Self-Control... Worried
Hello All,
I am a tad bit worried about my eating behavior... Since my surgery date (4/23) I am only down 58 pounds... Altogether I am down 80 lbs since my highest weight recorded in Feb '07. I am eating carbs of all kinds. I am also drinking coffee/espresso/diet soda left and right. I am able to eat an entire lean cuisine or weigh****chers meal in one sitting... which is usually less than 30 minutes. It is like the same self-destructive tendencies / attitude is still there- like it never left? I really sometimes envision this surgery not working for me at all- that I am really going to F*#K this up big time and still stay a fat mess. It is like there is something terribly wrong with my brain... My $90 a week in eating disorder therapy is turning out to be a waste, I think. Here I am, after going through hell with "the last resort" and I am still a pig.
Ok, you and I are in the same place, my surgery was three days after you, i've lost 58 lbs since surgery for a total of 71 since Feb 2007. I'm 5'4", started at 322, 55.3 bmi. If we lose nothing between now and 4 months on the nose, that is still an average of 14.5 pounds a month loss and when was the last time you did that?? every pound off is a success, no matter how slowly. if figure if it comes off slower then maybe i'll sag less too, i'm in no race except to outlive my own lardy butt!!
So you aren't alone and you aren't a pig, but you are falling back on your bad habits and you already know that.
Every time I put something to my lips that I know is not the right choice, i ask myself, "Inky, should you eat/drink this?" It has stopped me a few times and isn't perfect, but does help me. Are you exercising? I know that the last couple of weeks when i could not go walking sucked as far as helping me feel like I was successful.
How much coffee are you drinking? As long as you replace those ounces with more water, it's not a big deal, unless they are calorie laden coffee drinks, then that's a different story. The diet soda you should stop having, it has no benefit for you and could be making you hungrier.
How about finding a new therapist if you aren't gelling with the one you have now? if this one isn't working for you there are others out there!
you're post makes me think you already know what you need to do, and every day you wake up is a new chance to do more of those things right. we aren't perfect, we're human. that's why pencils have erasers, because we make mistakes.
now get out there and change just one thing today!
Inky
I could have written this thread! I only weigh when I go to the doctor so I don't know how much weight I have lost the last time I weiged 2 weeks ago I was only down 60 pounds and my doc was not happy with that rate of weight loss.
I have not begun to excercise on regular basis and I eat in less than 30 minutes, slower than I used to but still faster than I should.
I am afraid I am going to miss out on my "honeymoon" phase of rapid weigth loss. I just keep plugging forward hoping that something snaps really quickly!
Roz
Please don't call yourself a pig. You are not a pig. There is nothing wrong with eating a Lean Cuisine, I do it too. A Lean Cuisine is a normal portion of food. I think our perspective gets all out of whack from those first few months where we eat so little. Then when we get to normal/small portions, it seems like we are somehow failing. We're not! Also, coffee/espresso is fine, just like Inky said, drink extra water to compensate. I don't have an opinion on soda, I had it once since surgery and found it uncomfortable. There is also nothing wrong with carbs! People damn carbs on this website all the time! Just try to make better choices with your carbs - whole grains, fruits, etc. Skip the white carbs and sugar.
I think this whole thing is about attitude. If you visualize yourself as a failure, you will fail as a self-fulfilling prophecy. I believe that you can do this. Please contact me anytime you think you might slip and need some support. I saw the post on the main board for a weekly support group. I'm not in NY but I'll support you from Chicago. I'll send you my email address, please use it anytime you want.
S L , we are here for you. Remember, we are food addicts. Eating certain kinds of carbs (white, refined, soda) are only going to cause us to have the have cravings. That is why I have chosen to stay away. Once they are out of the system, it is easier.
My weight loss has really slowed the last couple of weeks. I decided to clean up my diet and eat simpler. I had been using nuts to get some protein in and it is a healthy snack but I think it was slowing things down.
My advice, it's not too late to start over. Go back over your post op nutrition list and really be diligent for awhile. Get the other stuff out of your system and when your weight loss starts gearing up again you will have your reward..
As for exercise it does make a difference. Some have lost more weight than me but my body has really firmed up. I think this is why I managed to drop 4 sizes in pants with 67 lbs lost. In the long run, I need the additional muscle to maintain my weight rather than just lose weight including lean muscle.
One other thing, try and reason what exactly it is that is setting you off. It could be stress or it could be starting your day with carbs that sets you up to crave all day.
Good Luck...
I completely understand where you're coming from, but when i hear you say it i cant help but think, "is she insane?...She's doing GREAT!!", yet here i sit and say the same things you're saying! Funny how hard we are on ourselves. Why do we do that??
I've only lost 56 lbs and i had my surgery on 4/17. Why do we expect more? Are we truly not happy with anything we accomplish?? and why not??
Ya know what?? We are doing GREAT! We are NOT pigs. (repeat that!)
Ok, so you acknowledge that you're doing a few things wrong. I personally dont see a problem with being able to eat a whole lean cuisine meal, heck...i hope not because i can too! Coffee? Heck, i cant live without it. Soda? Ok, maybe you can try harder to change that. Other than that you seem fine girl! Are you comparing what you could and couldnt eat right after surgery to now? I bet thats what you're doing. STOP! Of course we can eat more than right after we had surgery. Thats normal. Are you afraid you will only continue to be able to eat more and more? If thats the case, then im right there with you sister! I bet all of us wonder and worry about that too, and yaknow what? Im glad, because if i wasnt worried about that then i would probably really have something worth worrying about!
You're doing great. Recognize that and accept it.
((((((((((((hugs)))))))))))))))))
I do understand your pain. I do eat a whole lean cuisine meal in one setting. You know what you need to compare what you ate before surgery and then now. I bet you will see things are different. Also just because we had this surgery does not make us.....bionic people who can only eat certain things. We have lived life for food and it is hard not to remember how good something tasted. But you know what you are NOT A PIG.. And yes our brains are messed up. You are doing great and after years of not doing that well our brains are getting up prepared for the let down...also it is our enemy. I know what you mean, Because I bet if you asked everyone here if they ever have those thoughts....Most would say YES.. I know I do some times. But you are doing the right thing talking about them....
Hello,
I too worry every single day that I am eating too much. Especially since my weight loss has slowed down considerably. My biggest fear is that I will strech out my pouch and end up right where I started. Then I will have to hear all the nay sayers tell me that they were right. And I love this healthier me. And I bought size 16 pants yesterday. I do not want to fail!!
Keep up the good work every one and remember this weight loss is supposed to take up to 18 months! We have a long way to go!
Joni
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