Love ya Reenie!!!

I always, always mean well - and when you're hurting, I'm hurting; same goes for everyone here. And I know you're hurting right now, really badly. So I'm not going to take anything you're thinking or feeling about me personally. I just want you to know that I care and I wish there was something I could do. Your last post was answered, Margo, by people *****ally care about you. I've been where you are - as recently as two nights ago - sitting at my kitchen table talking quietly to my husband about just feeling like I am done, just done, used up, nothing left. I bounce back and forth - but I keep getting up, some days a little slower than others ... all we can do here is offer our support to each other. There is real depression on this board that needs serious attention. It scares me. Maureen

isnt this GLOBAL WARMING according to Gore? being sarcastic again here.....

I went to the barn to ride last night and couldn't even muster the strength to pull on the riding boots - so I stood next to my horse in her stall and with chattering teeth, just patted and stroked her and listened to her munch on her hay (horses get su*****redible satisfaction from eating!) and watched the steam blow through her nostrils... ah, I hate the cold! The chill goes through my bones and settles there so that I can't even move! Not so five years ago when I'd venture out in blizzards with nothing more than a 5X sweatshirt and people would stare and the gutsy ones would ask, "Where's your coat?" and I'd say with mock cheerfulness, "Ah, I'm built like a Polar Bear!!" But here I was, next to this beautiful creature who on warmer days stands patiently while I settle this still foreign, relatively fit and strong body into the saddle that sits on her back ... such a miracle. And despite my demons, I'm working hard - dammit, I'm working really, really hard to hold onto the miracle. I want the same for all my Marcher friends and family. Thinking warm thoughts and wishes for you and all who visit here - Maureen

I agree....