Ae Nic, I'm so sorry that you have to go through the holidays without your mom.  That is so rough and I can't imagine how much you must still hurt.  I'm glad that you went to listen to your son play.  The kids need you and I bet your son was proud to have you there.

Big Hugs to you!
Connie

it has been an interesting evening.
anyone who haas read my past few postings kniows that ive not been feeling well for a few weeks.
the man i've been seeing for almost a year has had a hard time dealing with it. i have no energy right now. i have to use it for work which pays my bills. so when we go out i' mnot the ball of energy that i was before.
since dancing boosts my adreniline and causes one of my low blood sugar episodes i'm avoiding it until this is under better control so thats boring for him. Like its alot of fun for me!
last weekend was thanksgiving and i was out of state so he was feeling alittle let out because he chose not to go to his daughters house for thankgiving he chose to stay home adn feel sorry for himself because he wasn't anywhere specail for the holiday. we've not been going out long enough to take someone to my mothers house that is 3 states away.
did i mention that we are not teenagers but in our 50's???
so the man has been feeling sorry forhimself that his girlfreind isn' t feeling well and not givin ghimj the attention he feels he deserves.
ut oh i'm starting to get pissed.
by friday nights i'm very tired because of working all week. this is my busy season at work. but we hadn't gotten together for a couple of weeks because of the holiday and i was feeling badly about that. so he came up and we went to the movies. when we came back to my place we sat and talked for alittle bit and i fell asleep. it was after 10pm that was alot later than i've been staying away over the past few weeks! but he was feeling that i was ignoring him.
ut oh i'm getting really pissed now.
what about me?
i'm not well right now!
i do believe that i am lucky. if the man has brokenj up with me ok. if not i think i shall be finsihing it.
so now that i am pissed my adreniline has flown the coop and i'm feelig nasty. geesh!
i am so lucky to have found out this side of him before we got into this even more.

with my happy thanksgiving wishes but none the less here they are!
I hope this holiday season brings you peace and joy in what ever form you need it the most.
We did ok with the day, I was great until that day.... THEN... EVIL...I whipped my family into cleaning machines and we cleaned the house from about 9:30 til we left for my sister's house at 1:30...
Friday I did a little shopping both kids needed new winter coats.
Saturday I was really weepy and just struggled all day long, by Sunday, I wasn't even going to go to church but my son was playing his clarinet as a solo and he asked me why  I wasn't dressed.SO I went and he did a great job and I was glad I went but I came home and went to bed... I was in bed at 2 pm and didn't get up again til Monday morning at 6...
basically that has been my coping mechanism...deal til you are exhausted and them sleep...

nic

I've gained . but holding steady and have hopes of losing the pounds I have gained!

It's good to have you back online.  I am glad you're feeling some better - take care of yourself.  Judy