Hello Marchers...it's been awhile. I wonder if anyone is struggling like I am. I started out weighing 431 the lost weight I got down to 236, now I am bouncing around from 260-270. I am so depressed, I haven't had sodas for 4 years then all of a sudden just a little taste here a little taste there, i guess in my mind my Dr said no soda so i went to drinking light beer. I want to do right and get down to my goal weight but I am having such a hard time. I am so depressed. That time of the month for me is horrible I crave chocolate , hot pickles . My partner loves me and stands by me through everything but she doesn't know how to tell me NO. I am hooked on charmed blow pop I actually go through a bag of them in a day or 2. I did the pouch test before it does work I actually lost 12 pounds in a week. I am so depress. Would like to have a revision but can't find a Dr that will do it. Melissa I read your post if your are reading this and OMG your story sounds like mine. What really depresses me is that I fought my insurance company for over 2 years to get the surgery, never won with my insurance company but I was able to get on insurance under my partner was actually approved within 2 days. i just wanted to post and tell everyone I know it is a struggle I hope you all are doing well with your weightloss and living healthy. Will try to get back on the right track. take care everyone.

hi everyone!  wow it feels great to see others are back!  I haven't been a lurker that much but I do need to get back on track!  I spoke to Barbara last week also, her and I are planning to do the 5 day pouch test starting next Monday the 27th, if anyone wants to join please do!  we can all be eachothers support group!

I haven't gained alot of weight back, but became a statistic to weight loss surgery transfer addiction.. first starting with shopping and  once the closets were packed to the brim, it changed to alcohol..  Something I'm not happy about and in March at my 4 year appt I finally admitted the first time to my doctor.  It started as an occasional drink then bf and i started going out more, the more we went out the more we would drink.  Then holidays, bdays, bbqs, more drinks and eventually it was drinking every nigt after work.  Its something I need get into control and this week I'm planning to do so.  I have a black tie event to go to on Friday in a dress thats far from forgiving!  Not only am I not going to drink - no alcohol left in the house and not buying it - I'm also cutting out carbs this week sticking to only proein and vegetables and also plan to walk at lunch and when I get home. 

Next week we'll start the pouch test so that will be 2 weeks without drinking alot  - I'll have a glass of wine at the event, but keeping it to only one specially since its a awork event).

everything else has been good with me, i had plastic surgery in december, a full circumfrencial tummy tuck, abdominalplasty and back lipo, finally healed and feel recovered.  now its time to fix my problem and go back to being happpy! :)

Its great to see some of our old Marchers back, I miss you all!  please consider the pouch test with barbara and i next week, its only 5 days we can do this! 

Rick, great idea about the 5 day pouch test......and I totally understand about the enabler.  My mother-in-law is that way, too.  My husband is about 100 pounds overweight as well and has as much or more af a carb addiction that I do.  So he's always eating stuff that WE shouldn't or his mom's sending stuff home with him, or taking us out to eat........it's very hard......and sometimes I get so frustrated and end up yelling at one of them.  I know that they love me, but it's like, "do you want me to be obese and not healthy???   Because that's how I feel!".  You can do this, I know you can.  Keep me posted. 

Melissa

Saw your post and would like some advise.  I have gained about 15 pounds and have no clue about getting back on track or what that means,  Any suggestions.  Curious as to what you are doing.  Are you doing liquid diet again? 

Rose

Thanks, Rick!!!!  It's amazing how we are soooo succcessful with this tool at first and then we get back into some old habits......Would be nice if they could do surgery on our mind (making us not like certain foods so much) as well as our stomachs. 

You're definitely doing a lot of the right things, that's great.  The snacking late at night has been a difficulty of mine, too. I'll wake up to go to the bathroom and head to the kitchen to get something.  I've tried not to do that so much the last 2 weeks, but the temptation is still there. 

Sorry to hear about your mom.  It's so difficult losing a parent.  My father-in-law passed away last year around halloween and my mother in law is having some health issues right now as well that is taking a lot of energy from both my husband and myself.  I know how much those two have affected me, I can't imagine it being MY mom or dad.  It would definitely be hard to function at times. 

Thanks again for the response, it's so nice knowing that there are others that struggle.  So many times I feel like a failure especially to those people that know that I've had WLS.....and feel like they're thinking, "YOU had wls???  And you're still THAT big????  You must've been HUGE!!!!"  No one's actually said that and I guess honestly it doesn't matter if they even think that, I'm supposed to be doing this for me and my health.  I just know that I'm not happy with myself.  Perhaps if I had been doing everything that I was supposed to do and still ended up this weight, I wouldn't feel so bad, who knows.  I just know that it's time to make a change. 

What changes are you thinkin' about?  It sounds like you might be ready to get back on the wagon so to speak.  If there's anything that I can do to help our support you, count me in. 

Thanks again for the response!!!!! 

Melissa