got one of my drains out :)

Hello Everyone Today I went in and had my JP drain taken out. It didnt hurt a bit. For some reason I thought it was going to hurt a whole hellova lot. I also got weighed. I've lost 19.5 pounds, so I'm down to 288. I wish I could be more excited about it but I'm not. I didnt say anything to the nurse who weighed me in. I've got an attitude problem it seems. I'm not digging the whole surgery thing. I really believe that I made the wrong choice for myself. I am so sad and scared. Here I am 26 years old and there are some foods that I will never have again!? I'm really bumming around, I'm not sure what is going on with my food issues. I am desperately wanting some pasta. Some Olive Garden fettucine alfredo, oh and some potatos and onions would be wonderful. Maybe I'm just so hungry because I am only on eggs, cottage cheese and refried beans for awhile longer. I just want to eat something. I really am hungry. THanks for listening Amanda

Hi Amanda, First off, congrats on getting through having your JP drain out and the weight loss! I know your road has been especially difficult, but I also wanted to tell you that your feelings of remorse and sadness are to be expected. Any surgery is difficult on the body and brain, and especially when there are complications. I am missing food still very much, and bored on the same foods you are eating. I have was very sorry I had the surgery off an on since then, but the last week or so I have felt better about my choice, noticed my weight loss and am feeling stronger daily. Just hang in there, in a few weeks and further on down the road when you can see and feel your successes more, I am sure you will feel better about the process. I will say, I think it's important not to forget the difficult journey, and to write it all down. Later on, at least for me, remembering the hard parts will keep me from getting ****y and forgetting how hard it was to get to success!! Hang in there!! Inky

Great job on your loss....And what you are feeling is normal..I just started reg. foods and it still bothers me knowing that some things that I used to eat...I won't be able to have...but you know what It is worth it...you have the right to feel the way you are....and it does kinda suck what we have to go through to be healthy....In time things will change and you will be soo happier and feeling better than you ever thought you could....Get through one day at a time and hang in there.....Let us know how you are and how you feel....Share your thoughts.....WE ARE HERE FOR YOU........

Hey Surgery sis! I'm so glad you where able to get your drain out... mine hurt like !@%^##%@% to get removed! I'm so glad yours was painless. I know you've had a really hard recovery and I've been praying for you and thinking about you a lot. I didn't have a very hard recovery but I still feel the same way you do at times. I can't believe I did this sometimes. I'm emotional and missing food. What I miss most is sharing food with my family. I'll cook and not get to eat with them.. or my husband will try a new recipe and I can't try it. Hearing all the "oooohs and Ahhhs and Yuummmms" from the table.. as I'm sucking on yet another protein shake can get anyone down. Also.. I miss stuffing myself. Sounds weird. But I miss eating so much that I almost burst. It fed something deeper then my stomach. I'm searching to find out just what that is... trying to find a alternative. We went to taco time and I watched my family devour taco after taco and burrito after burrito.. as I took 3 bites (maybe) of pintos and cheese and I couldn't eat anymore. The temptation to drink water so I could eat more was unbelievable! I didn't give in.. but I was very sad. I find that my head hunger is AWFUL when I'm not drinking enough water. If I'm hydrated it's not as bad. We will get through this. Post anytime.. and know YOUR NOT ALONE! -Shakeira

Amanda, I am going through the same thing that you are, but when you start getting into smaller sizes it will all be worth it. Just this week I have been going through food withdrawals, I have been wanting everything but yesterday one of my neighbors, who does not know anything about my having surgery asked me about my weight loss she said you have lost a lot really fast and I just told her that I was watching what I ate very carefully and slowly increasing my excercises. She said that it was working and I felt better. Just hang in and you will feel differently soon. Roz

Amanda, I know exactly how you feel. I wanted good food too! I miss food, it was my friend and now its gone..... but so is 44 lbs!! I am eating more "normal" foods now, started at about 5 weeks out. I had a TERRIBLE surgery experience, i had 3 surgeries and still have the feeding tube for another month "just in case"... but i have survived and am going to be better. I am able to eat just about anything now, except carbs and sugar. For example the other night i had wings, they were great! I also had the inside of a soft taco from taco bell. I have eaten smoked ribs, grilled pork chops, rottiserie chicken, just to name a few. No we wont be able to eat pasta and bread and potatoes, but we can still enjoy food. Dont give up. Things will get better. Michelle