Had pre opt today

Went to pre opt this morning, went to chinease buffet and had my last supper and have been feeling sick ever since. On the way to the resturant I broke down crying...and I'm still not sure why? Went and got me a few days of soups and jellos and puddings...I so can't wait to consume those But I'm just not sure why I'm scarring my self. I was so good while at the Doctor's office, they where boosting my ego saying they wanted me to be a spokes person for them and I should try modeling etc and how pleased I will be but when I got home it was like WTF---my hands and toes have been like ice, I want to be alone and not around anyone and I should be broadcasting my good news. What is happening....why am I stressing my self out and what am I stressed about?

I am glad ur almost there girl.. Gotta keep going.. I had being on a liquid diet for 7 days and tomorrow is my surgery.. Trust me, I went to all of the restaurants I wanted to.. before my diet. hehe.. so dont feel bad and cry all u want.,. lol. you will better afterwards.. It will go by so fast. Good luck

hi girl, boy u sound like me. i start fasting on monday, and for the last 2 wks every meal has been my last supper !! lol. its just because we have loved food for so long its like saying goodbye to a friend. i also have had to quit smoking--very hard, but it has to be. so i am saying goodbye to 2 friends...best wishes to u & may all your dreams come true...good luck

Hi LaNiya, Beautiful name, by the way. Your feelings are normal. So don't beat yourself up over them. Just let it out. I thought I was alone with some of my feelings and then I heard from others on the board and felt the support because they have gone through it too. I realized I was afraid of failing. Not that you are worried about that. But once I put my finger on my stress, it helped. Yes, I still worry about it but I figure there is nothing I can do except my best. You will do wonderful and be so proud of your adventure. Everyone I have spoken with says they would never go back to where they have been and the journey is so well worth it. So, Ms. LaNiya, the very best of wishes for your new journey in life! Charlotte kid4ever