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God has given me this day to use as I will. I can waste it or use it for good. Today is very imporant, because I'm exchaning a day of my life for it.
God has given me this day to use as I will. I can waste it or use it for good. Today is very imporant, because I'm exchaning a day of my life for it.
i remember them saying it was something we needed to watch for the new additons. do you remember that reenie? at our suppoort group meetingts?
i'm typing fast cause i'm late for work so please excuse the errors.
i kne wto expect posible new addictions to shoppuing, sex, drinking, that kind of thing cause the food one was gone (after surgery) but now it seems like i don't have those additons the one i worry about is laxatives!!!!! No i've not used any since i had gotten so ill but theres not a day that goes by that i dont think about it!!!!
so while i might look at the huffing as being different so is the stupid laxatives!
I guess my question is could the huffing be an addiction as the laxatives?
its wonderful to see you here again!!!!!!!!
yeah 6 years.. and I'm still fat. 'sigh'. i know i should be thankfull of the 115 pound loss and I am really...I've kept that off but still... to get the rest off... 'sigh' so hard. Its good to see you again as well!!! anytime Im MIA shoot me an email anytime :) I also check my facebook email... but i havent been on there that much..the keyboard on my laptop at home is broken. I can only type with an on-screen keyboard and i have to click on each letter with my mouse. Takes forever just to say hello!!!!
It's been a long time since I've been on here. I just wanted to stop in and say hello. Happy New Year to you all. I'm hoping this New Year will be better than my last. Things have been going ok. Not so great since November. Had a miscarriage back in Nov and then was in and out of the hospital with pain and temperatures. Had an infection, then an enlarged intestine, anemic etc... but finally got better by the end of Christmas.
I still suffer from strange addiction to strong chemical smells, car exhaust, gasoline, markers, paint all the terrible and dangerous stuff. Its an awful feeling and the anxiety it creates is terrilbe. It's like struggling with a huffing addiction (have to fight so hard not to huff!!!) sometimes I slip. It's not the high its the SMELL!!! It literally will make my mouth water...the need to SMELL its scent gives me this terrible anxiety in my chest. So bizzare!!! I talked to my doctors till I"m blue in the face and they are perplexed. This all started 2 years ago when I was pregnant with my little girl. They said it was PICA, but the symptoms never left. I've read up on it on the internet, but not much is known about the exact cause. Definite mineral deficiency of some sort. Although I think it is more than an iron deficiency. Some think its a combination of minerals...zinc being the most predominant to cause those sort of cravings... and copper deficiency. Maybe I should just suck on pennies all day. LOL... 'sigh' it's very scary and frustrating. I'm taking prescription Vitamin D which my doc says she'll probably keep me on it forever. She is seeing more and more of her female patients (even ones who have not had wls) are deficient in D! and even on the over the counter supplements for D she said her patients are still showing D deficiencies. I am also on prescription B12. it's a nose spray that I take once a week. Its weird snorting B12. It's pink and fruity! lol... I take 2 iron pills a day... then will take one next week a day then 2 the following week each day... My doc decided to try that process to see if my iron will go up by doubling up every other week each day.
Weight...well still struggling there. haven't gotten it off, but been depressed and havent exercised and dieted much. I'm feeling better though so I started my protein shakes today. I think that will also help with the mineral deficienies as well. I usually always feel better when I do my protein shakes.
I hope everyone is doing well, its always a struggle for us all...but as long as we hang in there and support each other once in awhile or even just check in...every bit helps :) ((Hugs everyone!))
Elizabeth M
Connie!!!
So glad to see you!... I'm speechless as well...
had to take a moment ... I'm soooooo sorry!!! My God in heaven what you are going through woman! It's just not fair all this mess is happening to such an awesome person. You're so lively and full of life inside. You always sparkle and make us all smile when you here. Darnit you should be enjoying life and your new bod and running around having a ball to match your wonderful personality. It's just not fair! God willing...I'm praying over and over that all this will pass and you will start to heal!! The blackouts sound sooo scary Connie, I couldn't imagine how you felt afterwards, talk about terrifying!! I'm constantly fighting anemia as well, but luckily it hasn't been too dangerously low lately. I do know that I have other mineral deficiencies. I am still having bizzare unnatural cravings for gasoline fumes, markers, paint...anything with a strong chemical scent. Its like being addicted to drugs. The anxiety I have for the need to smell these things is terrible. I've talked to my doc about it and she thought it was iron...but I've been taking my supplements and still have the terrible cravings. I read a little more and have heard its probably more a combination of deficiencies, zinc, iron, b12, d... which I am deficient in all the above, but not as bad as I was before since I'm on prescription supplements for like...forever my doc says. No one mentions that this surgery could cause not only a deficiency but a need to take medically prescribed amts of vitamins for probably the remainder of our lives. Gosh but my issues so pale in comparison to what you are going through. I'm so glad your surgery has helped and that you can feel again w/your hands. Hopefully those docs will eventually get you better! Hang in there and get lots of rest and know we are all praying for you. Love and Hugs!!!
Elizabeth M