Hit 140 Loss Today!

So that's an amazing amount of weight lost. It's a whole other person or almost 6 of my daughter. When I think of 6 of her running around, wow! That's all I can say. With only 16 pounds left to my personal goal I keep finding myself getting more and more depressed. Partly I think because the journey is almost over. What happens when you reach goal? That's it, your there. No more major focusing on making your goal weight, tracking your losses each week and taking monthly photos. The journey is almost over. The other major part is the loose skin. I really thought I would be okay at the end. I knew I would need a tummy tuck, of course after two kids, but I wasn't prepared for the arms, loss of boobs, the thighs, the chin. It's very depressing to look at myself naked. I thought if I could just get a tummy tuck and a boob lift with some excess skin cut away I'd be happy, now I'm not so sure anymore. I've been looking into plastics since January. I plan on having a consult before the end of summer to find out what my options are and how much money it will cost. That's the sucky part. I know it's at least a minimum of 6 grand for a tummy tuck. It's gonna take a lot of planning and finegleing to pay for ANY plastics. Now don't get me wrong. I am very pleased with the amount of weight I have lost and for being so much healthier now. I do consider myself lucky for being able to have had this surgery. I know many are not able to get it covered by insurance and are having a hard time financing it. I have not forgotten where I've come from. It's almost the end of my wls journey and I'm just unsure about, well I don't even know???? amber 296/156/140 -140

. Hi Amber! CONGRATULATIONS on the wonderful loss!!! I understand totally what you mean about the loose skin. I've lost 122 pounds in almost 11 months, and to be honest, I have a worse self-image of myself nekkid now at 188 pounds than I did at 310. At 310 I was huge all over. At 188, I have batwings hanging down to my ankles, no breasts to speak of, and what is there is lowwwwwwww, a huge amount of excess skin on my belly, my butt is drooping like crazy, and I don't even want to talk about my upper thighs. They remind me of my 90 year old grandmother's thighs, which I saw while caring for her 24/7 with Alzheimer's. I know it's part of the journey, and I knew there would be loose skin, but wow..... it is just hard to face the mirror nekkid sometimes. Thank goodness I'm single, or I don't know what'd I'd do. To even think of someone seeing me nekkid at this point absolutely terrifies me. Maybe I'm blowing it way out of proportion, and maybe I'm not, but that's how I feel. Anyone else having these thoughts? Don't get me wrong, I would do this surgery again in a heartbeat!!!!! I have never felt so good physically, as I do now! It's just mentally with the nekkid self-image I'm a bit whacked, lol. Dayna

Hi Amber, I can totally relate to what you are saying. I asked my surgeon this exact question, "What do I do when I'm done losing?" His answer was you live live. It's almost like you feel lost in a sense and don't know where to turn. You work so hard to have WLS and so hard to achieve your goals it's like you don't know what to do with yourself once your there are almost there. All I can say, is I guess you give back what was given to you, as far as support and being a mentor for others. As far as skin, I hear ya sister!!! I used to read the boards and think why are they complaining about lose skin at least they had the surgery. Well, I am here to tell you I now worry about skin issues too. I guess we will look forward to PS and then life the "American Dream" Good luck and if you figure out those answers or I do, I will let you know!!!! Gina