adjusting to a smaller body

I have to say I am having such a hard time adjust to people calling me skinny or saying omg u look so different it has just been the few weeks that this has come to light as being a lap bander i lost it so slow so it kind just slowly melted away my fat. but i must admit 30 pounds in last 2 mos has made a difference for people to notice. I cannot believe i am smaller, I still feel soooooooooooo fat. I am having serious doubts i will ever feel like I am smaller being. I saw one of the oncall docs and she had not seen me in probally 9 mos and she said omg u r soooooooo skinny now. I looked at her and said what r u smokin? When Iam nekkid it is so swful to see my self the way i look skin just handing down, For the first time I am experiencing  people taking me serious and not some dumb fat old  latina woman. I don;t get the pitty look people gave me as they saw this nearly 300 woman struggle to walk. I am not sure i can see my self as a thin woman. i still think of my self as a bbw so at what point do i call my self a avg woman or just plan over weight woman?
Like last year i had that look of terror to fit inside the class room Yesterday was open house and again I had that look of terror  when i saw desk/chair  combo and hubby just went down a plopped in chair and i was thinking now crap how man i gonna navigate around these people with my body. no one thought twice about my size.  Was like I was invisiable not some freak show trying to stuff my Body into a chair.I am worried i am not ajusting to my new body size.

Am I the only one still adjust to their new size 17 mos later?
Lisa

I still feel like I am in a dream world. I really have to stop and focus to take in my true size. If I glance at stuff, then I am still the 280 lb woman I was before. You have to really be in the moment now. I was just talking with my husband about how weird it all feels. I get on the scale and it says 155lbs. I can remember the way I felt before surgery when I wanted so badly for the weight to be gone and in my heart of hearts I never thought it was going to happen. So, when I realize the weight is gone, I have to stop and pinch myself that it is true and not some dream where I wake up and I am fat again.
I think it will just ake time for it all to catch up. Since you are still changing it will take awhile Lisa until you get at goal and are there for awhile. Hard to believe-this is the new normal!

I bet u cannot beleive the scales says 155 and to be below goal has got to really shock u
I have yet to dream a skinny me in my dreams I am still fat.in my dreams but what is intresting my daughter Angelica the one that had the stroke is normal again in my dreams. I am in shock i am so close to 189 I was just hoping to be below 200 and now I am looking at being in the 180's  soon I seriously thought I would have failed by now. Seems I fail at everything I do. Just blows my mind to accept I am getting smaller. I always felt everyone else loses weight not me

No Lisa, you aren't the only one.  I think it's going to take me the rest of my life not to think of myself as the fat girl.

I even told my husband last night I am a "skinny fat girl."  Bony in places (upper body/ribs/hips) and still "fat" i others (belly, upper arms, thighs).

I continue to give wide berth for people get around me, which must actually look really peculiar, but I forget that I take up less actual space now.  I sometimes look at a booth or chair and think I won't fit, but know that I will.

I do feel those things much less often than I did a few months ago, but I still feel them.  It takes alot of adjusting to any body change, and when it's relatively fast, it is even harder for our minds to catch up.

 I look at people my old size inky and u know it  might be in my head thinking that way but  they kinda give me a werid reaction
I feel so sorry for people who r sooooooo big now I want to help them and say u need surgery . Just I do feel their pain and I cannot help but stare at them and I am not meaning to but i want to say get WLS or something.