New day .. new begining..
I know alot of u r probally gotton tired of me whinning .. I had my pitty party cried in shower and got up and decided I am not gonna let this lack of loss defeat me .. I may have fallen off the horse but I am again climbing back on and I will not be defeated and I will go on and even if I am only losing ounce by ounce
I wanted to give up on my diet my exercise .. but then I saw that I need to not give up on my self.. like I have 1000 times before I have made some wonderful new friends at the gym and met one that is like me despite all she is doing she cannot lose anything aswell .. she may have no had WLS but she is on a diet and so far even after 30 days of strick dieting and exercising she is not losing ..
I see my doc this afternoon and I am gonna go in and talk to him and see what we can do .. to help me with this leak .. or lack of restriction.. I know I need help and I need to be patient.. obesity came on bite by bite .. but today is new day new begining.. have this song i play alot called cellophane by amada ghost
and i try
and i try
and i try
and i try
Nobody moves me
I've been through this life with no place that I can call my own.
I'm thinking above me
I never seem to find anybody that can feel like home
and I try
and I try
and I try
and i try
Funny how it feels when there's nothing to say.
Trapped with my ideals
I can't contain
I'm wrapped in cellophane(3x)
and it knows my name
Nobody told me obsessive needs were always following me around
and you can't ignore me.
Look at my face and then tell me my place in town
and he's in and she's in
and he's in and she's in
Funny how it feels when there's nothing to say.
Trapped with my ideals
I can't contain
I'm wrapped in cellophane(3x)
and it knows my name
and I try
and I try and he's in and she's in
and he's in and she's in.
all i can keep doing is keep on trying..
hugs to all
Lisa
LIsa, I'm glad you are picking yourself up and moving back on track.
Why do you think you have a leak? When we get a fill, our stomach swells so we have pretty good restriction. Then our stomach goes back to normal and as we lose the fat pad around the stomach, we lose restriction again. You might not have a leak, but just be ready for an adjustment.
I know what u r saying .. but I have no fat around my stomach as it was stuck inside my esphogus .. from the hiatial hernia .. when he took out saline in first fill he drew back only 2 cc fill when i should have had 3.5 cc fill and then he put back in 3.2 cc fill in then on 3rd fill he drew back 3 cc and then he filled me back 3.4 cc fill yesterday.. i lost .2 cc in 2 weeks.. grant u not as much but some loss .. he told me I had no fat around my stomach .. off but when your stomach shoved in another organ it does happen ..
but oh yes feels good to feel full after a few bites .. how sweet it is..
he will run more test if i lose it again ..
I have awesome restriction this am .. he said u should never lose any cc .. should always draw out what u put in..
hugs lisa
off to vegas to see the OH conference
My doc and your doc disagree then. When my doc pulls back to check the level, he goes until the band equalizes, which may or may not be exactly what he put in the last time total. Then puts in more. It leaves a little buffer and after a while less and less will seem to "Disappear" even though it is still in the band. Significant decrease in the amount pulled out will denote a leak, so he does watch for that. That being said, my doc would say that the first time your band was equalizing with the withdrawl and that is why it seemed like less was removed before filling again. The next time less was lost because it was already close to equalized when he withdrew what he put in last time. So you are probably closer to 4.9cc in your band than the 3.4cc that you have.
My doc would also disagree that you shouldn't lose restriction. We are too early in our band journeys to find that perfect sweetspot already. We will get restriction, our bodies will adjust and we will lose it again. Most don't receive the sweet spot until 6months - 12months if that. That doesn't mean we won't lose, but it does mean that we will continue to have adjustments until we do. Since I know you pay a lot for this, don't let him run unnecessary test that will just cost you more money.
Lisa I think you are an amazingly strong person and you so encourage me to see all that you have gone through and yet you still hang in there and keep fighting!!!! You are to be admired and I'm so proud of you! Thanks for being my hero who never gives up no matter how high the mountain is that you have to climb!!!! Keeping you in my prayers!
Cheers!
Lisa,
If I remember correctly, you are on your second fill, right? I have a woman in my support group who went through the same problem of not losing, plus she was eating beyond the restriction and she had to get 14 fills in the first year. Maybe you need to go more often in the beginning? I don't know much about the band, but I also admire your willingness to keep on going. Glad you have a doc you can talk to about it too.
Don't give up on yourself or the rest of us! We need you on this board, and we want to celebrate your successes with you.
Take care,
Shana