Giving up the addictions Demends that got us here

Oh man do we all have alot of work to do A team in order to be sucessful in our weight loss journey The soda cigs alcohol carbs ETC, I remember giving up Soda To me soda was like a giving up meth and can Identify that demend of Barq's root beer.. I think I can safely say we all have a self distructive side to our personality. Ok confession time here what I battle from what is called Dissociative identity disorder MPD and No I am not sybil and was told to my hubby I am basically un salvagable human being and he should just divorce me. People like me are a waste and I have to battle this in my head that I am worth it and am viable human being. I am good enough. I met a wonderful man that happened to be a FBI profiler funny we have a show on that now LOL but he is the one that explained to me how I think and why and he helped me understand what DID is. He said we all to some degree have DID just with out the offical title. Trust me their is nothing anyone can say that would shock me as I probally have done it, But weight is one of the demends I fight and the self Distructive Lisa. I use to be a cutter and if anyone knows anything about that that is hard core self disteuctive STUFF but my friend ken helped me over come that abuse and other self distructive behaviour. My weight was the armor and trust me LOW self esteem can destroy any foundatioin. I do not feel very pretty and trust me I was craving attention of men and achieveing it in wrong ways and please understand this is not easy to write but if I am gonna be sucessful in weight loss journey I need to be accoutiable to my A team aswell All have you have been honest about your demends we all suffer from a common problem (SELF DISTRUCTION SELF ABUSE). I have to fight and beleive I am worthy and good enough to be a normal person and just because they gave me the title of unsalvageable DID does not mean I live to their so called standards I am sure we have a few people who suffer from bi polar or depression and the stupid labels does not make us that person but we are not unsalvageable we are people united in a cause to stop the self distructive cyle with out bodies We are learning to love ourselves for many of us for the first time. My marriage is struggling in this but we all just need to keep close and know we all our not alone.. I am here for anyone on yahoo IM as butterfly_lisa2001 if u need support. I am good enough to be thin and achieve this I am risking here that no one will think I am crazy I am just uniquely different Lisa

Well smack me in the head if you are DID! Gosh if that's what they label you then I hate to even think what that would make me! LOL! Frankly, you've taught me perseverance even through adversity which signifies a very strong & courageous person. So phewy on DID... you are an amazing person who has taught me much! HUGS!

Well personally and all my alter egos LOL are in agreement his therpist doesn't know me very well never met me infact only threw the eyes of my hubby. I remember when the psychologist sat down with my hubby and I to tell him his finding and prognosis all hubby saw me is I was broken but u know what I love all of me every damn person that is in there as well.lol Who said u can't get a degree a walmart for therpy. My hubby FOUND such a therpist. I told him hey at least u never know who u r going wake up in bed with u have 5 woman in bed with ya every MORNING. Every mans dream LOL He should be happy not complaining RIGHT? Lisa

Lisa, I think you are a strong and amazing person. Dont let anyone put a label on you. They can go get screwed as far as Im concerned. I have been fighting demons too. I traded one addiction for another I started smoking again after 10 yrs of not smoking. My life is falling apart. I have an amazingly stressful job, my home life is falling apart. I actually told my husband today to pack his crap and get out. He left and I dont know where he is and the sad part is...........I dont care at this point. They told us that after surgery things might get a little rocky, but I never dreamt it would get this bad.......... We Ateam members need to stick together to help pull each other thru the yucky times............Im here for you girl! Cindy

I am here for you Cindy and everyone. We all are going threw major changes and with weight loss surgery we all are changing so fast. Most marriages really go threw rocky times and I think it i****ting a raw nerves for alot of us. I thinkMY HUBBY for so long he thought no man would want a mess up girl like me. I must admit I look so bad at 295 he was right EXCEPT I did find a sweet man who adored me for me and saw pass the labels. I owe him for saving my life and helping me threw the rough times. He has since left my life for reason beyond our control. I just wish he could see me now He would be so proud of me. He gave me a reason to live and believe in me. we all are become powerful woman and we are no longer putting up with the crap, we use to shove crap down our throats but about time we are heard.. NOT QUIET OUR FEELINGS!!! Hang in there cindy time for a nice bath and enjoy the evening w/o the dear hubby I LOVE U AT TEAM !!! Lisa

Lisa As a future mental health care provider I am outraged that someone would tell your husband that you arent worth the effort! THat is the biggest bull. Everyone does have DID to some extent. Its how people deal with things to a certain extent. You having it full blown just means that you now have to recognize that you are this way, and you can make adjustments accordingly. I am in no way a expert yet but I know that much. As far as MPD goes, I feel honored to have met you in that field because true MPD is rare. AS for hubby being a FBI profiler I am so excited to meet someone who knows someone with this career. How freaking amazing is that??? Your husband knows that you are worth everything if he is as smart as his career would lead me to believe. You can do this, just think of your MPD as some extra driving force. (I shouldnt make light of the situation just trying to put a positive spin on it) Seriously Lisa everyday is a new day, and a new beginning and you know that for yourself. LOok at your accomplishments!! I am honored to be fighting this battle with you, and all the others. Here is my personal email address... [email protected] I have a work email address that I will give out if someone wants it. Hugs ladies Amanda

Sorry for the confusion but my hubby is not a FBi profiler he is aerospace engr and works on missle defence program but I met a wonderful friend that is FBI profiler (wish I was his wife LOL hehe ) Humor is what is getting me threw this diffacult time and u know revealing I was a person that has MPD/DID is very libererating and actually very healing for me, I think for so long I thought I was a freak of nature but reality is alot of DID people are highly functional and we usually do not go on sybil mode on people LOL. YES TRUE MPD is rare and when I was told how bad I had it it was like I was a failure and then hubby took therpy to learn to cope and the ones he went to had probally never met a true MPD. He was told I was to far gone and if he wanted a normal life and a normal wife it was never gonna be me. When I met my friend he said we all basically have MPD to some degree we have the role as a mother or role of a mistress/wife role of professional etc like we switch hats and I just reallly switch really well. I guess. I am still me just unique and different and never boring LOL I will write u privately later we are not crazy we are just uniquely different and my true friends tell me I am just really colorful and would not trade me in for a boring friend Lisa