Tuesday- Food journals, freaking out, and more!

Post away... Thanks! Join me.... I hate being alone, damnit! _____________________________________________________________ Still swinging high, ate like a carb-fiend yesterday, expected to actually see the scale go higher . It was one of the highest calorie days I've had since Christmas/chocolate chip cookie days. I didn't eat anything bad, it was all good food, (go figure) just lots of carbohydrates that my body doesn't need and make me maintain weight even at a lower calorie rate. I feel the tell-tale pains of impending doom this morning, and I am PRAYING (which is totally out of character for ME, ..) that my period is coming. It's officially late, and I have been freaking out and obviously and immediately I start craving things when I have the slightest inkling that something is off. Who else would go through an entire 11-serving box of freaking flax granola in 2-3 days?! Anywho- Woke up freaking out again... So, bear with me today...again... 1/2 toasted waffle (I think they were "healthy" ones, since I've changed all food intake in the house, but STILL?!) Spread of SF strawberry jam (and this wasn't even my food , this was the 2 y.o.'s breakfast...UGH... why would I even TOUCH a waffle??) Trying to stop it before it gets worse... 24 oz coffee/2 oz CC skim Next up, more and more coffee probably... and then on to warm decaf tea I think.... going to push off eating as long as possible, because once I start the stupid carb-ball rolling, I cannot physically stop. ::::deep breath in::::: Beth 'How puzzling all these changes are,' said Alice. 'I'm never sure what I am going to be from one minute to another. However, I've got back to my right size: the next thing is to get into that beautiful garden.' HW- 313 SW- 298 CW- 148-152 GW- 130 http://meltingmama.blogspot.com/

B - protien shake s - few pistachio nuts L - turkey and cheese, sugar free fruit cup I'm tired.

wow, been away from the puter all weekend with my dh.....anyway here goes: bf: 1/2 cup cottage cheese with salt and pepper sn1: 1 atkins morning start bar lunch: cheese steak without bread, add mushrooms and onions (about 3 ounces total) (no flames please it is real lean meat from a local place and they make it special for me - no added grease all vegies and steak are steamed) sn2: handfull of sunflower seeds dinner: protien shake (2 tbls cocoa, 2 tbls peanut butter (simply jiff), 1 scoop protien, 1/2 cup carb countdown, 2 cups ice, 1 cup water) sn3: cheese stick around 220 ounces of crystal light sunrise and water combined today....already completed 1/2 gallon. 2 mile walk away the pounds workout and about 2 hours of packing and moving of stuff. still holding with my recent loss - nothing new to report but am quite hopeful. Open RNY 4/19/2004 "Life consists not in holding good cards but in playing those you hold well." Josh Billings

Great day, Yvonne--- you're a good example of planning.... something I need to learn... -beth 313/298/148-152/130

No way i'd flame - we're a supportive bunch. Besides - only she who is without sin can cast the first stone. (Whoever that broad is, it sure ain't me!) Besides, what's so bad about lean meat with cheese melted on it? I'd eat it! Hugs, ~Lara 400+/191 (the scale moved a lb this morning. . .we'll see if it sticks)

B: yogurt, oj s: cheese & crackers l: corn chowder.... Are you gonna get a test Beth?

Bite your .... giving it a few more days.... I feel crampy.... I'd just about drop dead if the *unspeakable* happened now. Truly. On the floor. Plop, dead. -beth

B - H20 64oz. L - Protien Shake w/decaf coffee crystals 35 grams protien D - ??? Just wanted to say CARBS ARE THE I had a toasted tuna sandwhich yesteday and I gained 2 lbs. this morning Any time I eat even the smallest amount of carbs I gain weight. I guess I will forever be unable to eat them Struggling Sissy 158 to 160 this am

Adding- Lunch- 1 Quick-Stix Vegan Pepperoni Stick (22 grams protein ) Kept me full for quite a while.... Must get more! Afternoon nosh-fest- 2 Nori-wrapped Power Wraps (1.1 oz) (something I grabbed at the checkout at the HFS today... they're good... ...) Looking them up online too for a review.... 1C watermelon, diced 32 oz diluted decaf tea 1/4C FlaxZSnax Cinnamon NutRageous Granola (this I already bagged into teeny snack portioned baggies, because it's terrifyingly addictive..) Totals pre-dinner/snack... Actually better than I *thought*.... 604 calories 26 fats 64 carbs, net is slightly lower 42 protein -beth

Adding- Dinner- Ground turkey in tomato sauce 1T chickpeas graham cracker Totals- eh... I think I forgot something too... 906 39 85 68