I love chese and grapes, but I haven't been eating them lately.  :(  I try to stick with the food my coop gets and they haven't had grapes in a while.  As for cheese...  my diastolic blood pressure is really up.  We can't figure it out, but Doc thinks it is tied to salt intake.  I don't think so because I never salt my food, but I'm cutting out everything that has salt in it, just in case, and cheese is high in salt.  Dang!

Keep up the good work Pammie.  Baby steps.

I dont really have any comment...just know Ill be thinking of you and YOU CAN DO THIS!!!

Of course, we've been at this long enough that we all know this is true - it starts in the head. I need to be accountable for what I eat, instead of feeling negative feelings about it - doesn't lead me anywhere except to eat more of the wrong foods so that those negative feelings grow stronger. I need to get accountable. And I need to get off sugar. These are my only goals right now. Accountability. Sugar-free Me. So, starting tomorrow I am going to post to this Board every single thing that I eat, no matter what, no matter how insignificant. I invite you to join me, if there is anyone that would benefit from doing this as well. In the meantime, I have to tell you a Laela (my horse) story. So, I bought a new saddle and it keeps compressing in the panels just under the pommel. The saddle fitter has had to come out two times in 3 weeks to add more flocking. As she was finishing up last night, we were talking about why this is happening and I said, "Is it because there's too much weight (me) in the saddle? Am I too heavy?" I really meant the question. She looked at me and said, "Uh, no that could not possibly be the reason. You are not heavy at all." Why then, my dear friends, do I FEEL as if I am morbidly obese again? Now, Patty (the saddle fitter) doesn't know my history - of course not, I acquired Laela after I had lost the weight. She doesn't know me other than how I look now - holding steady between 160-165. But I FEEL really fat. It's the mind! It's the mind. The psyche. My psyche will be what it has always been for the rest of my life - but I can THINK differently. This tiny little interaction with my saddle fitter was a reality check for me - now today, the college where I work was closed because of snow - ah, blessed snow! So I went to the barn at 7am to ride Laela - before the snow hit. God, it was so peaceful! Just the two of us in the indoor arena and I had the best ride I've ever had on her! I felt lighter. In fact, I concentrated on riding her lightly, I stayed aware of the tension in my body and as I felt it in different places (shoulders, neck, thighs, calves, hands...) I released it, I let it go - and Laela moved more freely under me, with great energy but as light as a feather - she fed off of my energy! And my energy was light  - it was just so remarkable. No struggle, no fighting each other, just a communal lightness of being. I just had to share this because it was a remarkable feeling for me. And it all happened because I changed my thinking ... ok, I'll shut up. I just had to share. I'll stop in tomorrow with my eating log - and it would be so wonderful if someone would join me. Your Reenie

How bout a deep shimmering pink? I hope you have a wonderful time it sound like alot of fun...and please post pics Ide love to see you in your dress, Ill bet you'll be the bell of the ball :)

i bought two new dresses and can't decide which one to wear on valentines day!!! both are very cute.
now thye aren't the size 10 i was wearing when i was my skinny bad ass. hehehe but they are a size 14. they fit nicely. because i'm tall and i am distributed evenly i don't look as heavy as i think i am.
one of the dresses has a high waist black on the bottom with a bright bllue lacy top.  it is belted very slimming. i think i'd be able to dance well in it. the down side is you can see (barely) my little tatto. got that when i turned 42 during the divorce. felt like such a rebel. hhehe i often forget it is there until i have a docs appointment or wear something alittle low that dips so someone sees and comments. i do not fit the picture of having tattos i look like a libraian. a fun one but still a libraian.
the other dress is a V neck not too low in a pretty navy print with a pretty bright green it is fitted and flows at the bottom a nice dress to swing dance in.
my boyfriend and i are going to a valentines dinner dance.
i'm coloring my hair thursday night getting the nails done friday and a pedi on saturday!
i'm looking forward to the dance we've not gone dancing in a while. we can't find anywhere that isn't filled with 21 year olds. while thats not a bad thing they don't always play the oldies we like.now im a beyonce fan and love to dance to her the boyfriend likes rock and roll thats good too again just haven't found aplace we can hang yet.
we use to go to one place that was alot of fun but they stopped having dj's and bands.
i think the black bottom blue top dress is going to win the valentines day dinner dance dress pic i like it best. i'll save the other for another time.
i love shopping. i love it best when i find something pretty that makes me feel thin. shopping is still alot of fun now that i can go into stores and find something off the rack usually.
i'm working at getting back to that smaller size and i will do it!
cause i am strong and tough! HAHAHA
sometimes i am.....
once a year at least.....
ok so i think aobut it!
gotta find some heels that i can dance in!
what color nails my friends???