a little irritated

Hey everyone So I emailed my nut. I asked her if I was on track with eating a 1/2 cup of food. I told her that I had tried bread. She proceeded to tell me not to eat bread at 2 1/2 months out becuase I could stretch my pouch and plateu and stall my weight loss. I am so mad at myself for trying the stupid freaking bread. Granted I've ate bread maybe five times. I just dont understand why I even tried it to begin with. I've pretty much convinced myself that I've ruined my second chance at life over about fifteen bites (total) of bread. GOD I SUCK! No wonder I've only lost 23 pounds. I will probaly only ending up loosing 50 pounds or something. I'm so discouraged and angry at myself. No one in the whole world made me try anything but me. What can I say I'm an addict. I wonder if this is how they feel. Hopeless, helpless and out of control. Hope this finds you doing better then me amanda

Sweetie! Give yourself a break! Not everyone gets sober on the first try either! So you had some bread. Big whoop. Have you any experience with the 12 steps of AA/NA? Maybe you ARE a food addict. If you think you are, you may want to look into OA in your area. I don't know how WLS friendly they are but it's worth a shot. If you need someone familiar with addiction and recovery, add me as a friend and we can email or IM. I have 20 years clean and sober and I trained as a drug counselor. Besides, I'm on this nifty journey too (((((((((((((((((((((((BIG HUGS)))))))))))))))))))))))))))))) Stacie

Amanda, I would not stress too much on it. Everyone, I'm sure, has tried something or other that they were not supposed to. But the good thing is that now you know you probably shouldn't eat it, so you start fresh from here and move on. With any kind of addiction, you have to take one day at time. If you eat something you shouldn't, you can't just give up on the whole thing, you just have say,"ok, I made a mistake" and start again. Hang in there, Cheri

Amanda, Girl give yourself a break. Look you have lost 23 lbs in 6 weeks, that's awesome!!!! You should be proud of that and so what you tried a little bread. It's not like you ate a whole loaf. now you know not to eat it again and you wont so dont be so hard on yourself and again YEH YOU LOST 23 LBS. BE PROUD OF THAT !!!!!

HOLY MOLY ! Not only do you and I have the same exact surgery date, we are going through the same exact thing ! I am constantly on myself for being such an idiot for trying things, or overeating. Then I freak out thinking I stretched my pouch, and then of course freaking out thinking what a waste of time it was, blah blah blah. I suck too ! I have no idea what to do, how to do it..... I am at a loss and feel like such a failure ! As of today I have lost a total of 31 lbs, and it is so discouraging ! My dr said at my last appt that by the next time she sees me I should be under 200 ( I was 213 at that appt almost 3wks ago) well here my fat butt sits at 206 and my appt is next wed. DON'T THINK I am going to make it under 200 ! I just don't know what to do............ if you EVER, ever wanna talk, email me, message me, i'll give you my # or give me yours ! Maybe we can try to get through this together. you are NOT alone ! I haven't posted anything like this because I didn't want people to attack me and think badly of me..... trust me I am not happy your going through this but it kinda feels good knowing i'm not alone ! Please keep in touch ! ~~Rona

i'm sorry i got so wrapped up on relating to your feelings that I didn't tell you that you should be proud of yourself ! You did lose 23lbs and I am sure you haven't lost that much weight that fast ever before. Keep your head up, and I mean it, talk to me anytime ! ~~Rona

Honey relax and don't be so hard on yourself. My nut allowed bread (toasted) since the day I returned home from the hospital. All nuts are different and have different standards. I saw my nut today for my 2 month check up and was released to eat anything I want. I was warned that I should try one new food at a time and to be careful with untoasted bread as it could get doughy and stick in my pouch. You have not broken your pouch, people even several years out can still lose weight if you follow the basics. Protein first, lots of water and exercise and you will suceed.

Amanda my friend, stop beating yourself up! I am guessing that the vast majority of us have pushed the limits of our pouches. It's normal and human nature. If it were that easy to stretch out your pouch like that, the surgery would fail almost everyone. I've been eating toast since just a couple weeks out and I've been fine. Untoasted bread or bagels in any form, though, make me really sick. I tried to wolf down an egg mcmuffin last week and sorely paid the price. It got stuck and I ended up throwing up violently several times. I KNEW I had no business eating it, and it was stupid to try to eat so quickly, but I seem to get amnesia between episodes of screwing up and barfing. The good news is, the gap between the episodes is lasting longer each time, and I hope that eventually I'll "get it" and stop pushing things like that. I'm telling you this because you're not alone, and it's all part of the learning process. You haven't screwed up your procedure, and you're going to be fine. You've lost a lot of weight in a short time and have nothing to worry about!

don't feel bad about it. I was in a wedding on Sat. and there was nothing there that I really was supposed to be eating. I couldn't just starve so I had one small slice of pizza, didn't eat all of it, a spoonful of spring salad, some cucumbers and some fruit, both with a wee little bit of dip. I also had a piece of cake. Figured at that point it didn't really matter any more. Thankfully didn't dump on anything. The only thing that maybe bothered me was the sparkling cider we had for the toast (I took that instead of the alcohol). I only took maybe 3 or 4 little sips, but couldn't stand how sweet it was. maybe my taste buds are changing? I don't know, I just couldn't drink it all. But now I have to get my butt in gear and get to exercising and watching what I eat again So don't let all this get you down, just dust yourself off and try it again.