Brain fog and having a meltdown

I called the docs office today because I am having the worst brain fog. It's almost scarey to drive. I can't think straight. My attention span is zilch. My eyes and my brain don't seem to be connected. It almost feels like small electronic charges are going through my brain. I feel terrible. Can't stop crying. Nurse said it's hormonal and will usually be gone after about 2 months. All these hormones that were stored in my fat cells are just floating around. I'm at 5 weeks now and have happily lose 36 lbs. This is easily the most difficult part of the road for me. Waiting for surgery was hard, having the surgery was painful, but this is almost unbearable! I don't feel like going to work. Nurse says to try to keep truckin through it. All I want to do is close my eyes and go to sleep. Aargh!!!! Heidi

Heidi--First off, let me just say that I can relate. I actually left work early today because I was so embarrassed I was getting sick in the ladies room. I know that there was a post earlier that talks about the emotional roller coaster--so many of us are going through the same thing. My heart goes out to you that you are having such a rough time. I don't know about you, but I never expected the emotional aspect of this to be this hard! But, this is a challenge and we have to keep looking ahead. I know that I am tired of the word "eventually", but "eventually" this will get better. We just have to make it that far! As far as getting over this hump, I don't have many words of advice. I know that sleep is a good thing--it does usually make me feel better. I also know that staying hydrated is a plus all around. I've found that sometimes, I just have to let myself cry. However, I have actually found that walking helps my mood--it also helps me digest and all the other good "crap" that goes along with it. I know everyone is going to throw words of encouragement your way and sometimes it's just nice to hear, "You are right. This DOES suck. Soooooooooo. You're right. This DOES suck. We'll get through it. We've taken our life back and we are on the right road--a road that obviously has tons of mountains and pot holes. Thinking of ya! Courtney

Thank you Courtney. Just reading your post makes me teary eyed. I must be so unstable right now. I cancelled all my students this afternoon, so I don't have to go to work. I'm just going to take care of myself and get some rest. Can't do this everyday. Lord help me if it keeps up this badly. I'll go broke. Another worry I don't need right now. Hugggs, Heidi

Hi Heidi! Boy can I relate! I know that Courtney responded to my "emotional roller coaster" yesterday. I happy to say that I'm having a MUCH better day today. I finally feel like I have my head together and not a walking zombie like I've been. Courtney's right when she says "it SUCKS!" It truly does. I felt like I was doing so well, and then I got zapped by the crazy stick! I've been just trying to go with the flow. If it means crying....I'm just trying to cry my heart out to get it all out. I don't think I could have taken another day of it. I also think that I just had too much time on my hands over the weekend, which definitely made matters worse. Hang in there Heidi. We're in the same boat together....whether we have rough waters or smooth, I'm here to support you as well. I wouldn't know what to do without this board. Take care and know that you are in my thoughts and prayers - Sue

Thank you so much Sue. I'm so glad you're feeling better. I know I will feel better at some point, there just seems to be no relief. I've really felt encouraged talking to the board, because there is no one here who would understand. Heidi

you may want to have your b-12 and iron levels checked, a deficiency can do that kind of thing to you. i'm going to the doc in the morning b/c i've felt incredibly fatigued for the past few days, a co-worker (registered nurse, even) was commenting about how pale i was, and that she worried i might be anemic. i fell asleep at my desk this afternoon, which was a big red flag in my book. considering that i've been on my period for the past 2 weeks, that might be the problem. i've been taking iron and sublingual b-12 supplements but they may not be enough with all the blood loss. not trying to worry you--it might just be my hormones as well--but it's better to be safe than sorry. michelle

Thank you for that. I just had my first blood test and all was fine. I hope you can get everything under control. You must be so worn out to fall asleep at work. Just think what we've put our bodies through, and we expect them to behave the same way. Ah, patience. Heidi

You are so not alone!! I went for a follow up visit today and I'm the same weight I was 10 days ago. I have had "morning sickness" every one of those 10 days and it turns out my metabolism is shutting down because I'm not eating enough to make it kick in!!! I want to cry as well. We're trying adding Prevacid at night and I'm not to go quite so long without food. I guess this whole trip is trial and error. I don't have the totally foggy feeling, but I know I can't concentrate for very long. I agree with the others that this is the hardest part. I was not prepared for the emotional part of this, even though I thought I was. I just keep trying to count up the plusses (e.g., I no longer take diabetes meds). Cheryl

Trial and Error. You said it. Heidi

Hi Heidi, I just posted to this reply from Cheryl to you but also wanted you to know that you are not alone in how you are feeling. I haven't actually sat and cried but feel like I want to. The slightest little problem is like a hugh mountain to me these days. All I want to do is sleep. Felt better the first three weeks than I do now. Hang in there and we will get thru all this together. Ya have to figure that with so many of us feeling this way and all of us so close in surgery dates that it is normal??? Let it pass quickly!