march 20 and i have the two week freak

Hi guys-

sorry i've been a flake

its been a while...so i am sitting here freaking out alot...i mean alot.  I really think I am going to die on March 20th.  I told my husband I don't want to fight between now and then because i don't want to waste my last days with him. 

seriously, this is bad....i need the surgery want the surgery but I keep thinking i am not going to wake up from the surgery.

My son has a field trip the day of the surgery and i thought to myself i won't be able to ask him how it went. 

what are the new stats...also, any u of c people that can reassure me i'll be ok.

My surgery is March 17th and I'm starting to get a bit worried too, but mostly I tell myself I'm going to be ok and that this IS what I want and mostly I'm excited.  I don't have any statistics for you other than the death rate is low.  Try not to focus on what "might" happen and instead focus on the statistic that people who have the surgery and much more likely to live LONGER than those who don't rather than the opposite.  Hang in there, our dates will get here soon and we'll be on the other side before we know it!

My surg is scheduled for 3/18 so I know what you're feeling. Have you found any info to address this? I am so excited but scared at same time. :)

My surgery is on 3/19, so I sort of know how you are feeling.  I'm nervous too, but I am thinking of all the wonderful things that are going to happen after my "new life" begins afterwards.  I should be really nervous, I've never been in the hospital a day in my life....well except when I was born.  I think I'm more nervous, about having any kind of mishap after I go home more than my initial hospital stay/surgery.  Try to think of all the wonderful things, like your husband & son.  Hang in there, I'm sure you will be just fine.

I am not so worried about the surgery  (I have had 7 over the years so I know that will be ok) 
I am more worried about not being successful after. 

Well my feeling is a heart attach can kill me unexpectedly too.  I have had cancer, gangarene and a deformed foot related to diabeties....At least I have the option of reversing it and making it to my 80th birthday something some of my reletives never had an option to do.

Have you talked to you counselor she maybe able to help.