11 days to go and I am Scared!!!!!!!!!!

My surgery is on March 30th and as it gets closer I am riding the rollercoaster of emotions. One minute I am excited about the changes that will be happening to my body and the next I am sure I am going to die from the anestesia. I also am experiencing some angina which seems to happen when I get stressed and guess what I am. I have had a couple of Nuclear treadmill tests and they always come back fine but chest pain scares the crap out of you whenever you have it. Sometimes I think I anoy my Primary Doc when I go to him about this he keeps telling me I will not die from it but it is irretating and nothing can be done other than the medication I currently take. I am afraid to go back to the cardioligist as it takes 3 weeks for an appointment and he will probably cancel my gastric bypass in the mean time to tell me everything is as it always is. I know the wieght once it comes off will make my heart work better as nothing is really wrong with it just to fat for it to work perfectly. Well I hope the good lord looks out for me during surgery because no matter what I am going to do it even if it means possibly death anything is better than being fat with sleap apnea, irregualr heart beat, arthritis in hips and knees, edema, etc......I have not had a healthy day in the past 5 years hopefully that will change with the bypass.

Don't be scared. Whenever there is an operation, I always have a fear of the anesthesia too because you just never know. However, I figured that if it was my time to go, so be it, but God wouldn't get me this far just to kill me in the operation! The anesthesiologist that will be with you in surgery is used to working with obese patients and will know your weight and EXACTLY how much anesthesia to give you. Having GBS will CHANGE YOUR LIFE!! I am 10-days post-op and feel better than I've felt in years. I have lost 23 lbs and I have A LOT more to go, but I feel great! Clothes are looser and I have SO MUCH ENERGY!! If I didn't see the pouch itself at the leak test post-op, I wouldn't believe that I had it because I feel so great. Granted, I'm never hungry, so I know I've had surgery!! LOL The good Lord WILL be looking out for you during surgery and we are rooting for you 100%! You should spend these next 11 days being EXCITED about the new chapter of your life beginning! What you have worked for so hard these last few months in getting ready for surgery is about to pay off!!! BE EXCITED!!!

Hi Joel!!! Imagine how i feel.. I have 5 days to go!!!! Listen... YOU'LL BE FINE!!!! YOU'LL BE BETTER!!!! GO FOR IT Vivian

Joel, I know exactly how you feel. I think it's only natural to feel apprehensive or scared. Just to remind you ... there will be so many positive changes after the surgery that you will probably wonder why you waited as long as you did to have the surgery. At least that is what I'm seeing written by the people whos profile I have read and the people I have talked with. Remember to keep the faith!! Good luck on your upcoming surgery date. My date is the 29th! Carla

Joel, You will be fine. I have just 3days to go and you know what I say BRING IT ON!!!! I had all the feelings that you are having but I have met and talked to so many people that I am just fine with everything!! My Mother had wls OPEN over 3 years ago and before that she had Open Heart surgery (quad bypass of her heart) and WLS saved her Life. Just think next month you will be posting here on O H to someone that feels the same way you do right now. You take care. We all will be OK. I wish you a most peaceful and blessed day. CHER

I know what you are going thru because I am going thru the same thing. My surgery is scheduled for the 28th and one minute I am flying on cloud nine and the next I am just scared to death and wondering if I am crazy for even thinking about doing this. I just pray and hope everything is going to be ok. And I have weighed all the benefits against my fears and the benefits out weigh the fears by a long shot. You will be in my prays just as everyone else getting ready for the surgery. God belss us all. Lyndia

Hang in there, Joel. When I finally went into the OR, I was as calm as could be. I have had a near textbook experience postop (a little incision issue, nothing serious) and feel great! Sometimes I have to pinch myself--I can't believe I DID IT!!!! Good luck!

I'm scheduled for March 30th too. My mindset is that yeah...I'm apprehensive. But I made an informed decision...I did my homework, I weighed the pro's and cons, and my decision was to have WLS. There's not much left to rehash over and over again in my mind. Maybe if I wasn't sure I made the right choice, I might be really scared. I dunno. Good luck with your surgery and weight loss!

hello, my surgery date is also on the 30th....we need to be positive, and stand strong together~~~ i too, have had bits of anixeity but i know this is something that i need to do. I know that God will be with you during your surgery and if you have faith in him it will go smoothly and calmly!!! lets stay in touch and check on each other......hang in there!! alisa~

Joel, Just remember that you are not alone and we are all praying for you. My date is the 28th and I'm so excited I can hardley stand it, but even I have my nervous moments. Reading the messages here and having all this support has really helped my anxiety. God bless and keep you! Billie