The time is hear to face the demons of food ...

Okay so here it is ... I know that I have only been here for a few days ... but I have to say what a sense of community we have here. I wrote a post yesterday about working on myself emotionaly so that I don't get caught up after surgery into the hell of emotional eatting... know what I mean? This is kinda hard for me let out ... but I feel that it is another step to where I need to be. I have been doing this self help book for adult survivors of childhood abuse ... and I have had so many things become so clear ... I can only speak for myself but this is where it all stems from for me. I have gotten to a point where I can release all that. What a relief that is ... oh boy! Anyway - this book that I have been using is soooooo fantastic. If anyone wants the name of it, send me a note. Wowza .. that was some serious sharing there huh? I just want to completely be able to be free of all the old baggage and so totally be able to start a new life. A complete rebirth. How lucky are we to be given this opportunity. My prayers have indeed been answered. Monique

We are like a family here Monique. We are here to share and help each other thru the good times and bad times. Im glad you are here to share with us Cindy

Thanks Cindy I appreciate that!

Monique, We're all in the same boat. I, too, am looking at this as a second chance. I will never take good health for granted again. I'm looking forward to playing softball, hunting out west, and racing my son and actually letting him beat me (instead of him beating me outright !****rtainly want to be a more active member of society. Yes, we are very lucky. Not many get the second chance we are given. DD

Monique, I am always amazed at how many of us have a history of childhood abuse! We were little and someone took advantage of a child, but now we are adults and we have said enough! We are taking control and not letting someone else rule our lives and our health! Prayers indeed get answered.

You know I thought I was the only one...I too am righting the wrongs...Getting rid of all emotional baggage from my past.. Look at my profile....Kinda weird.. I wrote this morning then I run into you who is doing the same as me......I think you have the right idea of things......My mom is even having an UNbirthday for me...Next weekend the 1st of April.... All my family is sending me Birthday cards instead of get well cards...I told them no get well's or anything like this is a bad thing.....At first they thought I was weird but now they understand.......Good luck with your unpacking.....baggage......

I never really thought that I was the only person who has issues with food due to childhood abuse ... but I have to admit, as weird as this sounds ... I am so relieved that I am not the only one who has taken a stand and will NOT take the *insert foul language here* any longer. Over the past few years many things have come into light - and even more so since my daughter was born, now that she is nearing 4 I have left myself NO CHOICE - I will not let the abuse beat my chance at a happy healthy life ... and the idea of having more of an intimate relationship with my endearing husband tickles me pink! It has really amazed me to see how one person can completely take over your life, and how we as adults have been willing to offer it. No longer will those demons dictate what and how I live my life. ahhhhhhh ... big sigh of relief. I can't wait. (20 more sleeps!)

I think that you are on the right road...I was abused but I dealt with that when I was 17 or 18 and then when I was 21 and had just had my daughter my dad was dying of cancer and I took care of him for 6 weeks.. well he died then my Grandmother told everyone that I killed him and no one stood up for me... SO I am making things right. I called my Aunt and told her why I have been so mad for 10 years and she is helping me deal with things.... I will not life with a death that was not my fault. I want people to know what really happened...I am making my Grandmother call everyone that I know she told this to and admit that she lied.... I think that is only right.. I did not kill my dad he died of gastric signet ring cell and I did my best.... NO one helped me and I refuse to feel like I did something wrong ... not one more day..... Talk about serious CRAP.....lol.....Read my profile from yesterdays entry and you will understand me.....