god give me strength
yesterday morning one of my oldest and dearest friends had a massive heart attack while driving, ran off the road flipping his suv several times then hit a telephone pole. he and his two dogs were ejected from the vehicle and pronounced dead at the scene.
i am so sad, my heart is aching. jim was the brother i never had. and i am so sad for his sisters. god give them strength too. we just buried their dad two weeks ago and their mom a few months ago.
with my son's dads recent accident, now this.....
and in 9 days i fly to south america for surgery. i am trying to be strong for so many people and worrying about my surgery. i'm not sure how much more i can handle.
i am a complete mess.
Lisa - OMG you have been through some terrible times. You must be a rock to be able to give support to so many people. They say God doesn't give us more than we can handle but at times like this we wonder what he is thinking.
Stay strong and let others support you as well in this terrible time. Take care of yourself. It's OK to do that (take care of yourself - just like you would everyone else) - if you don't feel like that now then please make sure that you take the time to care for yourself and that your family cares for you after your surgery.
Even if just coming on here and chatting with you OH friends to get your mind off the other things pls do it to get caught up in everyone's excitement.
This will be an exciting time for you. Your life will change so much in the next months and you need to be able to care for yourself and to say that this is your time to enjoy what is going on in your life. This should be the "me time" that you have probably always denied yourself.
I'm not saying to forget about everyone else - I'm just saying to not forget to stop and smell the roses so to speak along your journey and to enjoy the little changes in your life that are making your life better each day.
I'm so sorry for your recent losses. Just take solice in the fact that this happened quickly and that your friends didn't suffer like so many do. I think we all want to go quickly when our time comes.
Take care
Angel hugs
Carolyn
Lisa, I cannot believe that all these things are happening at the same time. I am so sorry for your loss. Do you have enough support for your own surgery? Who is going with you to South America? You are obviously a very strong person or God would not have put all this in you path at one time, so I have faith that all will be fine. I will pray a lot for you.
Dotsie
Lisa,
I am so sorry to hear of all this loss in your family and exteneded family. Keep in mind, God has plans for each of us. I know that it is not easy to live through all of this, but try to remember the good time, the fun you had with thoes people. Keep their memory alive by being the best Lisa you can be. (((((((huggz)))))) I, also have had my share of bad things the past few years, however, I have a motto: That which does not kill us makes us stronger. My suggestion is to give all things to God. Make a "God Box". Write everything down on paper and put it in the box. Give it to God. I am praying for you.
Cindee
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Lisa, I am so sorry, hon. They say that God never gives us more then we can handle, but I know there are times when I have felt he just overshot my capacity and I simply could not handle any more...but I did. You are providing support to so many people...just remember to be there for yourself as well.
I will say a prayer for your friend to find his place in Heaven and another for his family and yet another just for you. Take care of yourself.
Lisa L.
Hey sweetie, God just allowed your bestest "brother" to come home in a most dramatic way. It is only killer hard and heartwrenching for us ones left behind. That empty space where Jim brought joy and love along is now memories to cherish..and that does't make it a dddaaammmn'd bit easier, but God's still looking out for you, Jim's family and friends left behind here on earth. You now have 2 angels in fur to protect you from harm and a new personal angel to be with you through this life journey you are on.
Sometimes being strong takes so much energy you overlook the obvious, that it is fine, right and your resopnsibility to weep and mourn your loss and to allow those around you to share their strength with you: that is a gift the strong find hard to accept.
Please allow those who care about you beginning with the Lord, your family, friends old and new and your OH buddies to lend you a bit of the strength you need in your time of sorrow, God loves you. Please allow the strength of those around you to help support you through this change.
God will continue to bless..........
Carol