problems..

I am over 2 years out, had my Distal in June '05.. I lost over 200 pounds, recently, within the last probably 5 months, I have gained 20 pounds and I am beyond devastated. I feel fat, feel like now I can never lose it again and I am having a VERY hard time. I've gotten so depressed I wake up crying, cry throughout the day and then cry myself to sleep at night. I've been put on meds after going to the er because my dad didn't know what to do, and I still don't. I need to talk to someone, I know that, but I didn't really know where to go. I live in Wildomar now, had the surgery in Federal Way, WA, but I don't know of any support groups here. Can anyone help me? I am open to e-mails whatever.. I just really need someone. My e-mail is caxbecca (at) yahoo.com. I am also a good listener.

I am pre-op - but have seen people who have had issues with weight gain before. One place for support you can check is the GRADs board. They discuss this topic a good bit and also there is a 5 day pouch test (5dpt) and that is supposed to help you regain control of the pouch tool. Maybe you just need to go back to journaling your food and measuring for awile. - I hope this helps. Heidi

Is the GRADs board for people who have had the surgery already? I'm still pretty new to the site. I've never heard of a 5 day pouch test, do you have any more info on that? I tried to journal but really it ended up depressing me on how much I ate! I was doing so well and I thought my addictions had went away but I am starting to think they never do.

Here is the link to the 5 day pouch test. -http://www.5daypouchtest.com/plan/theplan.html - I hope it helps. My view of this surgery is that we will have to work on our fitness for the rest of our lives. Develop good habbits to replace the old bad ones. As much as I hate to admit it - it seems to me that it is a disease much like alcoholism - only we can never "quit" eating. But we can regain our control that food has over us. I must believe that - or there's no reason to go an have the surgery to change my life.... As for the info.... go to the top of the page and look under the forums tab. The WLS GRADs is for those folks who have had the surgery. Again - I am pre-op and I am only echoing the advise that I have read and made note of to use in my battles going forward. I pray that you will find the answers you need. Feel free to PM me anytime. I may not have the answers - but I will listen and point you elsewhere if I can.