Don't think I am crazy please
This morning I awoke from a nice dream that I had about my father...He has been gone for almost 11 years and in my dream he kept telling me how proud he was of me and how beautiful I am... I am still crying.....I guess I should be proud and I think he visited me and was telling me that I am ok.... I wish he was here to see this journey...
I guess we all should be proud of what we have done....
WE ARE BRAVE...
aww Crystal, you are not crazy.
My best friend died 3 years ago from breast cancer and sometimes I feel like she visits me in my dreams too. I wake up and it's like she was really there.
Im sure your father is very proud of what you have done and just wanted to let you know that you are doing alright
Hang in there sistah!
Cindy
You aren't crazy. I still hear from my Daddy every now and then in my dreams and he died in 1983! I would like to think it's really him using this as a means to communicate, but accept it for what you want it to mean. Who knows? It might really be your Dad coming to tell you how proud he is. And if it's your subconcious dreaming (!) this up, then you are telling yourself how proud YOU are, and how proud he would have been. Either way it's cool.
And yes, I'm am darned proud of what I've accomplished with this so far, as we all should be (not of me, I mean, but of yourselves).
It doesn't sound crazy at all. I am a true believer that our loved ones talk to us in our dreams. My grandfather died when I was very young (3) we were very close (yes, I remember him, more than people might think). I was his reason for fighting cancer for those three years. I feel like he is my guardian angel now. I think about him every day. He visits me in my sleep, and sometimes when I am feeling down or alone, I can almost feel him touch me, and hold me. Every time I have a problem in my life it always seems to work out. I have learned not to worry about things so much, because my guardian angel will always make sure that whatever happens to me is for the best. I know it sounds stupid, but every time my bank account is a little low and my daughter needs to eat, or I HAVE to have money for a bill I don't have (I was a single mother for 2 years, worked and went to school full time) something little shows up. Example, I remember a time when I had no food in the house and my daughter was eating cheerioes without milk. I am too proud to ask for help from my parents, so I figured I would just wait it out. The next day I received a check in the mail from a doctor bill for my daughter that they said I overpaid $50. It wasn't much, but it was enough to be able to get her some food. I have little things happen like that to me ALL THE TIME. I seem to be one of those people that I think about it and it happens. My surgery is the biggest example of all. I wanted a baby so bad when my ex husband and I were together. But, I wanted to have RNY also. I was told that I would not be able to have children (with my ex). So, I focused my entire life to having the surgery. I went in for my pre-op and wa-la, I was pregnant with my daughter. I truely believe now that God (and my guardian angel....aka...PaPaw) was just waiting for the right time to give me my precious little girl. It stopped my surgery (for 5 years). Now, I have had Lap Band (after much thought). I don't like to think about what would have happened if I had had RNY back then, because it may have been a form of protecting me. Something might have gone wrong, I may not have been able to deal with it. RNY takes a lot more (in my eyes anyway) than banding does. I don't know if I would have been able to do it (now that I sit back and think about it). (Please don't take that comment wrong, I have great respect for everyone that has gone through WLS. I just know from my own experience and people that have had RNY that I felt a lot better after surgery than I was expecting to).
Anyway, I will get off the soapbox.... See Crystal...you aren't the only one that is crazy!!! LOL We all have come a long way. And every one of us should be proud of our accomplishments. This is just an emotional subject for me because I am such a believer in our loved ones that have passed are watching over us.