What is wrong with me?

I am ashamed of myself. I can't believe the way I've been eating the past few weeks. M&M's are no longer taboo. High fat foods, etc. I am no longer dumping from the bad stuff I used to. My gosh, the price I've paid, the pain I've endured the past 6 months to achieve a 105 lb. weight loss. It's not as if it's just melted off. So, why am I doing this to myself. It's sabotage. I so want to succeed, but have been making the wrong choices. Is anyone else on the same page or am I just a loser in the BAD sense of the word? (Thanks for listening to my pity party) Stacey

I am on the same bandwagon as you. I have done really well but lately I have been snatching a fun size candy bar out of co-workers bowl and I don't understand why I am doing this. I don't understand why we seem to want to hinder our progress. I knew I should have never had just one bite because I know my weaknesses. Do you think we are feeling deprived. If anyone can get our minds re-focused please help.

Gosh Patti, thank you so much for replying. I'm glad I'm not alone. I feel a little bit deprived myself, but the knowledge of Pouch do's and don'ts doesn't seem to be helping me. Looking forward to more responses... Stacey

I can relate too! Since finding out from my surgeon that there is nothing he can do to fix my broken tool, I've been sneaking peanut m&m's. Of course I rationalize and justify that they have protein in the nuts! Yep, I'm self sabatoging, but I'll admit it. I am still working out like a nut tho! you are not alone....

Thanks Amy. It's comforting to know I'm not alone. I'm curious about your broken tool. Is it really physically not working or are you not working it? I know it's hard when you TRY sooo hard to be successful. Hugs, Stacey

Im right there with you Stacey, I have been eating cookies when I know I shouldnt, having bread. Too many carbs. It is driving me nuts. I feel depressed. I lost my job last week to downsizing. I felt fat today for the first time in forever. I have got to get out of this damn funk soon. This is ridiculous. You are not alone my friend! Michelle

Thanks Michelle! We can drown our sorrows together and then kick our butts for it! Let's make a pact to stay on track. Thanks for relating. Stacey

I feel the same way! Im eating things that I know I shouldn't, I have only lost 10 lbs in the last 3 months. I hope I dont become one of those that gains their weight back!! And like you all, I know what I should be doing but do you think I can kick this in gear! I dont want to sabotage my own progress either!! HELP!! Nancy

Awww Nancy, I know where you're coming from. The biggest incentive of all to follow the program is see the numbers racing downhill! When that doesn't happen, sometime we (I know I do) develop the "what the heck" attitude. Cheers to getting back on track, surgery friend! Stacey

Hi all, I have also been trying "new" old foods. I don't eat regular candy since I am very sugar sensitive but those sugar free russel stover candies can get me! I just try to have one piece a day. I have eaten the potatoe chips and have stopped buying the big bags now just the single serving and that seemed to curb my eating them. I get to wanting them really badly when it is going to be that time of month! What I have started doing differently is buying different types and flavors of proteins. I guess I was bored and wanted a different taste. I have made so many mixtures with coffee and chocolate no added sugar swiss miss with flavored syrups and a protein scoop of ids cappuccino or belgian chocolate. Yummy. I have always been a sweet freak and that is why I allow myself the sugar free chocolate once a day. I figure that it is better to get my chocolate once a day than eat the whole dang bag! What do you all think? I must admit I too try the bread, I don't eat it all I take a bite and that is it. I will start making my own bread in my machine and since it is heavier and protein filled maybe it will be better and take the bread craving away. So far I have stayed away from the pastas and rice. That is huge in my life I used to make rice almost everyday and now I can do without it! Yay! I know we all falter at some point but don't get depressed over it just keep on going make a better choice next time and try to get something else in the place of the bad stuff. See I love cake and cookies, now I make them with oat flour or instead of white flour and I add protein to everything, my puddings etc... I don't deprive myself of eating sweets but I try to find a way that I can make it that is pouch friendly that way I can have my little bit of heaven and not stray too far if at all. My thinking may be way off here and if it is please give me a good shake! I don't want to sabotage myself or my Husband. We both can be very bad if I don't have alternate foods around! Sorry this got so long just wanted to say I am right there with you all and I feel the pain of the scale moving up and down. Margie 289/188.5/135ish??