HI Sheryl, I wish you the best! Good luck!

Hi Sheryl, wishing you the best through your surgery. Speedy recovery.

Hi Barb, Checking in. I've been around, I do check the posts almost daily, just don't always know what to say. Went through the spell of feeling isolated, not part of anything. Don't know why. Been having depression I guess you would call it. I seem to get down every couple of weeks. Just feel sad for no reason, then stuff just makes me angry. Nothing particular going on, life is great, so why do I feel bad? I've never been this emotional, or as I would say unstable. I have gotten close to going to the doctor and just asking for something to make me feel better, but I generally don't believe in medication to adjust emotions, so this is a toughy for me. And then I think, well I'm fine today, tomorrow, so it's not necessary, but then it happens again for a few days. It makes me not want to go to work, but I go because I need to, I don't want to be the old me. I guess that is part of it too, I'm feeling the old me coming back and it scares me. And then the new responsibilities in life are there, the new things I do, that I never did and I guess it causes me stress, but it shouldn't. UGH!! LOL It's this vicious circle it seems. I like my job, it's great, the best I ever had, but when I feel like I do at times, it just ruins it and I worry I'm going to ruin everything and be the old me, not giving a damn about how what I do affects others. The first class of being back to school went great. I got A's on all 3 tests and an A for final grade. So proud of that, and I registered on Monday for my next course. I've been struggling with hating the fact that I can eat, that I want to eat and that I do. I had finally broken that 170 lbs goal I had set, got to 169 twice, for one day and now for two months I've been bouncing between 171 and 176. It drives me insane. I want to eat like I used to, just a tiny bit, and not have so many choice, be able to eat as many things. I guess I'm in the honeymoon is over phase huh? Maybe that is part of the feeling sad thing. It's a constant thought process all day long, wanting to eat, feeling bad for wanting to do that, then eating and feeling bad I ate ( especially if it wasn't the best choice). I know the choices I should make, but don't always make them. I don't make terrible choices, or over eat or eat large amounts, but it seems like now that I have to practicallyl starve myself to not gain a pound. It somehow doesnt seem right. I guess being between 170 and 175 isn't a terrible thing, but I had hoped for at least another 10 to 15 lbs. And now with the holidays here, there are so many goodies around and I've been having some cookies, chocolates etc. So you sure you wanted to hear from me? LOL I guess things are not that bad in the overall, its just some days are frustrating more than others. I just long and miss the weight dropping off days. I've been trying the past few weeks to get back to the gym. I'll manage to get there once a week and per usual the past year or so, I get there and I"m like why don't I keep doing this, I enjoy it! But after a long day at work, and especially with it dark so early, I just don't get movtivated to get there. So the back to the gym plan goes out the window. I think that would make the difference, like I said I'm not eating terribly, just no exercise does not help. Otherwise life is great. DH is the most wonderful man in the world, I'm going to school, great job, my nephew is home and out of the Army finally YES!!! He got home last Sunday and is home now and no going back after the holidays, so surely something to celebrate this year. I am so proud of him and love him so much. and did I mention he is so very handsome. He spent so much time with us when he was small, his mother would have to call to see if he was coming home for a visit. LOL He is home now and will start to school in January. Thank you to those of you who sent me Christmas cards. I did get a few out, just trying to get through the busy days I've had lately. I hope everyone had a great holiday. I have a long weekend, but so much going on it won't be any type of time off / rest! As I'm sure it will be for most. Keep posting, I'm still here and reading. Thanks for all the inspiration, though I must need some inspiration and a kick in the butt. That's it for now on this post. Take care.

Sheryl, It shoulds like you are doing great, Thanks for the update and good luck with your upcoming surgeries. Happy holidays, Rick

Ouch I hope she recovers comfortably and quickly. At least she is getting this done during the winter time, so she can be fully recovered and active when Spring comes around Thanks for notifying us of her surgery! I will keep her in my thoughts.