can't stand it anymore !!

feel free to skip this, but I really need to rant for a while. I've pretty much come to the conclusion that I had this surgery to only lose like 20 some lbs. I think I'm not losing cuz I'm hardly eating, but I just can't. I eat like a piece of string cheese in the morning, some form of protein with a little veggies at work on my break, and maybe some milk before bed. I'm still taking my vitamins and getting all my liquids in, but I just don't want to eat anything. I have absolutely no appetite and sometimes the thought makes me sick. This is pretty much how I was pre-op, but then I would binge, now I can't do that and I'm going crazy. I'm so depressed I can hardly get out of bed. I don't want to work out any more even though that usually makes me feel better. I'm so stressed with everything. I know food was my crutch and I don't have that any more. I can't stand ppl asking me about this stuff anymore. I hate all the compliments, I try to hide at work as much as possible to avoid them. they don't make me feel better, they make me feel like sh@@. some days I just want to scream. I also can't stand being asked how much I've lost, because lately I've been gaining. I think I've been dumping for the past couple of days, on what I don't know because I don't eat hardly anything but protein with no sugar or very little fat. I've been dizzy and have a headache that won't go away. my friend got the pics from the wedding I was in, and all I could do was cry at how horrible and fat I looked. they're just awful. I could go on for hours, but I guess I'll stop now.

Well you came to the right place to vent....We all have gone through what you are going through and you know what I know you don't want to hear this....but it will get better.... Your headache and dizziness probably if your body saying that you aren't eatting enough or your sugar might be low...Ohhh please hang on it will get better...and try to experiment with different foods... You are fine and things will be fine....just give yourself time...

Wynette; stay strong. It really seems to me you are not getting enough food. Whenever I do not get enought calories (800-1000) I do not lose. Your body is in starvation mode. Eat more-seems weird huh? I really hope you know that we care. We are here for you!

(((hugs))) We are here for you to vent to. But the other posters are right. You have to eat more. You just have to. There is no way to sugar coat it. Try and find like five safe items and eat them every day until food stops making you sick. Try cottage cheese and a little applesauce or some chili, maybe some cereal with skim milk. You have to eat something though. For me it helps to follow a schedule. I actually have set times in the day that I eat and when I don't stick to them, that's when I make bad choices. Try it, or at least try something. You will feel so much better. And try to make a game out of when people ask you questions. I do not discuss my surgery outside of my family, so when people ask me questions I give them smartass answers. Hey, maybe that makes me a jerk, but they stop asking. I should say that I do not do this to people that I know genuinely care about me, but people I just speak to in passing, sure. Like when they ask me how much I lost I don't give a number, I give an object or person. For a while, I'd lost a bag of dog food, then I lost a four year old, now I have officially lost an Olsen twin Try it. If nothing else it will amuse you.

ok I am with u... I do not understand what is going on . I cannot lose at all in fact I had oral surgery and have 10 sticthes in my mouth so eating was not a option i kept 240 for 2 weeks I decided to go on vacation and try to eat something like protien first and fruit and water and milk i gained 8 lbs now i am 248 in 3 days.. I am in starvation mode and now that i am eating I am gaining again.. I walked walked and walked sooooooooooooo much i have blisters on my feet.. so I am with u .. I didn't have this surgery to gain 8 lbs in fact yesterday I was vomiting all day and I gained??????? guess I was eating to much yesterday I had a egg hard boiled for breckfast some grapes cheese 2 0z 1 cup milk and some apple jiuce and I tried eating some low fat salami mind u this was not taken in 1 meal this was my daily total and I threw that up and I was done for the day kept vomiting that all the way home..I was not able to get much water in I just kept tossing it up (vomiting) I ate less than my RNY hubby ..... and he cannot eat very much . he has a stricture and a ulcer and will vomit if he eats much he just shook his head and said i don't get it Lisa and he lost 2 lbs I am sooooooooooooooo depressed discouraged and with u hon .. I had oral surgery I could not eat drink for a week I stayed on 2 protien drinks and kept steady at 240 Then I started to eat and gain 8 lbs heck I don't think the food i ate even weight 8 lbs worth in 3 days all I can do is gain faster than I did before I am losing inches but i am also losing my sanity over this .i feel the same way my blood surgar is soooooooo low now which is good but nothing is very logical to why some of us this is not working.. well u r not alone and u can rant and rave to me anytime I am with u and I do understand this does not make any logic to me hugs Lisa PS Gonna get my stiches out today 8 am and today i am gonna try and just drink water and that headache i have it also and i am so sick to my tummy

Hi Wynette, It sounds like you aren't eating nearly enough. You must really try to find some food that you can tolerate, otherwise your body will stay in starvation mode and you won't lose. I've noticed that when my calories get too low, I stop losing. If I can keep them to at least 1000/day, I lose again. That would also explain why you are so tired and depressed-your body is in shut-down mode. Maybe instead of milk before bed, you could try a hearty soup, like bean or lentil? Soups go down well and you can add cheese for protein and calories. Best of luck, Lisa

Welcome to the ranting forum. My turn. =0) I've sworn off the scale because the damn thing is too depressing. And my doc said it's a very poor indicator about how well you're doing. Some days I don't feel like eating either... but other days I'm freaking ravenous, and that makes me feel like the surgery failed. I used to be a binger, too. Can't do that anymore. Haven't found a good substitute... but found that I can eat a bunch of sunflower seeds. It takes so long to work them open for a little morsel, and they're good for you. And I have to force myself to excersize at times. Actually quit for a week - based on the infomerical about muscle confusion - and noticed my clothes started getting loser again. I've been struggling with depression too and I'm sick of the stupid questions from people. I feel like telling everyone off. I'm me, whether anyone chooses to recognise it or not. When is your 3 mo checkup? Your dizzyness and headaches are worrysome... that was happening to me right before my 3 mo checkup too. The doc will check into it... hydration, electrolites, protein, potasium, body mass... it made me feel better to look at it scientifically (sp). Hang in there. We're all in this together.