I have gained..and I am so depressed.

So I have gained a considerable amount of weight. I had surgery in April 06, weighed in at 332, in July of this year was 170, left a 6 year abusive relationship, went to 160, and now, currently at 186!!!! I live alone for the first time ever in my life, going through so many changes I never imagined, and I am gaining weight. I feel depressed and anxious ALL OF THE TIME. I eat all of the time-grazing-and I just recently joined a gym and have been going every day since I joined to no avail (only a week now!). I've also had my visitor since 10/31/07...Before my visitor came, I was 176. I don't know what's going on, I am too ashamed to go back to surgeon..and am starting on wellbutrin now and also seeing a counselor for help with the emotional eating, since I am doing so much of that. I don't know what to do, or where to turn. I turn to food for my nourishment, because I feel I am lacking it so much now that I am alone, single, and dependent upon myself solely, which I've not been ever in my life. I am scared I am going to be 200 lbs soon, which I will if I don't get your help. I am really sad, depressed, knowing feeling this way doesn't help. I feel like I need the feel/sound/taste of food to live right now because I am lacking in all other areas and feeling so alone and sad. I just don't know what to do.. Please help me my April buddies...Life is quickly spiraling out of control, but, at least I am trying with the exercise.

Meghan, First I want to tell you that you are not the first for this to happen. Since I know you and your surgeon, I can say this. Call Tony, Lisa and they WILL HELP you. They wont fault you, but they will help you the best they can. I too have gained weight, only 10 lbs but I am very upset about it. They tell me it is the medince they put me on in Aug. I am pulling for you girl. Call them or me if you have too. Kathleen

Don't be ashamed to see your surgeon. It is a positive thing to get help before things progress much further. You can undo the damage. You have already begun to address this issue by seeing a counselor and starting antidepresent medication and exercising, which is great. You have accomplished so much over the past year and one half. You are strong for having had the surgery in the first place and can recapture that strength to get your self back on track. You are worth it! All the best Sher

DNT BE ASHAMED WE ALL GO THRU THIS STUFF THAT IS WHAT WE ALL ARE HERE FOR ,LIKE YOU SAID GO SEE THE Dr that is what they are there for ,I feel like I can eat all the time so now I have been munching on grapes & any kind of fruit I can get to stop eating bad things ,try & go back to bacis drink a protein shake in the am I still do & eat more protein & get your water hope this helps & will be praying all things work out for the best

Sending out big hugs to you. At first the weight seemed to come off most of us, we supported each other and kept track of everything. Now it seems to be more work, but it is well worth it. Food has been our friend when we are down, when we are happy whenever we needed something we had food. I still turn to food without even realizing what I put in my mouth but I have learned when I mess up it is just that, get back on track ASAP. I am glad your on new med's for your peace of mind, but they don't always help us keep the weight off. Call your doctor and see what they say, keep in touch on here for support. You made a great choice leaving a bad relationship, you have to take care of you. YOU WILL DO AWESOME! Stay strong and jump back on the right track! We are here when you need to vent... HUGS Jenni

thank you all!!! I cannot believe how good you made me feel. I started my exercise program, one thing at a time my counselor says, and I've met my first mini-goal which was to drop 5 lbs, and I have as of today. So I am feeling better, and the losing again helps me to stop eating, or at the least question my eating and why I want to. I will call when I get the courage, which should be soon. Thank you all so much and God Bless!

Meghan I am so sorry you are going thru this. You know we are all here for you. I would like to offer you my phone number, email address, home address etc , anything I can do to help , I am here. I have unlimited long distance calling and we could talk any time you need/want to talk. Please let me know if theres anything I can do. Carol

Meghan..so glad you stopped in to talk with the old gang! Yes, we all struggle..I don't care who you are. This surgery wasn't on our brains so we need to take control when we feel ourselves slipping. Do not bash yourself..you are making the right choices now and I know I struggle with making the right choices too. Everyone does! I know that having my protein shake in the morning really helps and I even do one at night to help curb the munchies I seem to get in the evening now. And I keep a large insulated jug with water flavored with DaVinci SF syrup like caramel or Khalua and that really helps. Keep a food journal at fitday.com or whatever place you like online. I know some like sparkspeople I think that is what it is....but just do it one thing at a time. You did great losing the five pounds and getting out of the house and doing the ecercise will really help with the munchies. Buy the food that is good for you since you do not have to buy for non-WLS people. Spend money on good food for you. You can do this!! I will be praying for you Meghan and can't wait to hear the progress you are going to make. Love in Christ, Joan M

Hellooo HI Everybody, well I am so glad to say that I am now at 174 today. I am happier, and feeling content with my life. I have gone back to basics, although it took a little getting used to, I am doing it. I am feeling better about everything, and the new clothes I bought that no longer fit, fit once again. Those 10's don't - YET- but they will this group is truly wonderful.. I am grateful for you guys. I need to go get more protein for the mornings, since I hear everyone saying it really helps to have a shake in the morning, and as you said above, one at night to curb the munchies. Couldn't have a better idea myself!! : ) Would it be okay, though, to mix this protein shake, say a vanilla protein powder, with non-fat frozen yogurt (any suggestions anyone as to a sugar free/reduced sugar brand?) and some fruits like banana and strawberries? I have them at the gym, and I love them!! God BLess you all-keep on keepin' on! I will get there by May 20th! I promise!!