Something is Wrong...

Inky, You are very correct about trigger foods not being in the house. It is so tempting to be watching a movie and suddenly smell French onion dip. You think to yourself - I can have a small handful and be happy. The small handful slowly turns into three "small" handfuls. In the past week I managed to argue my case about no more chips or dip in the apartment. I hope it will last. The food tracking system online has been opening my eyes and I have been scared over the past few days - really VERY scared. To think that I went through all the preparation and heartache to have the surgery - then all the physical and mental anguish right after the surgery... I didn't come this far to ruin my chances for success. I am considering finding an Overeater's Anonymous (OA) group. The more I think about this - our minds are our strongest tool (next to the surgery). I need to get mental control because the food addiction is trying to take over my life again. Thanks for your words of encouragement - because you are RIGHT. It never is too late to succeed.

I think there has been some great advice for ALL of us. I do not keep any of my trigger foods around. My snacks are nuts, jerky or some fruit. I actually obsess over my pistachios. I felt like I was starting to get too much prepared food back in my life. Healthier choices than before WLS but I was starting to jump the tracks. SO, yesterday, I recommitted to eating lean meat and veggies. It tasted great. I think my carbs levels had started to creep up and I noticed I started to want sweet things. I pack my lean cousine when I am away from the house. I indulge in a once a week small sandwich away from home but I need to nip these tendencies in the bud. I also NEVER have anything with caffeine or carbonation. I only drink water with sugar free flavoring in it. The difference now is that when I decide to make these changes-I CAN do it! Old me could not break the habits. I am so much stronger now. I have noticed that once I got the sugar and caffeine out of my system I didn't need it anymore. No lows or highs-just steady energy thru the day. Hang in there..

Thanks Sharra. You are right about the caffeine. I have been trying to replace regular coffee with decaf. The girlscout cookies went in the TRASH this evening. I was going to give the cookies away but I don't know anyone who's bloodsugar needs punishing!

The only thing I notice here are what I call "slider" foods. If I eat too many of these I can really over-eat very easily. The yogurts, Latte's, Cookies, Granola bars slide down waaaay too easily and don't keep me full for very long. Even high protien puddings and such are not so good. Also sauces, although they help with tough meats, can also cause me to eat too much. I can eat way more now then before... I can easily eat 1200 cals a day without trying.. but I try to keep it at 1100 or under... if I have my protien up and water up and vitamins in me.. then I feel like I had a good day. Try eating more dense foods. And eating slowly and never drink during meals. The lattee shouldn't be drunk with the cottage cheese.. wait a entire half hour at least before you drink it.. or drink it first. Also.. Coffee dehydrates and when I'm dehydrated I feel 'hungry'!!! I notice that when I don't get all my water in.. I usually am so extra hungry and my sweet tooth is out of control as well. Hope that helps. -Shakeira

You are right - the foods that are easy to eat are all usually pretty bad for you. I would like to stay below 1100 calories. I suppose I will keep playing with food varieties until I can find satiety with healthier eating. I think a lot of the eating is "head hunger". I am wondering if something emotional is going on when I look back at all food diary for the day.