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UGH! i need to tell someone this its making me crazy.. well i have b*&^%$ and complained abut how my weight was going and well i gave up and gave in... i started having some sugar... a definate no no but it doesnt even make me any more. It started innocently enough i had a cookie, then the next day i grabbed a candy bar, and the next a handful of cookies. No wonder the weight started creeping back on. I tried to go back to the soft food we had after surgey. the sf jello and soups and sf pudding and it left me starving. i now think that i have seriously screwed up my pouch. I tracked my eating today on fitday and it said i ate 91 carbs today and 45 protein. that is soo out of control. i am kicking myself in the butt but at the same time my tummy is growling cause its hungry, or maybe i jsut think it is and it hurts. Im not sure . it feels like hungry though... I just needed to tattle on myself and give myself some kind of accountablitly i guess. ugh i never knew it would be so hard getting back on track... this is what i ate today so far... b- weight control oatmeal and coffee w/splenda l - 7 fish sticks and 1/2 cup mac and cheese d- 2 oz tuna fish , on 6 crackers and sf jello and i am still starving!!!! ugh. Danielle 265.175.145

Danielle, How well I know the feeling. It is so hard to get back on track. Please do not beat yourself up. We have done enough of this in our lives. Remember how hard you have worked to get where you are today. Learn from the experience and move forward. try to stay within 1000-1200 calories a day. 75% from protein and 25% from carb (fruits and vegetables). Get some fiber in. It does keep you feeling full. There are some great protein bars out there that makes you feel like you have had a treat. Just be careful not to over eat them. Not over 1 a day. I use them sometimes for breakfast. Sometimes at night I make a smoothie protein shake. Have you ever tried a Skinny Monkey? It is 1 scoop of Chocolate protein powder, 1 frozen banana, 1 Tbs peanut butter, 8 oz skim milk. Put in blender. Add ice in blender if you want it thicker. This is very good and very high in protein. Good luck and Just say No if there is no protein. Remember protein first. Hope this helps. Beleave me I have been in your shoes. I can eat anything and not get sick so I have to watch everyday. The struggles are still there and we must learn to work with the tool. Your tool is still good. YOU CAN DO THIS !!! Never Never feel like you are alone in this struggle. See you lighter. Joanne Hammond Delaware Obesity Help Chapter Leader.

Okay I confess too then. Last night was not a good one for me. I ate THREE fruit snack packs and THREE marshmallow rice krispie treats in just a few hours of watching tv. I've been eating not so great things for awhile now, but when it starts creeping up past 2 servings of one thing in a day, that's bad. That's heading back down the old "not so forgotten" path. This past Tuesday (weigh in day) I put 1.2 pounds back on because we had a birthday and I just had to have some cake. I know I need to get back on trac****ep saying tomorrow I'll start fresh and, well, it goes fine until about 5 o'clock. Then it's like a reason or something to start snacking. My goal has been to keep my carbs less than my protein grams, but that almost never happens either. H@#$, I think one day I had like 193 carbs. HELLO???? What are you thinking? Anyway there's my confession. I don't think you've screwed up your pouch at all Danielle. You and I are just not making wise choices in our eating. As far as what you ate, the mac and cheese is not a good choice-carbs. The crackers-carbs. I'm not so sure the fish sticks are even that good. Maybe too high in fats and carbs, probably not much protein either. Those foods will make you feel full for awhile but since they are carb-ladden you will end up feeling hungry in an hour or so. I know it's sounds easy for me to analyze what your eating huh? I can do it to myself to. It's just the part of actually taking control of the situation. Here's to a better day to us both. There were some books menioned on another board that I had written down and wanted to read. I checked my library out here and they will send them when they get them in. I can't remember exactly what and who they were by. One was called "How Much Does Your Soul Weigh?" I'll look it up again and let you know. They sounded like good books for people at our stage in this journey. Take care! amber 296/153/140 -143 (13 more to my goal)

Danielle, Don't beat yourself up. Just those evil monsters away. I think we all seem to stray at one time or another. We are all coming up on our one year soon and I am realizing it does get harder. I will confess, I was craving a Snickers candy bar and I bought one. I took one bite and threw it away. It wasn't as good as I thought it would be but, it satisified me. You have not screwed up your pouch. I was at dinner tonight with a WLS friend and she made a year in Feb. and she was out of town and said the scale jumped up 2-4 lbs but, she came home, went back to basics and said she lost 4 lbs this week. So, our tools still work, we just have to use them. We are not perfect, Danielle. We had this surgery to be healthy and normal and normal people do these things too. Don't beat yourself up. Get back on track and we will cheer you on. Well, we will cheer you on and be by your side no matter what. Gina

Ladies, thanks so much for your support and encouragement. I have gone back to the absics this week with getting all the water in and my protein yesturday was 101 grams with carbs only being 43. I think that was a pretty dang good day for me... its hard. I know that once i get back into the swing of things though that i will be alright. It just tough getting back to the old GOOD eating habits when you've strayed.. hugs, Danielle

Gina~I love your new pic! You look so cute! amber 296/153/140 -143 (13 more to my goal)

Hi Amber, Thank you for the compliment girl. Ready for our one year, almost surgery sister!?! Gina 282/150 surgeon's goal/131 today's weight/???my goal

After 11 months out, I want all the same things. I have to get a mental picture of what cookies and candy will do to me in my mind. It does not help that one of the teacher's here has a wife that sends in home made brownies and he brings in donuts or cookies everyday. Man do I crave them. I quickly run past them and fix myself decaf coffee. (Caffinated is an appetite stimulant.) After two cups, I no longer feel the cravings from the sights and smells. I have managed to cut out my afternoon snack by having hot fruit flavored tea. I want you to know, that before this surgery, there was no way that I would have drank tea in any shape or form. (Orange, Raspberry and Lemon are my favorites) I also would not have had decaf coffee or had regular coffee without tons of creamer and sugar. Everyone has the cravings, and sometimes we give in to them. It happens. You will do yourself more harm if you beat yourself up over this. One trick I have learned after reading an interview by Carnie Wilson, after eating three bites of the super good sweet thing, pour a bunch of salt over it. You won't want it then! I tried it at my husband's company dinner. I had a lot of funny looks from the other diners until I explained why, but it works! The best I can tell you is more fiber, hot liquids and shake, not sprinkle salt on all the offending foods Good luck, you'll be fine!

All I have too say is those dam girl scout cookies... (No offense girl shouts) My nicese's are girl scouts and they were selling cookies, and my mom in law sent hubby home a bucnh of cookies.. Those dam mint cookies... Alice

Hey Danielle, I keep saying they operated on our tummies not our brains and that is where all our problems come from. PLEASE dont be so hard on yourself, it only makes you feel worse and the cycle continues. Here is a big hug, now feel better,please. hugs from down under Helen