"Buyers Remorse"
Yes indeed. Despite a great recovery and generally unexciting 5 weeks, this past week I have been having some buyers remorse. It has been pretty unexpected since food is not the center of my life, but I have been annoyed at how little I can eat, and tired of protein first, which at this point in my journey means only protein. Of course all is made worse by having to make some hard decisions and the MAJOR onset of TREE Allergies this week. So although food is not the center of my life, it has been a tool to deal with stress, which I no longer have. I will be OK. I know this will pass and the Lord has blessed me. And I see and like the results, just needed to whine where someone will understand!
God Bless and Thanks for Listening!!!!
Heidi L-S
Lap RNY 4/18/06
You sound pretty "normal" (whatever that means)
You need an outlet, how about gettin' a beach ball and only partially inflating it, then you kick it real hard. Walk after it, kick it again and so on until you are no longer frustrated about whatever? Get in a bit of exersize and kick out the frustration as well.
Best wishes in your weight loss journey. God brought you to it, He will see you through it. Honest.
Either a beach ball or one of those Bobo clown things they used to have (do they still have these?) that are weighted at the bottom so you can punch it and it stands back up and you can punch it again. I know they're only about three feet tall, but you could put it on a chair or table to get it to the right height.
Heidi,
You are not the only one that feels like that I too get frustrated you just want to eat normal what ever that is and yes we use to live to eat and now we eat to live and we have to have time to adjust ourselves to this new concept of life. We are going to have our ups and downs but the one things like you said is god has givin you this blessing and we have to remember without him we could of not had the surgery and died alot sooner because of our weight...Hang in there and just know it will pass in a year we will feel normal again, and just remember we are all here together....
hugs and love
lisa
Heidi,
You are totally normal in your thinking right now. We are all going to be going through different "feelings" changes with our new lifestyle.
I felt the way you describe from week 2-6 and I "just" wanted a normal meal, a full sized meal. Things have not been tasting right to me and with the little bit that we are able to eat I did not feel I was getting the full taste. I still am feeling like that at 7 weeks but as of now I am in a new stage of excitement because all of my clothes are getting huge on me!!!
I don't get alot of protein in, haven't been able to tolerate but yes, I am getting sick of eating protein and only things with protein!
I mentioned this at our last support group meeting and I got flamed...they kept saying, you need to adjust to your new lifestyle, you wanted the surgery now you have to take action for yourself! I understand, but I am sure they all felt this way at some point also?
Anyways, good luck with keeping food out of our obsessions!!
Amy
i felt that for the first time this morning. i was standing at the fridge, looking for something for breakfast.. realized that my brother had used up all the eggs - the yogurt was too old - no more string cheese ...
and all i wanted was a bagel with cream cheese.
i got pretty frustrated. i didn't want tuna, or oatmeal, or anything protein-based. i just wanted a bagel. even half a bagel. but i know i can't ever have one - and it just frustrated me.
i ended up with a slice of havarti and a slice of ham rolled up together. not exactly a bagel.. but it felt good doing the right thing.
I kinda think we all go thru that....to some degree. I don't regret having the surgery, but I am was sure going thru a phase where NOTHING, and I mean nothing sounded or tasted good. I had to force myself to eat. Seemed like everything I put in my mouth tasted horrible to me. I just had to force myself to eat. I've caved on a few things, and definately payed for it later. We'll all get thru this, and thank God we have a place we can come to for support and understanding.