Dianne - thanks for your suggestions. The only other time in my life I felt this was was when my husband left me 20 years ago and I was able to get through it on my own then. I did see a dr. who told me to read the Feeling Good Handbook by David Burns. I got it at the library today, but haven't gotten started yet. I have always exercised 3-5 times a week, up until a couple weeks ago. I started back at this week. Told myself I have to go 3 x week and I'm starting slow at about 3 mi on the treadmill. I've been taking an anxiety drug for a couple months, but the dr. just added the Paxil. I really don't want to take anything and want to get off of these as soon as I feel better. I would like some of your affirmations, religious as well. 3 months ago I kicked out my b/f of 5 years, who then decided to stalk me (and still is somewhat). I had to get a domestic abuse restraining order because he also decided he should push me around. I've been seeing a new guy who also suffers from depression and anxiety. (He just started on Lexapro). Because he is having some problems of his own right now he wants to back off from seeing me. For some reason the rejection (or it feels that way to me) has just devastated me. Combine those two things with the fact I never in my life thought I would be this thin and everyone telling me how much I've changed -- I just am having a problem handling life right now. I really don't want to stay on meds. When I'm with my new b/f it makes me much calmer -- but things aren't going to work out with him until he gets himself in a calmer place. It's like a vicious circle right now. Thanks for your help. Janie

Thanks Rachel, I fell great! I have a date this weekend with a hot doctor. Woo hoo. Date #3. Maybe he'll kiss me. Dianne

Wow, Great job! You look fabulous! Rachel

Jane, I am with you honey. I had depression before surgery but was not taking meds. I will tell you that I still battle it. My doctor is not one to give meds for anxiety, but I am having trouble coming to terms with my new body and how I look. I know I lost weight, but of course my family like everyone else's says I am anorexic. I am having a hard time accepting my appearance because I want to be attractive but do not feel it. I am also alone. Heck, I had one boyfriend in 14 years and at 138lbs he still calls me a big woman, even though I weighed 182 when we started going out. I feel alone in a crowded house, which I am inclined to think that is how you feel too. I want more than anything to be loved and accepted yet I was rejected fat and now skinny. It is hard. I am using the support groups in my area to talk about the way I feel and it helps. One of the people that attend told me I was brave for bringing it up. Don't worry we are all in this together and at times I know I am right there with the blues too. Lori 258/138

Thank you Rae - keep us posted on your recovery Toni