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(((( Margo ))))
Hugs, Mo
Comparison is the thief of joy!
If we spend our time comparing our life/weight loss/body to others, we totally miss what WE have accomplished. Keep in mind how far you have come and what you can do now that you couldn't do weeks/months/years ago. I hate the expression " It's all good", but in this case it fits! Wherever you are in your journey ... It's ALL good!!!
I too know HOW to be compliant .. and I have the extra added bonus of the restriction of my esophageal stricture, yet I continually eat around it! I knew the 'right'answers for the pscych exam and sold myself as one who understood what the whole thing meant and that I was ready for it.
For me WLS was the difference between life and becoming a miserable hermit. I am not happy with the weight gain, but I am still involved in life and doing things that I wasn't doing before and I am determined to catch this thing and at least stop it even if I can't lose the weight I've gained.
Hang in there with me please and we will all support each other.
Hugs, Mo
Comparison is the thief of joy!
If we spend our time comparing our life/weight loss/body to others, we totally miss what WE have accomplished. Keep in mind how far you have come and what you can do now that you couldn't do weeks/months/years ago. I hate the expression " It's all good", but in this case it fits! Wherever you are in your journey ... It's ALL good!!!
Hugs, Mo
Comparison is the thief of joy!
If we spend our time comparing our life/weight loss/body to others, we totally miss what WE have accomplished. Keep in mind how far you have come and what you can do now that you couldn't do weeks/months/years ago. I hate the expression " It's all good", but in this case it fits! Wherever you are in your journey ... It's ALL good!!!
Good to see you . I truly appreciate your honesty about the alcohol and cross addiction.
Best wishes for continued recovery.
Hugs, Mo
Comparison is the thief of joy!
If we spend our time comparing our life/weight loss/body to others, we totally miss what WE have accomplished. Keep in mind how far you have come and what you can do now that you couldn't do weeks/months/years ago. I hate the expression " It's all good", but in this case it fits! Wherever you are in your journey ... It's ALL good!!!
it's interesting that you mention your "will to be non compliant'--i think you are my sister from another mother!!! my psyche exam was a joke-and i know HOW to be compliant--i just balk at it-and test the waters --and i am one who can eat a great deal-quantity- at one sitting--my doc actually told me after my surgery that he left my pouch a bit bigger cuz i was a lightweight-gee thanks !!!!!!!!!!! set me up for failure....
i am thinking that while you are not happy where you are- you are accepting the 16's so as not to beat yourself up and possibly go higher....???????? am i on to something ????
struggling right along with you...............
hugs!!!
I get up every morning determined to both change the world and have one hell of a good time. Sometimes this makes planning my day difficult.
- E. B. White
I get up every morning determined to both change the world and have one hell of a good time. Sometimes this makes planning my day difficult.
- E. B. White
I get up every morning determined to both change the world and have one hell of a good time. Sometimes this makes planning my day difficult.
- E. B. White
I get up every morning determined to both change the world and have one hell of a good time. Sometimes this makes planning my day difficult.
- E. B. White
i have to address something that was said in response to my post last week- michael will NEVER go back to work in any meaningful capacity since his fall of 3-06-06....he is receiving medicare-and we pay a big penny for it --med A is nothing but med B and D (drugs) costs!!!! and anyone telling you that medicare is a piece of cake has never struggled thru the forms and the regulations and etc!!! it IS NOT user friendly and it IS NOT designed to protect the senior citizens--a senior citizen needs an advocate to get thru much of the crap....
i am frightened to death for us when we hit 65 and 70--i have to work til 72 to get anything form Soc Sec worth getting-and that won't be much...and there is no 401k for eaither of us-had to live on them after he fell-nothing in savings no nothing--just whatever is in my purse right now and that isn't much...and my blood plasma every week-is sketchy if i can do it each time- my iron and protein go up and down so i can't even rely on that ....
we make $500 too much each month for food stamps- so-do i quit my job and stay home? no- not an option- my job -tho it is $273 take home every two weeks- at least makes my monthly car payment... i have no health insurance -am praying that can change soon! and i pray daily not to get sick....
we make too much money for help with heat and electricity too-- yet we do not make enough to pay all of our bills every month so i play games as to who gets paid and who doesn't and soemtimes i miss a space and forget to pay something and something gets shut off..ouch!!!
sorry- i am just at the end of the rope- i have been struggling to hold it together since he got sick in april of 2005--keep thinking it will get better and it just isn't improving--i was at 150 # then- successful at wls in my docs' eyes- had lost 83#---now after my regain of 33 # i am sitting at 179-180 and i cannot get my head wrapped around what is needed to get it off- i am not healthy as i should be and i really am so tired of struggling with what i can and cannot eat....i question each and every decision i make about anything in life and i just am so tired...
i know- i am not alone-and i know that many of us on this board are struggling with some of the same demons...and there are many many folks who have it a lot harder than we do---i stood in a food handout line a few saturdays ago--hadn't done that since the early 1980's when i had to to feed my 3 children - their steelworker father was laid off for 2+ years and then on lockout... it was degrading to do it then and it is still degrading however we had to do it and i am so grateful that we could.....michael remembers when he used to carry 3400 CASH in his boot wallet-now he has a $2 bill that he refuses to break and that is it--unless i give him a dollar for something-sad state....
sorry- i have turned this into more of a pity party --
you are right-mo's post deserves more- one thing is that she is coming to grips with where she is -and so that is a positive step----
i'm sorry- i just have so much built up inside and i really am afraid to let it out cuz it ain't all pretty!!!! some of the folks out here are not living in the real world- their own worlds are not what they wish- they are struggling but they just don't see what marilyn and i are going thru....i just thank God that my kids are no longer little- tho they have their own struggles- my youngest just turned his house back to the bank-walked away from his mortgage and we are all struggling with that....the eldest has 3 daughters to raise and cannot get a decent job to save his soul....
do you know that mc donald's starts their closing shift ppl out at more than i make right now???that sucks--and i cannot work at mcd's--cannot-long story-not going there now-- i would work at a gas station if one would hire me tho!!!!!!!!!!!!
ok- sorry--reenie- thank you for trying to understand....i know that you want to--but i don't think you really do....you haven't walked in my shoes completely-and i don't expect you to....this is not personal and i pray that you don't take it that way....
as to what you can do-continue caring-about me and mo and lizbet and kim and connie and mikey and pammie and judy and joanie and dawg and dina everyone--i am sure i left someone out-sorry! and stay outta the m & m's!!!! just be you -
I get up every morning determined to both change the world and have one hell of a good time. Sometimes this makes planning my day difficult.
- E. B. White
and teh expectations of surgery...whoa! let's not go there today!!!! you are not alone!
I get up every morning determined to both change the world and have one hell of a good time. Sometimes this makes planning my day difficult.
- E. B. White
