My Update from yesterday's office visit

Well I went to my surgeon's office yesterday. The G-tube WAS indeed infected and they removed it there in the office. It wasn't so awful but wasn't pleasant either. Then I ran over to my surgeon's private practice to get my percocet prescription so I can try to eat and drink. Well the doc that wrote it didn't write the dosage so I had to wait til today to get the prescription. And let's hope it works because I have no other way to hydrate or nourish myself at the moment and percocet alone was not doing the job in the hospital. I'm so frustrated. I feel SO alone in the world with this problem. I feel like I'm backed into a corner. I feel like I'm gonna DIE from this surgery. I do NOT feel healthy despite having lost 78 pounds. I feel like I'm living a very unhealthy existence. I mean, I was there yesterday and had this epiphany and started crying because I have to DRUG myself out just to try to nourish and hydrate my body. How messed up is that? It's just so frustrating. Sorry for unloading. I just needed to get those thoughts out of my brain for a second. Thanks for all you guys' support! Allie

Allie - you're in our thoughts and prayers! You will get through this, and be glad you've started on this journey - no matter how choppy it's been at the beginning. Hang in there!!!

Awww......thanks so much Jeff! I hope all of this will just be a blip on the radar soon!! Thanks for the encouragement!! Allie

Allie, I love love love you and am virtually wrapping myself around you so you aren't alone. I know that we cannot share your pain and frustration, but we're here for you, no matter how "virtual" we are! You are so strong, you will come through this, I really believe in you!! many big hugs, Inky

Inky, You are SO sweet!! I think I might cry!! Virtual friends are just as good as physical friends. Thanks for being there with me through this ordeal and for all the encouragement that I really need at the moment! Allie

Wow, Inky!!! I didn't even know that was you. You look great. Shar

You are NOT alone. You have all of your brothers and sisters right here with you! We will help you any way we can. I pray you feel better soon Shar

Thanks Shar! It makes me feel better that I'm not going through this alone and that there are people out there that care!! Allie

Allie, I'm so sorry for what you're going thru. You can unload any time you want, I look forward to reading your updates as I am full of hope for you. I totally understand how it must feel hopeless at times from your perspective however and would like to send you my best wishes all the way from France, hang in there, better days ahead!

Thank you Annie! I appreciate that. Yeah, sometimes it feels helpless........other times it just feels down right unfair. I only want to live a normal existence again! How are things in France. Must be nice there. I've never been, but might like to see it one day! Allie