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Rae, That is so great. I have been wearing a two piece and I do not care if anyone sees my scar. I lived with one on my stomach all my life and it does not bother me. The only think I wish my thighs were more toned. I am so happy for you! Lori

I'm so sorry to read I'm not the only one with extreme makeover:spine edition in my life. My back surgery was no where near as intense as yours, but the pain is no joke. I was blessed that we got my disc removed before it caused too much permanent damage (still numbness, but no more intense leg agony and only minor weakness.) I'm wishing you well, and feel free to email me anytime. ~Lara

Hi there my April Peeps, I've been away but you all are fondly in my heart. I'm fully "recovered" from my back surgery, but my back pain continues to be intermittently debilitating. I've been referred to a Chronic Pain center, and in 2 months when my name gets off the waiting list I can expect to learn techniques that will help me adjust to my new life with pain. It can be extremely frustrating to be at goal - and healthy, but unable to move due to the pain in my back. It inspires feelings of hopelessness that my therapist and I are working on. I know there is light at the end of my tunnel - if not a life without severe back pain, at least better coping mechanisms for dealing with it. I thank god every day for my WLS - as suffering with this pain in addition to the pain I used to be in every day - I can't bear the thought of it. My prognosis is very good provided I keep the hardwon success my WLS has helped me earn. The walking class is going strong. Often its hard to limit myself to just walking - but sometimes its hard just to be able to walk. I'm not certain if I'll be teaching the next section of it or not. But I'm still exploring options to get a good low impact workout. I am deeply in love with my darling wife - she's incredible. I'm very very lucky. Anyway, I've babbled enough. I'm sending love to all my April compadres, ~Lara

Hey, Jamie - it's been a long time. Hadn't checked this list for ages. Life is so busy. Congrats to you on your anniversary. Me too. My weight fluctuates too - from 113-118 on any given day or week. Lost 135-140 pounds. Who would have guessed we'd be saying this 2 years ago. Hope you can get to PS one of these days - or I'll get to LA. Las Vegas this weekend as it's Pride festival time again. Take care, hugs, Ruth