I've had ENOUGH!!

Well I'm officially ready to get my surgery reversed. It's really ticking me off. I think since maybe the anesthesia/pain meds have officially ALL worn off from recent surgery (gall bladder removal and diagnostic lap), I can now feel all the pain I WASN'T feeling in the hospital after I had the surgery!! My stomach hurts like a son of a gun and to top it all off.........I feel like I must vomit everything that goes in there.......but of course I can't! I know......call my surgeon right? WRONG! I know he has to be all kinds of sick of me and he's seen every part of anatomy that I care for him to see at the moment and examined every innard of my gizzard and found everything there was to find. I just don't freaking get it?!?!?!?!!!!! I'm so frustrated. I just want to lay on my bed and cry. I don't want this anymore........the pain, the feeling in there, the surgery.......none of it. Not if it has to be like this. I hate it. Allie

Oh Allie, I'm so sorry hun. I can't even imagine how miserable you must feel right about now. I can certainly sympathize with you for wanting to throw in the towel with all that you've been through. But try to hang in there and give this new surgery a chance to work. You are starting all over again so your body will need time to recover once again. I know it sucks, but hopefully in a couple of weeks you'll begin to feel more like your old self again. My prayers will certainly be with you. And don't worry about calling your doctor again, that's his job and that's what he's getting paid for. It's his job to make you function at a healthy, happy level. So if you are still suffering call the office. Let them know how miserable you are. My thoughts & prayers are with you hun. ~Lisa

Thanks for the encouragement Lisa. I'm just feeling frustrated. I guess I don't really know how to deal with it. Allie

I totally understand you're reason for being frustrated. You are definately entitled to feel this way, you've been thru the ringer! Maybe one thing you could do is find a support group nearby to help you get thru the rough spots. I would also post the difficulties you've been going through on the main board and ask someone who has been through similar experiences to reach out to you. Sometimes it really helps when we know of someone else who has been thru the same thing we have and survived it. It gives us hope, plus they may offer some good advice & encouragement. Hugs, Lisa

You know what you have been through alot...I do feel for you....Well if you still are having troubles call the doctor again....lol....Atleast you can say that you told them and they will know that things still are not right....Ohhh Allie hang in there...

Hang in there! It has GOT to get better, I am so sorry you have to go through this. We are all here for you. Shar

Allie, I am so sorry, I wish I was there to be more supportive for you. It doesn't matter if he's sick of you, you need to call him anyway, but you know that, so vent away your frustrations, I know I would have been crazy long before you, so you are strong, my friend!! I had heard the gallbladder removal was more painful than RNY, and I"m so sorry. Hang in there, and we're here for you. I'm praying that your recovery starts RIGHT NOW so you can move on with things. Inky

((((((((((((((((HUGS)))))))))))))))))) I'm so sorry your going through this. But please call your Doctor, although you feel he's sick of you, I'm sure he's not, he wants you to feel good and to succeed. We're here for you and I'll keep you in my prayers. lol jen

No doubt all the recent surgery and not to mention surgery u had in april compounds the pain even more,, I cannot imagine the pain u r going threw... I know about the frustration part I am there hon , I mean I know my pain having them having to acess my port 2 times so close after surgery was painful and I am very bruised in my port area.. however not cut open like u had to be ..so believe me I have no right to complain .. on any pain Frustration I am there with u .. I wish I had the RNY .. I feel I made a mistake... I am still at 243 this am and eating so little and exercising my heart out and scale will not move .. I dont get it.. I have to say hon u r very brave.. are u losing at least?????? i sure hope so .. I try to focus on the goal of a new heathy body .. I feel right now losing weight is my full time job .. I guess when the doc said some will not lose weight from this surgery I did not think I would be that person.. I thought he was refering to people who cheat and out eat their surgery will not lose but when he told me their r some people no matter how much they stay with program and exercise they do not not lose. . well I am with u allie .. on frustration I guess we r both in the complication part .. I may have a leak and may face surgery again.. time will tell he gave me tell aug or sooner and and that point we will determine if i need resurgery but for now we r on wait and see mode.. so far I am feeling restriction but it was like day 10 when I felt it left me have not hit that part.. gotta wait tell the swelling has gone down from adding more saline and see if it is not from that.. I am feeling restriction but is it from the fill or just from the swelling ... Guess we will just hang in there together .. hugs hon Lisa

I'm kind of feeling like this surgery isn't going to work. I've only lost about 20lbs. I work out a lot and eat better than I have in a long time, getting in all my vitamins and fluids. I'm going to stick with it anways, but I'm really wondering if it will work. Everybody around me is driving me crazy. they keep asking me how much I've lost and if I tell them, they say is that all or was it worth going through that just to lose 20?? of course my coworker who has cheated the whole way through has lost like 80lbs and loves to rub it in.