Emotional Wreck???
I purged my closet yesterday. I have almost nothing left to wear. Why was this so hard to do???? I sobbed like a baby! My god you'd have thought my dog died I was so weepy. Any one else have this kinda ick going on? My head knows this is ok. My feelers don't. I know this was a good thing but it still made me so SAD!?! Am I grieving who I've been for so long? Or am I just really cheap and hate to lose that much money on the clothes? I tossed out anything that was a 22 or larger! I know only own 5 pair of jeans and 7 pair of panties! Shirts I have plenty of. Is this just me?
Oh yeah, I did the exact same thing and even blogged about it. I completely freaked out when I had to get rid of all my stuff! Good stylish plus-sized clothes are so hard to find, and so expensive, I just felt horrible letting it all go. At the same time, it is great to be so much healthier and able to wear a smaller size now. It's weird having such a minimal wardrobe, isn't it? Here's a quote that helped me get through it: "All changes, even the most longed for, have their melancholy; for what we leave behind us is a part of ourselves; we must die to one life before we can enter another." ~Anatole France
camaib
on 8/6/07 5:55 pm - AK
on 8/6/07 5:55 pm - AK
NO kidding this was horrible... I spent the weekend taking things out and putting them back into the closet. What a greedy person I am. I just could not stand to get rid of my ten pairs of black works pants... and the gray ones I love so much... and that green corderoy jumper that looked so good. AND now I have NO black sweaters.
So, all of those 26/28s are sitting by the end of the bed in white trashbags with little red ties... I just cannot get them into the car to take them to Salvation Army. What is wrong with me?
But I did find a pair of size 22 jeans that I have NO idea of where they came from...and they fit !!!! I have one pair of jeans that fit. How can that be? I know the rest have to go. But they are MINE.
My kids think I am nuts.
Am I?
Camai
NO you are not nuts.. For years we have made our clothes who we are and with out them we were uncomfortable. When I went through my clothes I remember thinking what if I need them. Ohhh that was it... I started to cry. Well through out the years every diet I went on I would lose and get down maybe 1 or 2 sizes, but I never got rid of clothes because I knew I would still need them. SO I think this is one of many mental games that we have played for too long.
I'm the complete opposite of you! I actually do a little "happy dance" everytime I have to get rid of something in my wardrobe. I've got no emotional attachment to my "fat" clothes, although it is a bit painful when I think of all the money I spent on them. However, I am sorting out the nicer, trendier things and I'm going to try to sell them on ebay. Might as well make a little money off them and turn it into something positive. I keep 2 garbage bags in the bottom of my closet and the things I don't plan on selling go into one bag and the things I plan on selling go into another. The bags are getting really filled up these days. It's actually very exciting to me. I was down to only one pair of jeans so yesterday I went to Walmart and I no longer shop in the plus sizes anymore. That was a wow moment! I am wearing a size 16 and they are a little loose on me too... soon we'll be moving down to size 14....can't wait! Seems so surreal to me but I'm lovin it!