CALL TO MARCHERS!

HELLO all!
hope all of you are well.
if any are reading i'd love to hear how you all are. just a one line doing good or bad or indifferent would be great,
i'm sure most of you like myself are curious. i've not checked into our forum for many months due to computer issues plus gall bladder and many other life things.
so how are you all?
my stats
weight at surgery 300ish
lowest weight after 156
weight maintained the longest 167
current weight 178
smallest size after weight loss - i got down to a 6 omg i loved that!
size now 14 arggggg i hate writting that! if i worked out more the size would be lower. i hadn't worked out in over a year. i'm back to it now for one month.
i had gained some weight back and had gotten up to 185 that was very depressing but this last year i worked through health issues - major low blood sugar, now under control with diet and excersize, gall bladder surgery
i feel pretty good but would like to get up off my butt and excersize more.
right now i walk minimum 20 minutes a day. ive read how if women my age do that they will see a change in weight and clothing without changing any of their diet. hey i figure it can't hurt!
all in all i feel good.
i remind myself every day that i am no longer 300 pounds. that while i am alittle over weight i am still normal sized. i meet peolple every day who did not know me as the big pam they do not know i had surgery. its been so long since then that i forget myself sometimes! so why tell the story? if weight comes up i do volunteer.
life is changes. we've had a major one. we all handle it differently.
i feel blessed to be right where i am right now.
good luck and god bless to you all i hope to come back to this site in a few days and read some postings from some old dear friends who i've not heard from in a long time.

WoooHooo...Im here and accounted for.....sounds as if your doing great Pammy...I, like you, wonder how everyone is doing these days. We had this site going too long not to care about each other...so like Pammy said even if its just one line, PLEASE let us know that you all are ok....we miss ya!

i'm here -tho may not come back again for a while-
am living in michigan-kicked michael out in september and am losing stress weight again....

life is tuff and i'm a survivor.starting to laff and smile again.....
nuff said.

connie- i think of you often!!!!!!!! i saved myself............................

Margo...Im glad your beginning to smile again... your in my thoughts my friend, take care of yourself.

today I had smiled because i came to our marchers page and found 2 people *****plyed!

sorry to hear that things are not going good margo but your right you are a survior and wll come out on top. I've been divorced for many years now. I was enaged 5 years ago but don't know if it was fears or good sense but i broke that off. I'm dating a great guy now for almost 3 years. will i marry? no not planning on it. won't live with anyone either. i'm too independant now and enjoy being the one in charge of my life.

i check in now and then. i always thought that our marchers would continue that we would be the ones who would always be checking in maybe not every day but more than once a year.
 

sometimes we don't always have something to say. but it snice to know that someone out there is listneing!

Dear friends, so glad to pop in to find some activity! Pam, hearty congrats on your new grandbaby. How wonderful for you. I love your ***** and your spirit - and your determination not to compromise that in a relationship! He's lucky to have you. Kim, so good to hear you continue to do so well. You are an inspiration, as always. Margo, what a nice surprise to see your post! I'm so sorry about Michael - living through all that life can throw at you, the good and the bad of it, continues to be my challenge as well. I grew up in Michigan, where did you land? It's good to connect again after so much time. My struggles continue and I have reconciled to the fact that my head will never be free of the demons that reside there; so rather than trying to slay those dragons, I have committed to lulling them to sleep every day. They are a part of me - and if I am to truly learn to love myself, I must learn to love my demons as well. As such, I will take care of them rather than trying to beat them down. The starting point for me in this journey has always been my mind, how I think of myself, how I feel about myself in the context of this big vast world. My problems are miniscule compared to what others deal with, every day. But if I can't take care of me I don't hold a ghost of a chance to take care of anyone else. Or to be a healthy participant in our society. So today, the dragons are sleeping. Tomorrow they may be breathing fire once again aimed at my soul, but I will wrestle with that tomorrow. You all remain forever in my heart. Be well, friends. Maureen

reenie what a great post and so true for all of us!

Hello to all, so good to see you all on here. I am still fighting the battle of the fat monster! I will for the rest of my life. I feel sorry for myself and am depressed , but life goes on. I still work and that keeps me getting up in the morning!  I think about retireing all the time. I will be 63 in Feb. but I have to have a reason to get up! I've been out of work all week for Thanksgiving and I have not done anything  excep****ch tv and play on the computer. Charles did take me out to dinner yesterday at Cracker Barrell. I love you all and hope to hear form you again.

HI TO MY MARCHERS
 NICE TO COME IN TO SEE SOME YOU AND SI HI!!  READING THE POSTS I CAN SEE ALL OF YOU ARE DOING WELL AND IT"S SO GOOD TO COME BACK TO THE BOARD . MY LIFE ISN"T EASY NOW . I HAVE BEEN ILL FOR THE LAST PAST YEAR WITH MS. MY WEIGHT NOW IS 198, I HAVEN'T BEEN ABLE TO EAT WELL . THE PAINS ARE ALL AROUND. MY FRIENDS TAKE CARE. I WILL COME BACK AND KEEP IN TOUCH. GOD BLESS YOU ALL.

HI Judy!!!!!

It was so good to hear from you!!!
We all were fighting the weight battle before and now are fighting it again. But its alittle different now becasue we know what we are missing. We did lose weight we can lose it again.
Its a bigger battle now I think.
Our depression hits us stronger becaseu we know what we are missing.
But that is a key to helping us. We need to remember how it felt to be thinner it will help us be stronger.
We need to remember how we got thinner. Not so much the surgery but that we didn't eat as much food.
Our surgery was wonderful. It helped us. I remember they told us that its a life long battle and that after a while we need to use the smaller stomach as a tool that we'd be able to eat more and things that we couldn't before. thats where all of these different tools can help us,
its so hard,. i know,
I fight it every single day.
i hate that sometimes my head has become the fat voice. it says to me O just today then tomorrow i'll get back with it. I never thought that before.
How do we make it stop?
We know how to make it stop. We need to just stop.
its the hardest thing in the world to do but thats the biggest thing.

So today i'm going to work at stopping.
today when i go to eat something and say O just today i'll have this tomorrow i'll stop. I'll say to myself. NO toDAY I STOP!
it will help my tomorrow.
good luck judy and god bless. let me know  how you've made out if you've made you stop today. see you on facebook!