4 days out and i don't know if i'd do it again???

i had the gastric bysurgery on wedneday morning and got home on saturday, today i sunday and i'm just starting to feel ok, my husband was ready to take me back to the hospital, i am trying trying to be positive, sometimes, i get sad, sometimes i'm ok, just a bunch of mixed reactions......mostly"like what did i do". anyway,i had a complication when the surgeon was checking for leaks at the end of surgery time, he blew too much air in my pouch and it ripped twice, so my hour and 10 min. surgery lasted about 4 hours. and an extra day in the hospital....but i do feel much better tonight!! i even thought about food....but not really hungry... the pain meds have given me horrible nightmares, so i'm hoping to cut back on that tonight...other than that, i can't wait to eat again, i already am tired of the protein drinks!!! anyway, just wanted to update you guys..... thanks for you prayers and concers, alisa

goodness, i hope you feel better soon!! i'm so sorry you're having things so rough, but i hope your regrets will pass. i had surgery on thursday and came home saturday, i didn't have any complications though. i did have a "what did i do to myself??" moment the night after my surgery, so i know how you feel. the nurses were busy and didn't help me get out of bed and move the whole day, so gas was just building up and i hadn't had any pain meds in hours. i woke up in so much pain i thought i was dying, and my nurse call button fell off the bed and i couldn't get to it. i cried and cried (which made it hurt worse!) but couldn't be loud enough to get anyone's attention, it was horrible. but i figured out the next day that if i got up and moved around after they gave me the pain meds, it helped get the gas out and i felt a lot better when they wore off and eventually didn't need them. i've only taken them a couple times since i've been home. if you had lap, a lot of the pain is probably the gas. just try to move around (at your own pace of course, you're probably hurting a lot more since you had complications) and you'll be surprised how much better you'll feel. ::::hugs:::: michelle lap RNY 3/31/05 277/270/137

Hi Alisa. I had open RNY on March 30 to. And came home the same day to. I have had the same kind up up and down emotions you have. The psychologist I saw prior to the surgery for my eval told me that most patients to have these emotions. And that sometimes they get worse because you have taken away a good friend "FOOD" your in pain, you dont feel yourself and your serotine levels are decreasing because your not eating carbs. She said this will level out, but you might want to talk to your DR. about anti depression medicine. I take Lexapro and it helps alot. I was off it while in the hospital and I would just cry for no reason. I started it back up on saterday when I got home and am already filling better. It's a hard road we choose to travel having this surgery, but you can do it. You have made it through the toughest part. The approval and surgery are over, now we just have to learn how to deal with our emotions and not let them influence our food choices. Dont let food control you again, remember it's there for nuritment not COMFORT. But you are not alone. I struggle with the same issues daily. Hang in there. HUGS, Jodi

Alisa, I sure hope things start looking better for you very soon. Believe me, It really does get better. I had my surgery on 3/22. It was laproscopic RNY. By the next day, I was starting to feel good and the doctor's were going to let me go home. By that night, I was having horrible pain in my stomach. My surgeon thought it best to go in laproscopically again to see what the problem was. I woke up to find out he had to open me completely up and that I had been bleeding internally and had a stomach full of blood clots. My two day stay in the hospital turned into 9 days. By day seven, I was miserable, I regretted the surgery. Everything had seemed like a huge mistake and I was angry, sad, and mad all at the same time. I went home from the hospital a week ago and already I am getting around fine. I went back to work and although there is some pain, it's not really that bad. I've lost 16 pounds just since I got home and that regret I had is starting to fade. So all I can say is give it some time. Before you know it, you are gonna be happy and glad!! Kerri ;)