Thanks for everyone response, I went to my Dr and I had a stricture..my little hole was healing shut...so the stretched it. I still feel like crap, but my Dr said I will for about 72 hours..after that I should feel fine, if not..I gotta go back.

Ok before I respond do you want the tough love response or the gentle caring response ;) Jackie - You went through a life alternating procedure. You made a commitment to yourself and your surgeon that you would do your part. Now you MUST do it. /swift kick in your tush!! Failure is not an option. You were NOT fooling yourself. Get that negative thinking out of your head right now. You are ready and you can do this. Say that out loud. I CAN DO THIS... no better yet.. I WILL DO THIS!!! You took the first step by admitting you are having some trouble here. Now take the next step and try the following: 1. Write down your goals and reasons for having the surgery 2. Get to support groups and come to OH DAILY for encouragement Support Groups are for SUPPORT. Not to be ashamed. People will not judge you. People are there to help you through the good and the hard times. Others might be going through what you are going through as well. You can help others and help yourself by sharing your challenges. 3. Consider seeking out a therapist for some one on one sessions. Even if it is just a few to do some here and now type therapy to get you back on track. 4. Review the pouch rules once again. Go back to basics. Review them everyday until you get them down. 5. Log your food intake at fitday.com or in a notepad and hold yourself accountable for what you eat. If you do find yourself overeating still right it down and figure out why. Are you drinking with food? STOP. Are you eating protein first and filling up on quality calories? Try calling your nutritionist and make an appointment to bring her your logs after a few weeks for a refresher and review. 6. Recommit yourself daily and have a daily plan for meals and exercise. Don't look at just the numbers but rather have the goal of becoming a healthier and happier you with a better quality of life. Take it one day at a time. 7. Close your eyes and visualize yourself at your goal. How do you feel, look, what are you doing, what are you wearing? Are you eating because you are physically hungry or is it emotional? I have an article that can help you identify the difference if you want me to email it to you. It takes practice following the pouch rules and getting use to our life. Nobody is perfect and many people don't get them down for a few months. The emotional/behavioral part of this journey is the hardest part! You can start right now. Seize this "window of opportunity!" Good Luck!!

I am falling into my old bad habit of closing myself in. I dont read the board, I dont get on the scale( if I dont see the gain I can just ignore it), and I am eating things that I shouldnt. Nothing makes me sick(although I havent tried sugar yet--dont want to know) I know that I am eating too much at each meal, and grazing the rest of the day. I'm really feeling like a failure again. I dont post on my local board or go to the support meeting cause I'm so ashamed. I'm still struggling to hit the 50 pound mark. Before my surgery, I knew this was only a tool and I was ready to commit to a lifetime change but now I see that I was only fooling myself. I'm sorry this is such a downer but I dont know what to do.

I'm down 65lbs and I need 25 more to go 253/188/163

I am soooooo excited I went to the doctor and weighed in Friday and I have lost 100 lbs exactly. Only about 64 more to go!!!!! Just had to tell someone. Torre