The post I didn't want to write....

Amber I'm so glad you posted this because I have been feeling the exact same way lately. I'm beginning to think this is just another step in the journey of WLS... and it too will pass. I've been feeling fatter lately even though I haven't gained any weight and I even lost a pound. But I still think I look bigger and my tummy seems to look bigger too. I'm not obsessing over it ...yet! But it has been something on my mind lately. When I look in the mirror I don't see a healthy person I see more wrinkles, dark circles under my eyes, dry skin, saggy skin and in some places I look boney (arms, legs) and in other places I look fat (neck, belly). Let's just say I haven't been liking what I see. I know most of it's in my mind because everyone around me says I look wonderful... but I'm not feeling it these days. I have this fear that I'm going to be one of those people who gains all their weight back after WLS and that scares me to death. My new goal is to focus on getting healthy. I want to learn more about taking vitamins & herbs and exercising. I want to build muscle and get stronger. Right now I feel weak & tired and I don't like that feeling and I don't like how I look either. So thank you Amber for bringing this topic up because I don't think you are alone in feeling this way and it was brave of you to post about it. We all just need to hang in there and keep up the good work... it will get better as long as we stick to the plan.

Ty for writing this post ..I had to respond as I am sufferering the same problem as u.TRUE CONFESSION FOR ME.. I use to suffer from anorexia I know hard to believe but it was true. I had gotten pregnant with my twins and due to my disease of anorexia they were born to early and died at birth and I will always blame my self for their death .. I had not even planned to have children and the twins were a surprise and the devistation made me get pregnant AGAIN and I gave birth to my daughter 41 weeks later to a very sick girl that suffers today but I rememeber hearing the doc screaming at me and told me I should have a abortion because I am malnourished but I started to eat and I GAINED AND GAINED, I compensated and ate and ate and eventually had 7 kids to compensate for a loss of two kids.. I now exercise my heart out and I really messed up my metabolism because my body use to such little food .. My family is worried I am becoming a anorexic again as they see me eat at the family reunion. I think they would be horrified if they knew I had weight loss surgery.. reality I need to be consuming 600 calories to lose but I fight so hard to except 1200 calories is a good diet and healthy way to lose with exercise and except I will lose by ounces not pounds. I suffer from low blood sugar now due to exercising alot and a few times felt I was gonna pass out.Lets face it we have a eating disorder and are weight is only a symptom of not the cause and I THINK WE ALL ARE GOING THREW HUGE CHANGES. I still see my self as a huge 295 woman not the 200 lbs woman I am now. I am losing so slowly most people do not see I am getting smaller not like wow what happen to u. I am not getting the feed back. I went to my family reunion and no one said a word about my weight loss which does not help me. and my body imagie I just felt so fat.. But I did meet a OLD friend (HAD A SECRET CRUSH ON HIM) that told me he was a fool NOT TO PURSUE ME AND I am just one hot momma NOW he told me LOL HE wa****TING ON ME big time.. he was bascially asking me to cheat on my hubby I was not giving in.. I derserve better LOL His loss!!!! (he did not want me when I was REALLY fat) Sssssssssoooooooooo IT'S TIMEto go to the close pull the fat outfit and see u r not the same woman u were a year ago takes time for our heads to catch up to the new body imgaine. Lisa