me crazy syndrome." Hm, I think I shall take my own advice and go back to those baths. Above all, remember you are loved,,,by your friends, your family, and by your brothers and sisters in this group...(where are those darn brothers, anyway?) We are here for you and will never let you down. I wish you lived nearby.I'd run over and give you a big big hug! You have my number. Call anytime you need me.

Shar

 

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L.A. B.
on 9/20/08 12:36 am - OH
Aww Shar I ditto everything you said.

Lisa you have made some amazing strides over the past year and a half and now your journey has led you to another mountain to overcome. You will succeed... you just need to slow your pace down and plan for the long journey ahead. But have hope because you will reach the top of that mountain eventually and we are all cheering for  you!  Your continued motivation and strength to keep going on even when everything around you is crumbling is amazing! You inspire me and I'm so proud of you. Keep climbing that mountain.... you're gonna make it!

Love & Hugs,
Lisa
Lisa A.
on 9/21/08 1:30 am
Shar please resend your number privately to me Ilost all my stored number in my cell grrrrrrrrrrrr
 
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